PART IV
POSITIVE SPIRIT
CONTENTMENT OF THE SENSES
POEMS OF LAMENTING
FIRST WITNESS SECOND WITNESS MY STORY GRASPING GLORY FRIENDS
CRYING FOR THE LORD GOD IN JESUS' NAME NOW IS THE TIME HIS PROMISE HOW TO...
CONTENTMENT PART I PART II PART III PART IV PART V PART VI PART VII
SO SAID JESUS... WHO IS TO BLAME... END OF TIMES FORGIVENESS
FAITH AND HOPE THE HEALING PEACE ON EARTH MY OWN WORLD
GLORY TO GOD TO CHOOSE ALL NATIONS
Part IV
Poems of Lamenting
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Crazy Days
Spreading an opaque grayness,
Against the wall,
From the light of my stereo,
I drink my hot tea,
And think of the past,
Crazy Days,
I have had them,
Time to forget,
But all is connected,
It is still me,
Time does not erase losses,
They are there,
Always will,
In all ways stay forever,
Crazy Days,
In the past,
Will be in the future,
For me alone,
Time of losses,
Unshed tears,
Well, a few slip downward,
Crazy Days,
We all have them,
Some worse than others,
Better for some,
Medication – need it,
To stay sane,
But I no longer sense God’s Golden Presence,
That surrounds me,
As in the past,
Life is around me,
So, I know,
God is here,
I am on my own,
The Golden Presence is gone.
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Dark Angel
Life is not a waste,
We all serve a purpose,
Time is an essence,
Towards our destiny on earth,
Backwards in time,
We can not do,
So going forward step by step,
Is hard on us all,
Who thinks of it,
Death of a person,
Touch of death,
Dark Angel,
How does a person foresee,
Such an ordeal,
When will our time appear,
Only God knows,
So continue on with life,
And trust within your soul,
God cares.
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Sky of Blue
A pattern of leaves,
Portrayed against a Sky of Blue,
Lazily blown thru the air,
Wistful thinking,
Coffee in my cup,
Medication time,
How I yearn to be free of this,
My heart flies at the thought,
Then my time will be fulfilled,
Until then, tho’,
I will hold my own,
Following God’s Light,
To the best of my abilities,
Cause my responsibilities are endless,
I will stay ‘til God decides my fate,
For the Sky of Blue,
Beckons a peace of heart,
That delves deep from within the soul.
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Say a Prayer
I can not sleep,
Restless night,
Uneasy thoughts,
Of everything,
Taking too much,
On my mind,
I Say a Prayer,
To God in the Name of Jesus,
And my thoughts relax,
Themselves,
For God stands,
By me in all ways,
So always I feel,
I can turn to God,
To help me thru my nights,
And also ease my days.
Just “Say a Prayer”,
I have always been advised,
By my mom,
And it does work.
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A Shadow
I know you are there,
Sensing your shadow,
It startles me,
To think,
You are here,
I talk to you,
And tell a few of your presence,
Whether they believe me,
I do not know,
But I tell you,
“Dad, go back to God”.
So your spirit,
Is here on earth,
Your way of saying,
Hello,
And me, thinking,
I need more help.
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Fear Not
Advising our lives,
Thru Your Means,
I read and hear so much,
Of how You are not considered,
For every day is goodness from You,
To praise every miracle,
Leaves people unable to voice out,
That You have been there,
Following religious outreaches,
It seems only where Your Heart reigns,
Openly and with no restraints,
But there are small handfuls,
Who clearly sing Your Praises,
Without the protection of these syndications,
May You Bless them,
And guide more to positive outward opinions of You.
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Diversity
I am tired of such Diversity,
Why is my life constantly utilizing new experiences,
For I am tense and the knot in my stomach,
Tells me I have had enough,
Where is the trust among each other,
Why is there lies between humanity,
What are the reasons,
Of the game playing for the minds stimulation,
Who cares more than I about life,
I refuse to change my standards for anyone,
For I care about my person and others alike,
And all of life is very dear to me.
