16/5: ... what is the magic of writing ... with a busy mind there can only be noise .., a pattern of word(s), one page after another ... what to do ... speak clear ... take a city walk ... search for balance ... and, of course, face reality ... nothing ... just another phrase ... but still an inspiration, to find the motivation to exercise, and focus on meaning ... work on my cycle project, and accept my limit(s). take pain as a guide ... focus on posture and breath ... a fight for life ... and I repeat, a life of solitude and at my stage, what can I do ... silence ... listen to the noise, the music of space ... wait for the opportunity to take action(s), observe event(s) ... the theatre of violence ... act as a guide on the side, manage the force(s) of life ... walk the talk, and sing my song, life is not a joke.... so I look at the sky and take a smoke ... life as a show, and there is only one way to go ... my way ... go with the flow ...
20/5:... what is the role of philosopy in life ... why does it matter ... the answer is clear ... develop the concept(s) to face reality ... a vision, to understand the force(s) of life... and find a mental posture to deal with dilemma(s) ... select the road(s) to follow, the attitude(s) to face dilemma(s) ... in short, to accept life as a game of chance ... contemplate, reflect, and communicate ... void ... indeed, nothing is a guide to moral(s) ... in other word(s), philosopy provides support for the battle of life ... the theatre of violence ... and, remember, courage is the knowledge what to fear ... reflect, practice posture and breath ... fight violence with the gift of fear .... observe, orient, decide and act ... OODA ... a cycle of focus and attention ... for self-defense ... wait, listen ... again, in other word(s), I repeat, observe and act ... take control of your brain, endure the pain, and what you gain is ... respect ...
22/5: ... back home, I listen to the domestic noise ... serious advice ... please, try conversation ... silence ... shadow imagex(s) in my mind ... wait for chance event(s) ... it is a challenge to walk the talk ... observe pattern(s) and go with the flow ... watch the flower(s), look at the crowd ... what do people talk about ... of course, politic(s) ... an eye for problem(s) ... but to reflect you need brain control and vision ... search balance and find a frame of reference to guide experience ... read book(s), go out for a walk ... embrace space, and listen to the crowd ... do I have the discipline to find my place m moral space and a proper form to talk about the issue(s) of interest ... children, money, school trap(s) ... in short the order of life, a busy agenda ... it is my history, family affair(s) ... it takes courage, knowledge of fear, and discipline, to go along and sing my song ... life is not a joke, that is why I smoke and all I can say ... indeed, I try to do it my way ...
24/5:... a life of what ... discipline, writing, exercise ... it takes effort(s) to meet expectation(s)... is it worth it ... well, that is a matter of perspective ... of course, challenge(s) have value ... a battle for life, recognition and self-esteem ,.. day by day ... follow the flow of time ... find the motivation to speak clear ... express opinion(s) and listen ... day by day ... what do people say ... about life, money, children ... family life ... children and wife ... summer in the city, busy crowd(s), just look around, listen to the sound(s), but remember to walk the talk, go out for a run, in other word(s), r(ecover) your u(niverse) n(ow).... tomorrow is another day ... talk to inspire, follow the trail(s).. and if you fail, try again ... indeed, discipline ... with a vision of value ... eat, have fun and, I repeat, go out for a run ... enjoy silence, but do not forget to talk .... and, however minimal, take control and go out for a walk ...
27/5: ... what does it mean to face reality ... it is a simple question, but the answer depends on your perspective(s) ... what do you want to know ... is it a matter of being rational or is there another vision ... like when you look in the mirror... what information do you search for ... knowledge, a direction of what road(s) to take ... or is it a subject to talk about ... well, take a walk and think ... ask yourself, what do I want to know ... about the world, about life, how to act, what to do... just select a strategy and inspect the option(s) ... the way to find information of value ... it doesn't matter, just take your chance ... throw some words), and make a choice ... use your intelligence, or a tool and wait for the answer(s) ... read, digest and take a rest ... the result is here, and I hope it is clear, if not get lost ... and, well you know, whatever you do, go with the flow ...
31/5:... writing can be considered as intellectual exercise ... so, how should we look at drawing ...to draw is to create an image, for example a group of people with children ... they may eat or look at their phone ... focus on the children, or even talk ... their face(s) an entrance to another world ... what is behind their smile ... and imagine what would happen if they turn into violence, attack each other, shout ... a theatre of violence ... but it might be an illusion, a projection of fear ... or even the wish to become a hero, and interfere ... stop fighting ... but then again, life is a fight ... no life without aggression ... energy ... conflict(s) as a way of life ... to develop strength, flexibility and endurance ..- adapt, with an eye for the future ... develop the skill(s) for survival ... meet each other in confrontation(s) ... silence ... the lesson(s) to learn should be clear ... play the game, avoid pain, and observe what happens in the brain(s) ...
