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We're waiting on the rounds change so I'm just sitting here...

Uhhhhhha, what am I gonna to do. A priestess life is no bad way in this world, that's clear, but it doesn't really leave much for me besides what I already know. The Priest Mother says there is an infinite amount that I yet will learn but... uhhha.. sixty different cuttings on an alstalsu herb... it's just... not really different --ha, is it? There's a whole world out there, filled with every color I've never seen----apparently there are trees with needles for Theristrut's sake -- like what!? What lay beyond is just too tantalizing to ignore. I don't know, I feel so unsure as to where I'm headed and what is near chosen for me. I feel like I could wake up everyday for the rest of my like in perpetual wonder at what's down the road or I'll be here forever preparing libations.

Perhaps if I marry well! ...yes it will give me the oppurtunity to visit a little bit beyond the borders, but I will be far too old by then to have any real stride in it, no doubt I'll be looking more for my children's safety in a new land than exploring anything... pfff. And besides that is no way to plan one's life, for it is as likely the man I love will be a peddler as he is a pharaoh. Perish the thought, if I did marry a young noble I'd be executed on the spot.

It's just... can it really be a good sign that I'm daydreaming when I'm supposed to be concentrating with the rest of my class, that the garden views I'm supposed to prune have me wonder about what gardens lay beyond, that my mind wanders at near every moment, and while the other girls have preferences for certain subsets of our calling I am completely ambivalent! Perhaps Nadira --oh where is she! She promised she would meet before they change the rounds, I really wanted some Dabo with honey, my stomach is like a lion right now. Anyways perhaps she is right and I should find myself a boy and then my mind will settle itself in this country instead of fancying another.... But what I really want is one who would take me away from here and flashing a grin when he does it. Uuhaaaaaa am I spoiled or what, haha. Oh finally they're here, and Nedira's with them----hopefully she has my Dabo.