I had a lot of event that made me lethargic in this year.
The people I trusted left me, my health went bad, and I had nightmares.
This situation left me with bad feelings.
My feelings scared me.
I wanted to run away from everything
So I wanted to take a break from being honest about my feelings.
I wanted to forget the bad feelings that dominated me and keep my composure.
I tried to find things that could calm my pain
I drew my favorite plants and animals.
The act of imagining and painting animals and plants made me calm.
I made my own sticker by collecting these paintings.
I gave this sticker to my friends. It was pleasant to they like it.
When I was very young, I wanted to be a painter, I feel like I have just fulfill that dream now.
I plan to make a painting club with my family. and I will collect the results and make posters or small books.
I bought a camcorder because I was interested in documentary genre and recorded my daily life.
I also opened a YouTube channel. (Soyoung's Cinema)
I focused on the sound of conversation and recorded the time i enjoyed with my beloved people.
When I was depressed, Looking back at the happy moment helped me feel good.
I will continue to record video so that I won't forget these moments.
Furthermore, I want to make a full-length documentary film about social issues (feminism)
And me and yejung made a video to record our favorite movie lines and places.
It was great to work with my precious friend with the same mind. and I could learn a lot by working with my friend.
She gives a lot of new inspiration to me.
I took a lot of pictures by the river near my house, which is my favorite place.
These scenes did not say anything or do anything to me, but they gave me comfort in silence.
Focusing on such scenes, I could forget about bad feelings.
When I walked along the river and pressed a shutter, I felt like a new world opened up to me.
If I had concentrated on other people, the moment made me focus on me.
When I collected the pictures and saw them, my mind seemed to be on calm.
I want to collect more pictures of these moments and make a photo book. and I want to publish independently it on my own.
I wish other people would feel the serenity that I felt.
I was worried about this semester. Unanticipated moments of anxiety came and couldn't get over the bad feelings.
The school I attended for more than two years made me misfit and the bad memories I had during my school made me want to run away.
So, I commuted school from my house that takes 2 hours and I made a schedule to come to school only 3 days in a week
On the day when I did not come to school, I tried to concentrate on myself as much as I could by drawing, reading books, taking pictures and videos.
I feel much better now. I have more precious friends and i completed projects that I want to do.
Now, I want to do more works and I also have a desire to be a better person.
I leave school for the next year.
For a year, I want to start three projects: designing printed matter, making a photo book, and making a documentary film.
Also,I hope my works make others feel better. Just like they(my works, my friends) helped me.
I want to make things that will make people feel better.
I want to be sincere creator.