You Were There

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You Were There

Oh God, I have been violated,

My self-esteem has been crushed,

I am without life,

My inner being is numb,

And my senses are not my own,

Why do I hurt without the pain,

I have done nothing to hurt anyone,

I do not deserve this memory forever,

I can not understand this anger from another person,

You were there when I needed You, God,

For I have survived this assault,

And it has made me strong and determined to go on in life.

Thank You God,

For this experience has altered my life,

And changed my outlook for the better,

I do not believe in revenge,

To hurt in return is not your way,

I am unwilling to hate,

Your lessons in my life have a meaning,

So I follow your directions,

By always submitting to you.

To force your will against a person,

Is to traumatize them for life.

These scars are forever eternal.,

And the suffering is felt by all involved.

{Found in Contentment Part 3 Poems of Lamenting}

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Of The Soul

Ever so Of The Soul,

I remember,

Early morning of November 1974,

Being guided forcefully,

Into the alley,

I was a frightened,

I never fought,

I used logic,

In the morning light,

To scare you off,

I saw your face,

I went through an exam,

In shock still,

Gazing in the warm tub,

In shock still,

Giving a report,

In shock still,

Unknown pregnancy,

I would have kept,

Against family’s wishes,

Ever so,

Known Of The Soul.

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Now Ten Years 11/02/84 (raped)

It was to be,

Part of my life.

My destiny,

My strife.

Thru my tears,

Anguish flows.

Now ten years,

Caution still grows.

My life was spared,

God was in my mind.

Among the terror women have shared,

I would rather have lived than died.