A Heart that is not Mine

A Heart that is not Mine - Lindsay Walker (Salem Academy Charter School, Eleventh Grade)

I hold your heart in quiet hands, 

Unsure of where we stand. 

It whispers promises of love, of connection, 

But my soul feels unsteady

Like a river without current. 

You are kind, your eyes a bright blue, 

They offer something i cannot name 

And yet, I hesitate,

Feet planted on the earth of solitude, 

Unready to step towards you. 

It isn’t you– bullshit excuse to make

Its the weight of my demons, 

The echos i need to silence

Before i can speak 

The language of us. 

So i stay here,

Not running, yet not reaching 

Holding a heart thats not mine

Waiting for the day 

My heart feels light enough 

To meet yours 

Halfway.