My soul is damaged

Post date: Jan 17, 2010 2:43:48 PM

Insectduel got rejected by a woman and he felt heartbroken and embarrassed.

As a 24 year old retired ROM-Hacker, I've never felt more heartbroken after what I did last night. I was urgent to go out with Eri or should I say, Yazuka or whatever the hell her name is. Anyway, what I actually done something so incredible STUPID. I kept bugging her before we decided to go out. Big mistake. That's not what the honest person doing it but a psycho girl chaser like me is. What I did is a mistake and you don't want to do the same if you guys do have dates with girls.

For the first time ever, I actually hearing a voice of a Japanese woman after bugged her. I was totally shaken and couldn't not speak like a normal human person. She couldn't understand me. Anyway, it's common that people panic if I repeatebly call the same person every 5 minutes. Bullshit! Now I'm to too freaked out to speak to Eri ever again and explain what happened. In fact, I don't think she wanted me either after bugging her.

After my loss, I decided to go out in the park with my pocket knife. I felt hurt so I decided to cut my arm and let the blood flow. I have 5 scars in my left arm trying to get the pain away from me. I was walking all night. But when I got home, Carol Melinda was in my home. She told me that I wasn't in 7th Ave and 23rd Street so she told me where I was. Then Carol looked in my arm saying "OH MY GOD, WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED TO YOUR ARM" She thought that Eri did it but I've just cut myself and bled to death.

My brother yelled at me. A lot saying, "This isn't happening, why are you doing this". My tears flow too. I felt like that I wasn't myself anymore. I'm becoming more different but I don't really know what is my real purpose. Even if I made intercourse Shizuko.

I should never try to attempt to date asian Japanese women. I've just not being myself like I did to other girls last year but I felt more sad, nervous and depressed.

That isn't what Insectduel does.