1/10: ... now, again what to write ... and how, and perhaps why ? ... what does it take to do brain-compatible writing ... to go with the flow, or as I used to call it in kempo ... the performance trance, a kind of self-hypnosis, the state of mu-shin, not thinking, to allow The adaptive system to cope with the issue(s) at hand, although reflection(s) after the action may help to resolve issue(s) of doubt ... and improve the skill(s) in question ... as in writing, drawing and fighting ... it is in a way a strategy to manage yourself, originally meant for survival, but now to be used in cultural and social situation(s), as well as for physical health to adapt to the limitation(s) of, for example age ... and cope with the issue(s) at hand ... including situation(s) of self-defense, even in a ritual way ... as in training martial art(s)... but I may ask myself the question ... how far to go ... that is accept my limit(s), and not only follow moral obligation(s) but search for inspiration(s) and pleasure, and play with the option(s) for effort, reward(s), self-esteem, and attention and respect from others !
4/10:... just when I wanted to start writing, I came across a comparison of the remarkable and the kindle scribe ... now, how would it be to have a scribe, and be able to take note(s) and read at the same time, or is it perhaps better to focus on one thing at the time, and use the writing tablet just for writing, and conversion to typed text, you might even ask what is the most brain-compatible way of working, for both drawing and writing, which is a question I ask myself after a long period of working on my site, and fixing the interconnection(s) between note(s) and theme(s) and providing an option for including image(s), with a reference to other page(s) ... so, after all this work, it is time to relax a bit, and focus on the creative part, writing and drawing, by inspiration, and not by the moral obligation to act, although, indeed, discipline is an important factor and drive for action, to find the rhythm of the day !
5/10: ... to complete the work of today a few note(s), just for the fun of it, in competition with generative AI, which I might also use for that, taking the book on co-intelligence as a reference, but that would not give me the benefit(s) of writing, which provides in its own way a state of mind, like self-hypnosis that allows for taking distance of issue(s) such as domestic tension, the rebel children and the moral obligation(s) of exercise, daily task(s), and, indeed, work, which is a tool of survival, and allows for continuation of the flow of life, as a challenge, but also as an adventure in itself, to let rationality flow, and to drop anxiety and boredom on page(s), as an instrument to remember, keep focus and manage time, or should I speak of mangle time, which should be within the power of an AI, even though likely not possible for me, without instruction of how to take action !
6/10: ... reading the stoic quote(s), it is evident, indeed, that the pressure of time is an important factor in life, giving the idea of not enough time, or action(s) that may be considered a waste of time, giving the feeling of discomfort, and the compulsion to complete the todo list, to relieve the stress, but then adding item(s), in order not to confront yourself with the void, empty space, nothing to do, indeed the paradox of an active life, being surrounded by busy people, with obligation(s) to school(s), institutions), or even family, with an attitude of look how busy I am, my life must have value, and, indeed, action(s) may have reward(s), such as a like on social media or attention and respect from a community, but please remember what the stoic(s) say, keep to yourself, relax and find the truth in yourself, like the wandering monk, far away from any sort of co-intelligence, a life of solitude and silence !
8/10:... indeed, as I indicated in my theme(s) of today, life is not linear, but full with patterns of a complex structure, with event(s) that connect ... and the path from a twinkle to other twinkle(s) is often not easy to follow ... leading to error(s) and failure(s), but also to opportunities and goal(s), that somehow seem to wait to be discovered, and come with vision(s) in unexpected way(s), following the link(s) in the brain, that guide(s) my life and future, but may lead to feeling lost ... and to re-think target(s) and value(s), as well as reflection(s) on what to do ... how to deal with stress, moral obligations(s), domestic task(s), and also how to reach a good level of performance, in particular balance, to find the trance, and yet accept limit(s, and have fun ... to be able to adapt to the flow, and move, in order to participate in the theatre of life, and even experience what you may call spiritual growth, just for tha fun of it !
10/10:.... a bit in doubt what to do ... my wife on retreat, likely her last, the children at school, I am left to my self, as I wrote in my scratch of today, with stiff legs, pain when I walk, which even limit(s) my handstand(s), but I make an effort to accept that, and do only 84, not to cause any damage, and give my-self some rest, and, of course, time to read, where I have to make a choice between learning and the brain, experiment(s) to break the linear pattern of goal(s) and reward(s), and, indeed, the wandering monk, which somehow I feel compelled to keep reading, perhaps because the story reminds me of our one year travel(s) in asia, as well as the topic(s) of solitude and spiritual growth, although the story also has a strong emphasis on talking, writing and book(s) of faith, quite intellectual in effect, which adds to my doubt what to do ... go out, have a smoke and look at the sky ... or stay in my cave/corner and read !
12/10: ... my wife back from the retreat, the body in pain, I make some progress in the wandering-monk, who is also an intellectual, with ambition(s) to write and work, I feel the solitude of my daily life, as a nerd, reading, writing and drawing, with an eye for the children, even though well-educated my self, with some doubt and criticism towards school(s), although I can say that I had great. benefit from the institution(s) of learning, both as a student and when I did my work, teaching and research, first math-oriented, but later with a focus on game design, for example math game(s), and multimedia, which I did like to program, using hush as my vehicle in the DejaVU project, but now, after taking up my cycle(s), including scribble, scratch and screen, I am a bit in doubt how to continue, except for my theme(s) and note(s), which are now my main vehicle for reflection(s), and to express my self !
15/10: ... I almost finished reading the wandering monk, who perhaps might better be called the writing monk, because he goes on and on, even though with a great variety of topic(s), and all in all he writes in a clear, articulated style, mentioning many detail(s), name(s) and place(s) as they come along, in other word(s) it is a relief I am almost at the end of it .., but then what.... again the choice of another book to read, some work with my new camera(s) and telescope(s), even though to connect it all requires work, and seems rather complex, but that is also due to my condition, a bit in pain, low on energy, it makes me lazy, with the inclination to avoid effort, and, indeed, as the monk says in his last word(s), to value simplicity, nevertheless, as I feel the pressure of time, I fall back on my discipline, the pressure on my self, to complete my task(s), accept challenge(s), and face the reality of life !