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1/2: ... life is not a joke, and that is why I smoke, and look at the sky to ask myself why, why this and that, have a chat, talk with my wife about our life, and read about the beat(s), the dance of anger ... the noise of the children, and the strategy to follow to change school, and not act like a fool, but find a way to be smart, face reality and deal with the dilemma(s) that are part of family life, in a period of tension, with the pressure of time, so what to do to maintain posture, find balance, handle money issues, a small house and rebel children, well, just reflect on it, get a clear mind, and do the work, in other word(s), be rational and try to have a bit of fun, adapt to your energy level, and have the discipline to exercise, follow your dream(s), and don't forget to eat, but not too much, look at the future, there is more to come, it is all part of life, as you know, there is only one option, indeed, go with the flow !   

4/1: ... when in doubt, what to do ... some say just do it, others say don't, wait, for inspiration, it all depends on who you take as a reference, some say, you must write every day, and some say, don't ask why, just give it a try, write a bit, for the fun of it, throw some word(s), it doesn't matter what, just do it, to develop the skill(s), and clear the mind, reflect on whatever is there, let the word(s) flow, to uncover the value(s) of your experience(s), to find the way to deal with dilemma(s) and the opportunity that life has to offer, to recover from error(s), like smoke in the microwave, cigarettes catching flame(s) followed by an explosion, due to water to control the smoke, indeed, life is not a joke, and it took some effort(s) to clear the mess, and get rid of the broken glass, but let's be clear, it is all part of life, and fortunately, there was no serious damage, other than in the mind, so please be kind, don't complain, apart from the fear there was no pain, just wait for another day ... and that is all I have to say ,..   

9/2: ... I can walk the talk, error, talk the walk, but can I still walk the talk ... well, it takes some discipline, but I give it a try, don't ask me why, that should be clear, I would say, as long as I can walk my way, ..., and if you don't agree... well, let's see... what can I do ... I can talk my way out of it, or fake it a bit .., when there is a problem, there is likely a solution, perhaps not in the best way, but that is not for you to say ... so whatever is at hand, be rational, and give it a try, face reality, and look for a smile, watch the children have fun, and find inspiration in their energy, the gift of life, and for me ... there is not so much left to do, just connect, walk slow, and go with the flow, which in practice means domestic life, task(s] to do ... guide the children, and keep track of my habit(s), exercise, in search of balance, eat, but not too much, and do my work, now with a focus on memory cycle(s), but that may change, that is the pattern of life, my life. and ... well, you know ... just go with the flow ...   

11/2: reflection(s).. I feel a bit lost, now, after reading about cyber culture, a life of digital chaos, body and mind affected by technology, transforming experience into a reality of confusion ... it made me remember -- howl -- an item of the beat generation, with aspiration(s) from zen, the confrontation with the void and the search for meaning, living in the city, as a rebel, with a zen state of mind, to face the dilemma(s) and deal with the force(s) of life, ready to attack at every moment ... what road to take to get out of the way ... digital or in real space, with human or artificial intelligence ... there is no way to say ... manage yourself and pray, to find a way out ... life goes on, and whatever you say, you have to walk the talk, even if it amounts to nothing ... face reality and gain the reward(s), set your goal(s), follow the crowd, and when in doubt make a choice ... select an option, and, listen to what I say, to find your way, indeed, just go with the flow ... the flow of life ...   

12/2:... a body in pain ... no, I did not train ... instead I read, in the corner of my cave, that is where I feel safe, and I am able to observe family life, wait for inspiration(s), and reflect on my history, the event(s) in my life, and I ask my self ... should I write these down, or just let it go ... image(s) in my mind, in flux, one after the other, with no clear connection(s), although there is often a reference to the event(s) of the day, but what can I say .. perhaps I should ask ChatGTP to write my history, and then I could say, look here is another book, but that is not my way, I rather listen to the sound(s) around me, fragment(s) of music, life is not a joke, and, indeed, that is why I smoke, and sing my song, but for how long ... not looking for fame ... but, yes, I want the flame, the energy I need to face reality, the demand(s) of life, adapt to the children and the work of my wife, who gave me a treatment today, and, again, what can I say ... life goes on ... tomorrow is another day ...