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7/6: how long does it take to write a few note(s) ? ... note(s) about what ? ... you may ask, but why should you ask that, just read what is about to come next, like the question about walking... how long does it take to make a short walk in the park, as. I try to do daily, exercise therapy, you might say... but more importantly why is there a pression of time, when there is not so much that I have to do, no work, no school, no study, unlike the rest of my family, who all have the obligation to study, take exams, I just examine my self, but unfortunately I set my self goals that must be accomplished, it is my private joke song, a flame in the dark, you might call it my science of life, to go with the flow, keep busy in order to just let it go .., go with the flow, and ask yourself,  well, does it work ?  ... 

13/6:... day after day, life continues ... for the past three weeks I have been busy with work on updating my site and creating my annotation tool, finally every thing seems as good as finished, and instead of my exercises, I now use writing as my therapy, for whatever it is worth ... anyway the last week has been extremely tiring, with the parents meeting in the park, the get 55+ people to move and administrative issues, such as my tax payment, which I did today, in the positive side, I am happy I met all my moral obligations this week, including teaching martial art to the elderly ladies in the dojo, another challenge, and in some sense an adventure needed to keep up my status and contribute to what I may call community work, needed to keep on going with life and not to become and outsider, other than by making an explicit choice for ... solitude ! 

18/6:... all the work done, sitting in my corner, reading the mathematics of marriage, as a means, also, to judge the current condition of being together, now more than twenty years, with the children growing up, and we, both, in the process of aging, which has an impact on both our health and energy, and, naturally takes some energy to cope with,::: : At times I wonder where this all leads, but since it is impossible to know what the future brings, this question makes no sense, and we will both have to see what the future brings, and go with the flow, indeed the flow of life, even if it takes an effort, but as we are both smart people it seems, the effort can be reduced, as, for example my annotation tool does the work for writing text, and the artificial intelligence in chatGTP does at least some of the thinking in the medical field, right or wrong! 

22/6:.. children are playing outside, making noise as children are supposed to do, I sit inside, in my corner, having just finished reading the mathematics of marriage, for the second time to be able to answer more detailed questions, when needed, a bit in doubt whether to go out or not, which might be too much of a moral obligation without much satisfaction or pleasure in the act itself, so what to do, on to the next book, take some rest, or, indeed do a bit of writing, as an exercise, for fun, and to test my annotation tool, accepting the fact that I do not go out, do almost no exercise, and just enjoy being mentally active in my corner, my life in the home cave as it were, taking the time to do the things that one way or another have to be done, in other words, the life of an intellectual, taking profit of the right to be an outsider, and still enjoying family life ... !