Inquiry into the format of Life
Limit and function of thought
We have to see the limit of thinking, the function of thinking to see the total picture of Existence. ‘What is happening’ or ‘what exists’ is not bound by thinking. Thinking is only a medium of expression, of communication.
Things do not happen as you wish. Thoughts, apprehensions do come to your mind, which you do not like. It means the ‘wishing entity’ is not in control. It means ‘wishing’ and ‘happening’ are related in a frictional mode. Can you feel this friction, this pain without any explanation? You are on the total ground, the Original ground.
Thought is a communication device, a device for expression. And not a deciding, acting or experiencing device. Can one see that thought and experiencing are separate. This seeing is one’s connection to the Original energy. Put your hand in cold water. There is feeling in the body and brain. Now thought can express this feeling, it is not this feeling.
You experience the life energy when you touch, listen, see, move something and so on. The hyper expressions of energy are anger, fear, anxiety, pain, pleasure, confusion and so on. Whatever you experience is complete from moment to moment. Thought can describe the experiencing. It (under the illusion) becomes busy in accepting or rejecting or conceptualizing, what is experienced.
One remains in seeking, striving mode unless one sees ‘what is true’-the total field, the format of life. The illusion posits as if addition to possessions, relations, ideas will give one stable relief.
What you do or know is only for use. Any discovery, innovation can make the life convenient, interesting. It can not take you to the Source, to the Origin. You can not keep yourself apart and find the Source. As the observer is also to be included in the investigation. Whatever the observer sees, finds is bound to it as a singular process. Once the inevitability of this singularity is seen, the Original, the ground as nothingness is realized.
The field of senses and the field of imagination is the total field
To see the total field of existence is the point. Senses see, touch, listen and so on, breathing in and out is going on, there is memory and imagination and thoughts arising in the mind. Anger, fear, anxiety, happiness are the expressions of Life to keep the mind alive. This is the format of Life. Can one see that there is nothing beyond this?
Even the idea of God or 'who created this Universe' arises as thinking, that is, within this Field.
Let us be clear that experiencing is only in the moment, that is, ‘now’. All else is the field of the memory and imagination. The field of memory and imagination is fluid, where time and space do not exist. The field of senses and the field of memory and imagination is the total field, is the format of life, is the format of individual.
The relationship between the field of consciousness (including memory and imagination) and Existence (the field of senses) holds the key to fundamental understanding. Within memory and imagination, everything is oneness; simply we are conscious of those things. Whatever is reflected as outer is Existence in the field of senses. Consciousness as consciousness does not exist. Existence is manifested as two-the observer and the observed. To see this whole paradigm is the end of all questions. As in the field of consciousness, the observer and the observed are one. In oneness, who will question whom? Questions can be only for practical purposes, daily life and not ‘about Existence’-when the field is recognized.
Living is a play between imagination and reality-the total field.
Then who operates the Existence or by what laws it is being operated, why things happen the way they are?
Thinking is again overtaking by these words.
There is the field of senses (touching, seeing and so on)-bound by time and space and the field of memory and imagination, thinking-fluid, not bound. The field of senses is being renewed every moment. This is total field 'you'-the field of senses and the field of memory and imagination.
As digestion of food, circulation of blood, breathing in and out and so on are non-volitional processes-whatever arises in the
mind, the thinking process, is also non-volitional.
Thinking, memory, imagination arise in the fluid field, limitless field. There is ‘no one’ thinking. There is ‘no owner’ of thoughts.
Thought can refer to anything. It can name anything, describe anything. It can not know its own source. It can not know from where it is arising. Any reference about its source will be a thought. You are at the end of the mind. You can not go further. You have touched the Original ground.
Who is impelling your senses to operate (to see, to listen and so on), impelling movements in your body, impelling you to think? What is the power attracting you to something and distracting you from something? It is not to find some explanation for the impelling power or some reference for the impelling power (I am doing or God is doing is also an explanation)-but to just note the impelling itself. There is no one impelling. There is nothing behind impelling. There is only impelling.
Time is the recognition of change between ‘what is at this moment’ and ‘what was at the previous moment’ or ‘will be at the future moment’. This tension is life energy. The movement is unstoppable, continuous, self-sustained.
How material comes into existence?
The Universe is an enclosed structure, enclosed by our being conscious, enclosed by the mind. You can not go beyond this.
Every sense has its separate limit. The limit of seeing is up to the point you can see. The limit of hearing is what you can hear. The limit of touching is what you can touch. The limit of smell is what you can smell.
We are enclosed by what our senses show. We can not go beyond. When we move, we move with our space, with our enclosure. Apart from this enclosure, everything is memory, imagination, thinking. Whatever may happen, this structure does not change. It means this structure is the Original.
Eyes see because the vision is ended at a point. Even in the sky, where we have nothing to see as end. An end as blueness is created as sky to see. If there is no enclosing factor, what the eyes will see? Nothing.
