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21/8:... now what to do when I am disconnected from my server and annotation tool,..., well just go out and enjoy the theatre of life, in other words, wait, until the problem is solved!

22/8: scratch ... now everything goes wrong,.. I suddenly missed my remarkable pro, had a feeling of panic, went to the kitchen, and asked: where did you put my remarkable,?... apparently I also said: what did you do with my remarkable? ... and although it was not my intention to blame her, I was shocked and in panic. Then she.. got aggressive and pushed me away. The reason I asked her was that yesterday she spent hours rearranging the workspace, and even though I had the impression she did not touch that part, I thought she might have taken my favorite tool, that is the remarkable, away ... indeed, remarkable. The panic is partly caused by my not being able to connect with the VU server, making my annotation tool out of reach, disrupting my habit of writing, which makes me feel at a loss, as if I am out of work, without a goal in life, or a means of expression! ...  there might be a benefit though, and that is that I can focus on other things, such as my condition, or another style of working, but the current situation might be such that non of these alternatives her may work and that my life is doomed to become meaningless. The only remedy on this case is to have some patience, perhaps apologize again, and see where it goes, with or without flow!