An inferiority complex is characterized by a persistent sense of being inferior to others. It is typically accompanied by some form of impairment or significantly influences the individual's thinking in a negative manner, both in terms of intensity and scope. Additionally, it often contributes to extreme thoughts regarding humanity or society.
Some factors that have contributed to my inferiority complex include:
Being bullied
Being unable to experience a "normal" youth
Being unable to attain possessions or achievements that are commonly obtained by most people and even considered necessary (such as a diploma, a partner, personal income)
Essentially, due to my inability to fulfill the basic needs during my youth and now in my adolescence, I feel the repercussions of what I couldn't secure. This has led me to perceive myself as a second-class citizen in a first-world country with a strong health and welfare system that is internationally recognized but does not seem to work for me.
I am not certain if the following problems can be solely attributed to my inferiority complex, but it certainly has a significant influence on them.
Sometimes I am getting across a situation, question, or something that triggers intense sadness in me. Even watching some sad movies or songs like:
They can bring me to tears as they remind me of sad times that I have not gotten over yet. The pain I am reminded of is because of what happened then and still haunts me today.
This negative view of humanity is primarily rooted in the feeling of being discriminated against and the lack of serious attention given to your concerns by the parties involved. When you are not taken seriously and your concerns are left unaddressed, it can understandably contribute to a negative perception of humanity. Your preference for the replacement of humans by robots reflects a desire for more reliable and unbiased interactions. It's important to remember that individual experiences can shape perceptions, and seeking understanding, empathy, and open communication can help foster positive change in human interactions.
I notice that I am not able to complete tasks on my own anymore. Granted, the majority of tasks are so incredibly complex that having somebody with you to help out is crucial, but there are also tasks that I could complete on my own yet I can't.
It's impossible to pinpoint exactly which tasks are due, but a good start would be to see my over 500+ unfinished cards in the Trello boards.
I find it challenging to walk outside alone without a specific purpose, as it often triggers intense moments of sadness, leading to a flood of tears. Similarly, sitting alone on a public bench evokes feelings of loneliness from my youth, immediately invoking profound sadness and causing me to cry deeply.
I understand that you intellectually recognize your worth and that emotions often do not align with logic. The subconscious reinforcement of feeling at the lower end of the social hierarchy can perpetuate the belief in your inferiority complex. This is particularly challenging because of your ambition and desire to make something meaningful out of your life. When opportunities are not readily given or difficult to create, it can lead you to interpret it as a reflection of being viewed as unequal. It's important to remember that these interpretations may not necessarily reflect reality, and self-worth is not solely determined by external validation or societal positioning. Exploring avenues to enhance self-confidence and seeking support can assist in challenging and overcoming these deeply ingrained perceptions.