Similarly, ‘I’ is the limit of the mind, consciousness. ‘I’ is the enclosing factor.
‘I’ operates as ‘I’ relates to an object. ‘I’ and the outer, other is bound as a singular process, self-sustained process-the totality.
How material comes into existence?
This is a thought about material. Existence is Original. We are conscious and seeing, touching the material-is the Original. Experiencing is the Original. You can not go beyond experiencing. The world is dependent upon your being conscious of it. ‘You’ is bound to the world is the Original.
Continuous unpredictable change is the Truth.
What causes the change?
It is again a thought ‘about’ change. The inevitability of change silences the brain.
When you are hungry, only one thought that of food is there. When food goes inside the body and the processing starts, brain becomes ready for its function, that is, thoughts start generating. Including the thought of 'you', God, soul, creation. Thoughts arise because of life energy. Thought is entrapped in likes and dislikes. It loses contact with the energy from where it draws its sustenance. The secret, the origin is in this energy and not what thoughts depict.
Brain can not recognize anything without contrast.
We are conscious against being not-conscious.
Everything is bound by the resistance of it. This is the totality.
The same force is propelling all the movements. See any micro movement to see the force.
See how an ant is moving.
See the flowing of river.
Pick a pen and see from where the impulsion to pick comes.
See a bird flying.
See how day changes into night.
See how a thought arises in the mind.
How a bird flies by flapping its wings.
How a fan moves when you ‘on’ the switch.
How a computer obeys your commands.
How you feel when something palatable or unpalatable happens;
This ‘how’ is not a question or explanation. ‘How’ is seeing the propelling force of any micro movement. You see the propelling force when the explanation just stops, it can not go further. Here the ‘observer and the observed’ is seen as a singular process. When you are able to see the micro movement, the atomic movement-you are able to see the force. There is only that force. 'You' is only a name, a word.
There is nothing behind this force.
Things do not happen sequentially or algebraically. They happen in the quantum field. Brain can not comprehend the quantum field. It can not know the quantum field. As knowing is essentially sequential. You have to let go the comfort of knowing. You have to bear the friction of not-knowing. This friction is the key to understanding.
Brain gets activated by the constant impacts, which can be broadly called pain (-) and pleasure (+). And quantum field is instantly recognized when one does not meet ‘what is happening’ by satisfactory ideas.
Existence is friction
You can not find the Original as an object. As the investigation will always require a subject-object format. What ever comes before you including stars, galaxies and so on can not be the source. It is an object. It can have some use, function. To come to the source, the subject (you) is also to be included. To see that subject-object is a singular process rests all seeking.
Object-the world is seen by the subject-the observer, mind. Now there is no observer of the observer. There is nothing behind the observation. 'Why there is no observer' or 'there may be an observer' are all expressions, thoughts arising in the mind. When this is clearly noticed, subject-object is seen as a singular, complete, self-sustained process.
Anything that is being promised as relief, as hope, solace, consolation against what is being experienced now is destroying the sensitivity of the body and brain. It is killing the experiencing, enjoying mechanism of the body and brain. Unless one is in immediate physical danger, ‘what is’ is always sufficient, complete-even if it is extremely difficult situation-it is only psychological discomfort. Psychological comfort-discomfort is the non-stoppable movement. You are on the self-sustained ground.
The ‘feeling’ of friction-‘things are okay’, ‘things are not okay’-is the sign of being alive. The movements in the objective world keep the brain alive by ‘okay’ and ‘not okay’ friction. Brain can not feel stably okay; an unending friction is in motion. The ‘feeling’ and the objective world is seen as a singular process, self-sustained process when ‘not-okay’ is not treated as alien.
To touch the Original you have to take one step- ‘to quieten the clamouring mind which says, ‘why this is so’, ‘why this is not so’. The quietening has to happen without the support of any idea, explanation. You and the world is bound as a singular process, enclosed process, the complete, self-sustained process-including what you dislike and like, fear and cherish. Mind comes under the illusion as if something does not belong to it and is to be thrown out. It escapes pain (any uneasiness) and uncertainty as if the friction of pain and uncertainty will be undone. Here one can see that all pain and uncertainty is psychological discomfort, if it is not immediate physical danger. You can not throw the discomfort out of your mind; there is no place to throw it out. When you see this, you are supremely relaxed-as you have seen yourself as a complete process.
You can not escape, undo or erase any unpleasant feeling or thought.
When you are safe and secured in the moment, only then unpleasant thoughts disturb you.
Can one see this?
Mind is troubled as it wants to solve the ‘unpleasantness’ now.
It wants to feel the comfort of solving something Now, which can not be dealt with or solved Now.
It becomes busy in fighting with unpleasant thoughts as if to feel comfortable Now.
Can one see that the fight is illusory?
Just seeing that nothing can be done Now to feel comfortable about the unpleasant thoughts attunes you to supreme relaxation.
Y V Chawla