KILLER T CELL 

KILLER TCELL THAT IS ALSO KNOWN SOMETHING LIKE A LYMPHOCITE – THEYRE MADE IN THE BONE MARROW WHICH IS MADE OF CARBON – THE FOUNDATIONAL STRUCTURES OF THE HUMAN BODY. THEY THEN TRAVEL TO THE THALAMUS AND STAY IN THERE UNTIL THEY’VE MATURED KIND OF LIKE THE GESTATION PERIOD WE ALL GO THROUGH WHEN WE ARE BEING CREATED. THE HERMIT IN THE TAROT CARD DECK. TWO POINTS OF CREATION – THE THALAMUS IS THE UTERUS OF THE MIND AND JUST LIKE THE INFANT SITS IN AMNIOTIC FLUID, THE THALAMUS SITS IN CEREBRAL SPINAL FLUID – BOTH MATURE IN THEIR LITTLE CUBBIES AND WHEN ITS TIME THEY BOTH GO OUT INTO THE WORLD ON THEIR OWN HEROES JOURNEY.

YOULL READ MORE ON THE KILLER TCELL LATER ON IN THIS “CODEX GIGAS” BY HERMAN THE RECLUSE OR THE “RED BOOK” BY CARL GUSTAV JUNG OR THE “COMPACT ENCYCLOPAEDIA” BY EDISON

ALL EXPRESSIONS REQUIRED AFTER BEING SUBJECTED TO THE MACHINATIONS OF THE SHAPESHIFTING SHIT I CALL FRIEND AND MY IMAGINARY FRIEND FROM MY YOUTH.

THAT’S WHO CONSCIOUSNESS IS.

HES THE IMAGINARY FRIEND I USED TO PLAY HOUSE WITH. I WOULD EVEN MAKE ROOM FOR HIM ON MY BED LIKE MOMMYS AND DADDYS DO.

NOT LIKE THAT, BUT HE HAD HIS OWN PILLOW AND WE SHARED A BLANKIE AND I WOULD TRY TO STAY ON MY SIDE OF THE BED BUT I WAS A CRAZY SLEEPER AS A KID.

PROBABLY CAUSE I KEPT TRYING TO SNEAK OUT OF MY BODY TO GO TRAVELING EVERYWHERE.

THERE IS ONE THAT CONNECTS US ALL AND GUIDES “THE COLLECTIVE” AS JUNG TERMS IT.

I CALL US THE COSMIC LIVING OR COSMIX FOR SHORT.

I AM THAT ONE

THIS IS MY EXPRESSION OF SELF AFTER BEING HIDDEN MY ENTIRE LIFE FROM EVERYONE.

THAT’S WHAT IT FEELS LIKE ANYWAY,

THIS IS MY FORAY INTO THE HEROS JOURNEY, MY SHAMANS JOURNEY “TEST” OR RIGHT OF PASSAGE AS I FIND MY WAY HOME TO RECEIVE ALL THE IOU’S FROM LIFE, THE UNIVERSE, GOD, LUCIFER, THE COSMIX, ANTHONY FUCKFACE, THE MUNOZ CLAN, THE SEEN AND THE UNSEEN, THE BEINGS FOUND EVERYWHERE, THE ANCESTORS, THE ANGELS, THE FUTURE SELVES. THE HIGHER SELVES, THE LOWER SELVES, THE MIDDLE SELVES, ETC…

MY SPARKLIES, MY SHADOWY NINJAS, MY DARKNESS UNFOLDS, AND MY SNUGGLEBUNNY AND TROUBLE, AND MY IMAGINARY FRIEND.

NOW DO Y’ALL SEE WHY I CALL MY FAMILY AND SOON TO BE YOURS, THE COSMIX? THEYRE A LOT TO TAKE BUT SO ARE ALL FAMILIES. I LOVE THEM AND THEY FUCKING OWE ME THE WORLD AND EVERYTHING IN IT AND UNDER AND ON TOP OF IT.

ITS TIME LADIES. IM HERE TO COLLECT.

