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2/1: reflection(s) ... the start of a new year, already the second day, what is there to say, no fear, there will be another day, and another year, and even with the pressure of time, relax, life goes on, just move slow, and go with the flow, take action when there is a goal, and enjoy the reward(s), clear the mind, and have fun, even if you don't know the value of it, it doesn't matter, just throw the word(s), bit by bit, day by day, and whatever you say, I try not to judge, but go along, follow the crowd, and, indeed, please, I do it my way, with discipline and a clear mind, if I may, and, in my opinion, there is no law, other than the rule(s) of the game ... what game you ask, well simply, the game of life, the one we like to play, a game of chance, which requires some discipline, to sing my song, and please, no, it is not a joke, I throw some word(s), and go out for a smoke ...   

4/1:... after reading on writing, I am a bit in doubt whether to write and what, why should I make the effort(s), well... ask the dust ... it may give an answer to this question, and solve the problem(s), but it may also lead to error(s), in an attempt to create self-esteem, find the math of breath, in solitude, by making noise, on paper with a pencil, or using a tool, a tablet, which allows for hand writing with annotation(s), that give access to the underlying layer(s) of thought, indeed, an intellectual game, to get lost in a sea of word(s), that reflect the modern world, in a poetic way, just follow the link(s) and, indeed, get lost, to find the idea(s) that have value and may guide your life, by a phrase or two ... step by step, just look for the right signal/perspective and go with the flow, until you're on the edge, then let it go and try to bring order in your life, observe, reflect, connect the dots, and find closure, ... your self story ...   

7/i: ... late in the evening, the start of a new year, at home with the children, who again go to school, they have to be in time .. and prepare for exam(s) ... for parent(s) stress, which on top of a busy life may lead to a crisis and the desire to take distance, and find refuge in solitude and intellectual activities ... clear, but, however you look at it, the children need our support, and even though they challenge your attitude, one must see the humor of their rebel behavior, it is part of their stage in life ... so, the question is how to cope with the dilemma(s) of domestic life, the pressure of time, the work one has to do, and the fear of problem(s) of health and security, for example due to the traffic, with weather code orange, now, in my opinion, the answer is not to run away, but to stay calm, with a clear mind, and to do the task(s) at hand ... well, judge for yourself, adapt to the force(s) and go with the flow ...   

10/1: ... life goes on, another day, what to say ... a bit in doubt whether to write or not ... what is the use of such creative act(s), to keep my self busy, find meaning or value, or do I want to reflect on my life ... get access to the stream of thought(s) in my mind, relieve the brain, and not to forget the body, of the pain, and just write to take distance, clear my mind, and adapt to the pressure of time, the tension of domestic conflict(s), the dilemma(s) in communication with the children, and accepting solitude, find rest in silence, and, of course, maintain my discipline, exercise balance, and occasionally, in case of conflict(s) use my voice, to express my opinion, and find the energy to make some noise, just for the fun of it, and claim my space, still happy that I do not have to work or go to school, free from those stupid trap(s), but still with the need to adapt, take position, and go with the flow, even if I have to walk slow, I am ready to fight for my right !   

12/1: ... again, in doubt whether to write or not, but why not give it a shot, as a reflection on life, I feel the pressure of time, and in the last few days, the fear of going out, due to the ice, I might fall down, which is a risk, since I am getting old, it even takes more effort to deal with the cold, but the snow is gone, so it is safe again, but, of course, there is stress, even though the domestic problem(s) seem less, the children work for their exam(s), happy sound(s), and of course, the noise, school is a trap, but also fun, to be with their friends, learn, come home and study, just wait and listen, and even when I am in doubt, what to eat, what to read, and where to go, I try to adapt and go with the flow, if possible without pain, share life with my wife, who should not complain, their is nothing to gain, just select from the option(s), make a choice, and use your voice, life goes on, day by day, find your way, scratch some word(s) ... whatever you say, I am here to stay ...