In God’s Name,
I will not let the people in,
Who lie exactly like the devil,
To gain entry within my domain.
They are not to be trusted!
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From Behind the Fence
Soulful eyes,
From Behind the Fence,
How can they be refused,
Within their defense,
Try to turn away,
Without remembering the lives,
That will be stilled,
The very next day,
Too many are left on roads,
Many more are abused,
Our animals should not be used,
For careless means,
Save a life,
Adopt a gift,
Create less strife,
For our friends,
When will we remember,
How precious life is,
Our pounds do their best,
And we must do the rest,
Spay or neuter which is right,
Create less heart-ache during the night,
And keep our animals,
From Behind the Fence.
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You are Special
Hearing what turns the world,
I listen in disbelief,
What makes me cry inside,
Of happenings,
Along the course and cruel road,
Why must we wait,
To feel the hurt of others,
A knowing deep within,
Of happenings,
Along the course and cruel road,
Simply I cry out to God,
An endless passion of mine,
Turning to the real world,
Of happenings,
Along the course and cruel world,
How You are Special to me,
With Your Light upon my soul,
Knowing me the way You do,
Truly You make my life happen,
Along the path of the real road.
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Misplaced Heart
What is the difference,
Between me and you,
Is it the color of our skin,
For we do not seek a compromise,
We need not be the same,
Within the quest of each heart,
True is this Spiritual Encouragement,
Tis simply an unwillingness to reach out positively,
Other things are more important,
In life of mortal defiance,
Our needs are similar,
While this thinking of ourselves only,
Must change and rearrange for a New Life,
Looking towards the beauty of togetherness,
And not be guided by a Misplace Heart.
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A New Beginning
Silence upon my soul,
Memories not really forgotten,
Truly the strength is willing,
No more is the passing heart,
The thoughts must be lost,
In a time of a darken pit,
Still I hunger for the control,
Of weeping from within,
So God reminds me of my inner melody,
The quest of my true being,
God shows the way back home,
To me most lovingly,
A New Beginning,
Closely I have my way,
Of The Wisdom,
Forever sharing of You.
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Help Us
Oh, Heavenly Father within Your Spirit,
Help Us to grow strong in Your Light of Light,
Help Us to always praise You in every action and thought,
Help Us to be in acknowledgment of Your Importance,
Help Us to guide others to Your Love,
And please show us to always have Your Blessing on our lips,
With Your every action of positive responses in our talks,
To continue all Your Mercy and Grace considering others,
We Thank You for Your Declaration of Love for us all,
In the Precious Name of Jesus, Amen.
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Someday
Moving simply on faith,
Forever Holy in God’s Name,
Our life You form and shape,
Of an easy natural path to You,
We are always at Your Service,
Any chore is willingly done,
Just show us Your Design,
And Someday our life will be Yours,
At anytime in Your Choosing.
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One Word
Mere words may not be able,
To show my true meanings,
When I close my eyes,
To rest and ponder –
The soul’s true feelings,
I am so weary of the waiting,
Of the life and death struggle,
Built around my heart,
For I care to change that in my power,
If and when the Lord Christ will allow,
Waiting on my experience decides,
A path to conquer all evil within the demons power,
To overwhelms even the strongest of believers,
When the time draws near,
And if I may be a part of The Awakening,
My promises are to fulfill The Heart of Christ,
In every deed of the total day of Renewal.
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To Go On
I am lost without your love,
My heart is alone within my thoughts,
Time continues on my wrist,
Waiting for thoughts to ease,
Yearning for the memories to clear,
Loving flows from reality,
Thinking shears my insides,
Forever a circle of mindless sensations,
Placing all in a libation of simple careless dreams,
To drink when the time draws near of the fate within,
Whenever the heart hurts,
Those in need dread these words,
Triple is the cost of life,
The back is the angle to bite,
Courage takes a passion To Go On.
