I am not jealous

I’m not jealous 

why would I be

I said long ago I didn’t care.

when our feelings weren’t shared

I’m not jealous

Really, I’m not.

I’m standing in the corner.

watching her with him.

But I can't

if I feel something for her.

I’ve known her for 4 years.

It’s hard not to care.

Maybe I’m jealous.

Whenever I see him talk to her

or how she looks at him

I hate myself for not being able to.

I’m not able to love her properly.

I’m not able to tell her I do.

Maybe I am jealous.

Because I know I won’t have what he has

or do what he does

or feel how he feels

or be him for a day.

-18/2/2022

Theme : Love, Jealousy