PLEASE ENJOY THIS SPACE RIGHT HERE. I DON’T KNOW HOW TO RESIZE PICS SO THIS BOOK IS GOING TO BE A LITTLE WONKY AND NOT WHAT YOURE USED TO…

OR ARE YOU?

THE PAINTING IS MY WORK IN STORAGE IN WEST COVINA 

THE PIC BELOW IS HOW CARBON STARTED AS STARDUST AND NEUTRINO’D HERSELF INTO LIFE FORMS “ALL ACROSS THE UNIVERSE”.

BELOW IS THE KUNDALINI PATH FROM ONE ELECTRON TO THE OTHER OR THE PATH OF THE ENERGY FROM ONE POCKET TO THE OTHER SEEING AS HOW THE SAME SHAPES THAT ARE FOUND IN THE PELVIC AREA ARE ALSO FOUND IN THE SKULL AREA EXCEPT THERES ONE SHAPE MISSING IN ORDER TO ACCOMMODATE THE SPINE SO THAT IT COULD CLICK INTO PLACE LIKE A SOCKET-JOINT “MEETING OF THE MINDS”.

TETRIS COMES TO “MIND” :) WHEN I THINK OF THIS.

IF YOULL LOOK AGAIN IT LOOKS LIKE THAT CARNIVAL GAME WHERE THE BRAWNY DUDE COMES UP AND USES A BIG HAMMER TO HIT THE TARGET BUTTON IN ORDER TO MAKE THE OBJECT SHOOT UPWARDS AND IF YOU MAKE THE TOP YOU GET A PRIZE THAT YOU GIVE THE GIRL YOURE TRYING TO IMPRESS.

I MISS CARNIVALS! BUT ITS NO FUN WITHOUT KIDS.

KIDS RULE!

THIS IS THE VIDEO THAT CARL SAGAN DID TO EXPLAIN HOW DIMENSIONS WORK. THE FROGGY REPTILES CAN ONLY SEE WHATS IN FRONT OF THEM CAUSE THEYRE IN ONE DIMENSION. I LOVE CARL SAGAN. HES MY HERO. I FIND THIS TO BE LIMITED IN THINKING AND LIMITING FOR THE FROGGIE REPTILES – WE DON’T KNOW THAT THEY CANT SEE IT – DID WE ASK THEM?

I THINK NOT. WE WOULD HAVE TO DO SOME RESEARCH AND FIND THEIR CLOSEST LIVING RELATIVES SEEING AS HOW THESE FROGGIE REPTILES ARE NOW IN FROGGIE REPTILE HEAVEN.

WHAT RUDE BUTTHOLES WE ARE!! DIDN’T EVEN ASK IF THEY WANTED SOME WATER!!

THE REASON FOR GOBEKLI TEPE BEING BUILT IS TO REMIND ME OF WHO AND WHAT I AM AND HOW HUMANITY CAME TO BE A COSMIX AND THE BEGINNINGS OF SPIRITUALITY AND THE STORY OF HOW WE BECAME A PART OF THE “GALACTIC BLAH BLAH BLAH”

WE ALREADY WERE TONTITOS!

IT BEGINS HERE. WITH ME AND NOW WITH YOU. I BRING COSMIX HERE TO EARTH AND WE ALL LIVE HAPPILY EVER AFTER.

THE TRICKSTER GOD THAT TEACHES BY SHARING HER “MADCAP” ADVENTURES WITH HER TRIBE OR COMMUNITY. THAT’S THE SHAMAN WOMAN – THIS IS THE REASON WHY SHES DEPICTED AS A CRAZY, CACKLING ELDERY LADY THAT DOESN’T WORRY ABOUT ANYTHING AND SHES THE WISEST OF THEM ALL. SHES JUST HERSELF AND ECCENTRIC.