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Unknown Feelings
Sitting alone,
No one wants to be here,
I do not understand,
All of the reasons,
Why,
Tears on my life,
Doubt within my soul,
No true answers here,
Need to be set free,
Why,
Criss-cross of emotions,
Double standard of life,
Two reasons for everything,
My heart is an unfeeling mass,
Why,
Struggling to go on,
Hurt for every reason,
Doubt within myself,
Lack of trust,
Why, God, why.
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The Right Way for Me
Thoughts of a blue past,
Memories within the shadow cast,
Upon the bed of lost hope,
How am I to cope,
Of all that lies ahead,
Maybe I just dread,
Heartaches that dwell inside,
Knowing that I have tried,
Many things I do not know,
Forever going to and fro,
Always dancing in my mind,
For I need to leave it behind,
So that the beauty will shine thru,
Then all feelings will be true,
And my Goodness of God will always be,
The Right Way for Me.
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Difference of Heart
I am lost for words,
For I truly knew,
Why emptiness,
Is unclosed of sound,
Forever are Your Intentions,
Simple is Your Design,
Why bother,
It is just going thru of emotions,
Doing is an accurate repetition,
Of an everlasting song,
Why continue,
Life is foregoing of Heaven,
Empty is a private word,
Between us is time everlasting,
Why pray,
God is just a Difference of Heart.
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Two of Hearts
No matter where You are,
I know within the night,
The morning calls Your Name,
Daytime speaks the truth,
Every whisper echoes questions,
Of matters dwelling on horizons,
Thoughts over-shadowing the hunger,
Yearning for the essence,
To be complete in all aspects,
For the mellow contemplation of life,
Opening a heart in half,
Separating a gift of Hope,
Forever wondering at times,
What God has to offer my soul,
Taking time for the answers,
That I search without realizing,
My heart praises on high,
Hand-in-hand is this knowledge,
With Jesus found in both Testaments,
So Our Lord is life within the Two of Hearts.
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The Days Ahead
Mysteries in an outer world,
Where will the Hand of Jesus lead us,
The sight of our future,
Unknown within the heart,
Hope is the help of The LORD our God,
Reunion of sight unseen,
Of the present combined foreseen Light,
Inner hedge within my faith,
Caressing a Love between special intentions,
Following the image of a Salvation Prayer,
Torn away is the darken recess of a fallen soul,
True Awakenings of a sincere intention,
To quicken a life eternal,
Stepping on a path of peace toward Our Lord,
For tomorrow The Days Ahead are one.
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And You Love Me
Staggering along the dirty streets,
Denial etched on full expressions,
Lost of strength, stumbling, shear agony,
And You Love me,
Heavy, fumbling burden of weight,
Resignation of trial to death,
Torn emotions delving in grief,
And You Love me,
Caring hands wiping Your Impression,
Love of help from Your wooden sorrow,
Plaited thorns fiery burning,
And You Love me,
Brutal force of nails pounding on Wristed Hands,
Cry of Fate full echo,
Continued reality of the world,
And You Love me,
Casting dies for each greedy ownership,
Disbelief of the inward gloating,
Heart wrenching cry to give Known WORD,
And You Love me,
Forced entry of spear to unify,
Respective thought of one untaught,
Trembling earth of fearing land,
And You Love me,
Thunder rumbling a forlorn anger,
Lightening piercing strengthened darkness,
Pelting rain like Droplets of Blood,
And You Love me,
Hours of chaos surrendering tears,
Mourning and renting of death in twain,
Pure in those of Divine Faith,
And You Love me,
Fasting and courage from one alone,
Begging humbly for remains unclaimed,
Quickly preparing before THY Sabbath,
And You Love me,
Resting thru fasting,
Unknown vows,
Instinctive oaths mouthing exchanges,
And You Love me,
Morning gracious simply Jubilant,
Glory Countenance in Complete Relation,
Fearful soldiers asleep in death,
And You Love me,
Appearing unto believers follow,
Holy Light Christ Reigns Forever,
Tearful Union In Joyful Wait,
Christ of God Loves us all!