3/6:... it is late in the evening, and just for the fun of it, I write a bit, it could be about shit, but fortunately the domestic tension is less ... after reflection(s), the choice was clear, stop the dance(s) of anger and focus on goal(s) with value ... conflict(s) are part of life, and whether you like it or not, communication is essential ,.. and in my opinion, a fight is part of life, just like exercise .... fight with friends ... and practice ignorance for the rest ... silence ... look at it as a test ... and to explain, here is my refrain ... no gain without pain ... all part of the theatre of life ... have fun, find expression, be a battle star with a smile on your face, an eye for opportunity .... find the flame and sing your song, tomorrow is another day, so try to go along, step by step, day by day ,.. and if you fear the pain, use your brain, it is a guide on: the side . and as a refrain, I repeat ... listen to your brain, what it has to say. day by day ...
5/6:... am I a fool to get lost in my tool(s) ... I look at the sky and ask myself why ... look, why read a book ... why walk the talk ... why complain about the pain ... why look at the sky ... go out and watch the crowd ... ask question(s), wait for answer(s) ... does it make sense ... observe, wait and listen ... a city of noise, traffic, busy people, stress is the order of life, a mind full of thought(s) ... face reality ... it is the theatre of life ... children and wife. ... work, school(s), stupid trap(s) ,.. pressure of time ... do the work ... play the game ... a matter of chance ... dilemma(s) ... find solution(s), eat, and go out for a walk, select some topic(s), and talk ... don't ask me why, _. just look at the sky ... try to fly ... go with the flow, just to show what you know ... but, of course, take time to reflect ... what do you expect to be the effect ... why act ... what goal(s) to select ...' life as a project ... with the reward(s) that show ... indeed, you still know how to go with the flow ...
7/6:... the magic of writing ... select option(s) and throw word(s)... that is about it ... why ... well, write a bit, just for the fun of it ... by hand, with a pencil, on paper or a tablet ... but there is more ... it is a way to reflect on the event(s) in my life ... to observe the structure and pattern(s) that give form to my action(s) and thought(s), how I move, my target(s), the error(s), and, of course, how I deal with pain ... no, I don't want to play the pain game ... it takes effort(s), but I go out for a walk, do my exercise(s), and even search for balance, my daily hand stand(s) .... with, I repeat, pain as my guide ... to monitor my self, in body and mind ... the challenge is to adapt to my limit(s) and deal with the issue(s) of life ... move slow, think, speak clear ... indeed, the life of an intellectual in a modern context ,.. twinkle, twinkle, twinkle ... with a history of education(s), stupid trap(s) ... still using tool(s) for self-recommendation(s) .. program, our digital age ... my work, my career ... look back to the future ... think, follow the trail(s), and, from my memory, all I can say is, connect, go on, day by day ...
10/6:... the mathematic(s) of a happy life ... a matrix of choice ... and for the rest, reflect, take action, and calculate the value(s) of reward(s) ... but to learn how to deal with the issue(s) of life, dilemma(s), money, moral obligation(s), domestic task(s), how to select the right option/s), etc ... obviously, you need self-control, know what is in the mind ... energy and brain control ... and, of course, a way to express yourself ,.. silence ... but perhaps there is more ... for example, communication, a community for support and recognition ... know yourself, and know the other(s) ... life is a gift ... but what to do with it ... walk the talk, and fight with friend(s), or act as a guide on the side ... solitude ... a way to face reality, reflect on life, no matter what ... and, when the occasion is there, give support ... and talk, whatever you think ... a game of word(s), taken by chance ,.. and the effect, just observe ... an opportunity to reflect ...
12/6:... solitude ... still in search of balance ... what else can I say, today ... well, there is time pressure, domestic tension, and even a bit of agression ... not evil, just emotion(s), from the stress of work ,.. repetition(s) ... indeed part of the daily routine ... wake-up, eat, exercise ,.. life in the cave, find my corner and read ... out of control ... take a walk, and again eat ... indeed, repeat... day by day, what can I say ... but, then again, it has been a productive day ... I even made a drawing ... remember -- future life ... I sit at a table with the daughter of my son ... I watch her play a game ... life with children ... observe, but do not judge ... give some support , and they will find their way ... at least, that is my experience as a parent ... children have their own life, and they must learn to make their own decision(s) ... survival ... life is not a joke, not always fun, but let them play, let them talk, take them for a walk, and before you know, they can show how to go with the flow, with a smile on their face ... reality, indeed ...