Conclusion

November 2022 Updates and final conclusion as about what to do with my life and marriage. After 1 full year from writting this letter to now, I should be able to make finaly decision about what to do.

Chapter 17

17.1)

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November 2022 Updates and final conclusion about what to do.

UPDATE ONE

11/18/22 1736

After all that has happened. I KNOW that this is not going to work. I am just too unhappy.

My wife and stepchild have NO RESPECT FOR ME! I have to fake it. I have to pretend. I can't be myself.

My wife has bullied me SO GODDAMN MUCH! The children treat me the same way. Stupid argument with Mia about doing the dishes. I want to wash the dishes, and she puts them away. They refuse to let me be the leader. Let me have some things my way. They won't listen to me. Not even basic common courtesies. Even the basic level of politeness that you expect from someone.

The major problem here is that all of the issues detailed in the letter (Chapters 1-16) remain unresolved. I am left feeling disrespected, and angry with almost every daily interaction. I have to bow down to not only Sheila, but the kids too. All issues that were carefully detailed in the letter, given to Sheila in March 2022, have been frankly ignored. All my issues with the marriage have been left unresolved. I am left feeling disrespected. That makes me feel unimportant. I mean I can't win any fights, with any of those three females. Even if I say that something small is important to me, not one of them will take my direction. Like how to do the dishes or not take hour-long hot showers to save the most amount of hot water. It is something small. I know that. But efficiency and saving money on the utility bill is something that is super important to me. I feel like a loser instead of a proud stepdad, and homeowner (and the home utility bill payer).

What am I supposed to do? Stay with them and support them and keep feeling this daily disrespect? I want to feel respected, and confident. I want to be trusted. I want to feel safe saying what I feel. I want to know that if I say something simple like this thing here is important to me, please do it, do as I say, please. I'm not trying to be an asshole or tyrant or anything here. I am asking you to please do as I say. I can't take the daily fighting, and battling over everything little issue. I have been forced to just give in. Surrender what is important to me. Instead, I am seen as just an annoying nagging asshole or a tyrant. Or Sheila will call me abusive if I even get the slightest bit frustrated with complete universal ignorance of even my slightest requests.

Nothing I say really seems to matter to my wife or the kids. Should these things be unresolved for rest for the rest of my life? I am begging to be respected in my house. And honestly,, I feel like that is never going to happen. I want a divorce. I want to not live with these people anymore. I want to live by myself... But I love my house and my home, and I am attached to simple stuff like my small yard and newly paved driveway.

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END OF UPDATE 1 FROM NOVEMBER 18, 2022

17.2)

Marriage Letter 5/20/22 UPDATE

Fri 5/20/22 1420

Sheila now that you have read my letter, i am finally at peace with letting you go.

Not just you, but letting go of everything…

you, my wife and my life, the kids, my step children, my home, 68 abbott st, our business, hot oven cookies….

All of it!

. And your response is very clear. You have rejected my offer of compromising.

You have rejected my offer to do what needs to be done to save this marriage.

You have refused to help build my confidence by giving me respect.

Fri 5/20/22 1440

I can finally let go of you now. Because now that you have read the letter.

And the very next day you blocked my phone number, and you said you hate me..

Those are 2 things that I cannot tolerate.

Those are 2 of my boundaries.

Those are 2 of my deal breakers.

And I made that crystal clear in the letter.

And then you did those very same things the next day. And the day after.

So I gave Sheila the letter on Wednesday may may 18th period and by Friday may 20th she already called the police on me.

That was one of the biggest red flag deal breakers speakers things I wrote about in the letter.

I seriously questioned Sheila's mental health. She needs serious trauma therapy for her child to trauma. F***.

And awful 21 year marriage that she reminded me about every day. She needs help with her children that she cannot parent.

17.3)

Fri 5/20/22 1518

I also question Sheila's ability to read.

She says she's read the letter 3 times now.

But yet she's breaking all of the rules and boundaries that I set forth for me.

She's already broken my comfort zone.

She's already embarrassed me and insulted me.

She is still crushing my self esteem and sense of self worth.

More than ever in fact. She is responding the exact opposite way of the way that I clearly laid out I want to be treated.

This is mind blow…

Fri 5/20/22 1555

I can finally let go of Sheila. And this marriage and this nightmare. And this monstrous woman.

Who says he hates me.

She has screamed at me that she hates me.

She has texted me that she hates me.

She has texted me that she wants a divorce..

And I'm holding on for the sake of our business and our family and the children. And our home.

I am willing to give it all up.

As far as I'm concerned I've already lost it all .

The house the car the business my stepchildren.

I've got nothing to lose here.

BE STRONG

I deserve to be treated as I feel is respectful. I refer to this entire letter as evidence that I am being ignored and disrespected. That demolishes my self-confidence. And I do not feel trusted. And those are the three things I told my wife about in the letter that she did nothing to help fix. She completely rejected sitting down with me and talking about the letter and taking me seriously.

In fact, she just gets angry if I even mention the letter. And her personalized copy of the letter I have never seen again, even though I directly asked her where it was. My theory; she wiped her ass with it as flushed it down the toilet...

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