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Til I met You
Silence in a wandering soul,
Feelings of numbness around an aching heart,
Will I ever forgive my emotional turmoil,
Time will hopefully banish the scars eternal,
Searching the everlasting field of passions,
To hurt uniquely on my own,
An offering of hardships within,
Of an aura of mixed sensations,
Shadows of ordeals in quiet withdrawn,
Nowhere is there a comforting thought,
Lo, A Light upon my hopes,
A turning,
Encouragement flowing freely at will,
The thoughts never-ending in pages read,
Til I Met You in surrendering choices,
I only realized at last withal,
Verily God is;
Unsavatical!
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Blessed be The Rock
Salvation of God,
Meaning for a promise Dear LORD,
Always leaning against THY Rock,
Sent is the Heaven’s Song,
Do not forget our errors,
We are lost without them,
Heal the heart that binds,
The Rock of sin forgotten,
Forgive then,
And allow the soul to mend,
Hear our prayer,
The call; Blessed be The Rock of Praise.
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Pain within Suffering
Listen to the words,
From deep within yourself,
A fire of the internal sound,
Shifting inside of The Spirit,
No yesterday is complete,
Without the promise of tomorrow,
Of a true life to be,
Pain within Suffering,
Sifting form of emotions,
Calling upon the soul,
To lead the heart forever,
Then tomorrow will be complete.
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Face to Faith
My heart soars within the glittering lights,
On the wing of the nighttime morning sky,
Simply the reason my feelings soon will come,
To reveal the Holiness of a New Beginning of Life Everlasting,
A spark, past the pain, of the Love betwixt us all,
We are aware of Your Awesome Power, Dear God,
Your tremendous Love of us Forever,
With a never-ending patience of our wrong doings,
And You continue to care for us and touch our lives,
In turn, we call on You constantly, to talk, Face to Faith.
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Faith to Face
My heart soars upon the glittering lights,
To reveal the Holiness of a New Beginning of life betwixt us,
Simply the reason my soul delves into the Heavens,
For life renews my knowledge of God,
This is the shape of our values,
A network of mass reasoning,
Last is to cure the destruction,
Forming lives to correct a future,
Let us continue to control our dream,
Hoping a thought within a prayer,
We sacrifice our sanity in Your Name,
An intense force to cure our fate,
Call unto mind and share requirements,
Feel this force of Faith to Face.
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The Light from Above
Whisper the thoughts between each other,
I always reach to You to work things out for me,
And without fail You are forever there,
A little prayer,
To remind me that You are The LORD Almighty,
And Holy is Your praise at all times,
Please remember the Heart to Heart desires of Your Children,
For in Christ’s Name are we saved,
And we follow Your Holy Light from Above.
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Open Window
Viewing from a distance,
You are in my thoughts,
Actions on my own,
I have none,
Reasoning is a simple solution,
With all situations,
But to reckon on my own,
It will not work,
So I have called upon The LORD,
Many constant admissions,
To cleanse and heal the answers,
For this will allow me the decision,
To close that Open Window.
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Please let Go
You are hurting my soul,
Confusing my intentions,
For stress is my enemy,
And there is nothing between us,
Do not hinder my positive heart,
Or claim me as yours,
Cause I do not belong to you,
Christ is my Bridge,
In His Name I am Redeemed,
Try in your spirit,
To please let me go.
{Dad, stop calling me to your side, my earthly passions need me here!}
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New Horizons
Lift our senses,
To the height of reality,
Hearing the words,
Will bring an heart,
Toward the Goodness of Christ,
Humble our soul,
For this simple action,
Will bring the unforgivable,
To the Table of Christ,
Salvation will be complete,
With mindful repentance,
Of the lost soul.
Positive Spirit
Winnemucca, Nv.