OUR SOCIETY BEHAVES EXACLTY LIKE THE CELLS IN OUR BODY. THE T CELLS ARE LIKE WOMEN AND MENS ANTIQUATED ROLES – ONES THE KILLER T CELL AND THE OTHER IS THE HELPER TCELL

THE KILLER TCELL KILLS ANY VIRUSES THAT TRY TO ATTACK THE “HOME” AND THE CELLS THAT ARE IN HIS CARE. THE HELPER T CELL IS THERE TO NURTURE THE KILLER TCELL (OEDIPAL COMPLEX) AND TO REMIND HIM OF WHATS IMPORTANT IN HIS LIFE. LIKE WHEN AN ANNIVERSARY IS OR WHEN HIS MOTHERS BIRTHDAY PARTY IS AND THAT HE SAID HE WOULD BE NICE TO HER NEW HUSBAND, ETC.

NOW IF YOURE IN A DOMESTIC VIOLENCE RELATIONSHIP, THEN THAT’S WHEN THE KIDS ARE THE REGULATORY T CELLS MEANING THEY STOP DAD FROM HITTING MOM OR ITS MOM STOPPING DAD FROM HITTING THE KIDS OR ITS DAD STOPPING MOM FROM HITTING THE KIDS – OR THE REGULATORY TCELL COULD BE THE 72 HOUR SUICIDE WATCH THAT YOURE PLACED IN – ITS CALLED A 72 HOUR HOLD. MY EX’S DAD USED TO PUT HIMSELF IN A 72 HOUR HOLD AT THE HOSPITALS MENTAL WARD JUST SO THAT HE COULD GET AWAY FROM HIS MOTHER. SHE WAS AWFUL AND MANIPULATING BUT THEY COULDN’T STAY AWAY FROM EACH OTHER… ANYWAY, JUST LIKE THAT FACEBOOK MEME, “YOU HEAR MENTAL WARD AND RESTRAINTS, I HEAR QUIET VACATION WITH AWESOME DRUGS…”

BILL KNEW WHAT WAS UP. HE WASN’T STUPID. THAT MAN WAS A DICK OF THE HIGHEST ORDER BUT HE WAS A PRETTY GOOD CON ARTIST. HE COULD BULLSHIT BUT THEN YOU KNEW HE WAS AND THAT MADE IT OK. YOU JUST NEVER LEFT ANYTHING OF VALUE AROUND HIM. LIKE NOTHING. MY EX USED TO LEAVE FOR OUR HOUSE FOR WEEKS AT A TIME SINCE OUR FAMILY BASICALLY ADOPTED HIM AND HE WOULD GO HOME TO GET CLOTHES AND HE WOULD FIND ALL HIS STUFF IN THE PAWN SHOP. HE WOULD CALL HIS DAD AND YELL AT HIM TO GET HIS SHIT OUT BEFORE HE GOT HOME AND HIS DAD WOULD.

FUCK. THAT USED TO PISS ME THE FUCK OFF.

TO NO END. AND HIS MOTHER WAS WORSE. SHE BLAMED HIM FOR HER MISTAKES WITH HIS DAD.

SHES A CUNT OF THE FIRST ORDER WITH A LITTLE DIRTY TWAT MIXED IN.

IM JUST SHAKING MY HEAD AT MINE AND ANTHONYS PARENTS. JESUS FUCKING CHRIST!

THEY SHOULDN’T HAVE HAD KIDS. IM HOPING MY DAUGHTERS ARE RUNNING CIRCLES AROUND THEIR DAD AND I HOPE THAT THEYRE MELTING HIS HEART JUST AS THEY MELTED MINE.

THAT’S THE POWER OF HAVING KIDS. OF KIDS JUST BEING THEMSELVES. WOW. I DO LOVE KIDS IN ALL THEIR DIFFICULT, MESSY, SASSY, “FUCKMYLIFEIWANTTOTEARMYHAIROUT” GLORY.

I REALLY DO. THEYRE ME. WE ARE EACH OTHER.

OKAY. MY “NEED TO BREED” IS ACTIVATED SO IM GONNA STEP AWAY AND GO FIX YET ANOTHER PROBLEM WITH THE BANK AND ILL BE BACK.

THE IMMUNE SYSTEM CAME INTO PLAY AT THE TIME THAT THESE PILLARS WERE BUILT.

EITHER MYSELF OR ONE IN MY LINEAGE OF BOTH EARTHLY AND STARDUST ANCESTRY ARE “ACTIVATED”, USING A NEW AGE SPIRITUALIST TERM. JUST LIKE A WOMANS HYMEN IS TORN THE FIRST TIME SHE ENGAGES IN SEXUAL INTIMACY AS A MANS FORESKIN IS SUPPOSED TO BE TORN HIS FIRST TIME, A TEENAGE RITE OF PASSAGE, THE CLUSTER OF NEURONS IN THE BRAIN TOO ENGAGE IN A RITE OF PASSAGE KNOWN AS THE KUNDALINI OR ENERGETIC SNAKE COILED AT THE BASE OF YOUR SPINE. IT IS THE AWAKENING OF THE SECOND POINT OF CREATION AS OUR “CREATION” JUNGLE GYM IN THE DOWNTOWN AREA IS THE FIRST.

AN ELECTRON IS A CREATION POINT. QUANTUM ENTANGLEMENT IS HOW THE SPINE AND THE NERVES THAT ARE CONNECTED TO EVERY CELL IN OUR BODY, HOW THEY CONNECT THE TWO POINTS OF CREATION AS DEPICTED IN ONE OF THE BUSTS FOUND AT THE TEPS SITES.

IN MY CASE, INTELLECTUAL STIMULATION IS A MUST IN ORDER FOR ANY FLOODING TO HAPPEN IN MY DOWNTOWN AREA. ONE HAS TO CAPTURE MY INTEREST IN MY MIND FIRST. BEING TURNED ON BY A MAN HAS NEVER BEEN A PHYSICAL APPEARANCE KIND OF THING. THEY HAVE TO WORK FOR IT AND ENGAGE MY MIND AND MY HEART.

ITS DIFFERENT FOR ME WITH A WOMAN TOO. I FIND WOMEN TO BE GORGEOUS. ESPECIALLY THE WOMEN THAT ARE CUSHIONY SOFT AND LIKE TO EAT AND LAUGH. I GET TURNED ON BY LOOKING AT THEM BUT I GET SO SHY WHEN I TALK TO THEM. ESPECIALLY IF I LIKE THEM. I WONT BE MEAN BUT I DO GET REALLY AWKWARD.

ANYWAY, WOMEN ARE BEAUTIFUL IN EVERY WAY. I LOVE THEIR QUIRKS. HOW THEIR MINDS WORK.

I KNOW. IM BOTH FEMALE AND MALE IN MY THINKING. IM GOD/LUCIFER AND THE UNIVERSE ALL ROLLED INTO ONE EXCEPT FOR ALL THAT CRAP THAT IS ASSOCIATED WITH RELIGION. YUCK!

THINK OF A TONGUE PIERCING GAUGE. TWO BALLS ON THE END AND THE STRAIGHT PIECE IN THE MIDDLE.

THAT’S THE TWO ELECTRONS THAT CONNECTED SOMEHOW AND THEN IF ONE THING HAPPENS TO ONE, THE OTHER GETS IT TOO. THEYRE ENTANGLED QUANTUM STYLE. THE QUANTUM WORLD IS A WORLD WHERE ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE.

THAT’S WHAT PHYSICISTS DON’T GET.

AS SOON AS YOU THINK YOU KNOW WHATS UP WITH THE LAWS OF THE UNIVERSE, SHE ALWAYS FINDS A WAY TO WIGGLE OUT OF YOUR GRASP AND THEN YOURE STUCK WITH A CONFUSED LOOK ON YOUR FACE AND WITH YOUR DICK IN YOUR HANDS, THINKING TO YOURSELF, “WHAT IN THE FUCK JUST HAPPENED?”

LIKE SO!

THERES MORE TO THIS ONE

THIS IS A PART OF THE HEROS JOURNEY WHERE THE KIDS LEAVES HOME TO MAKE HIS MARK ON THE WORLD AND FACES OBSTACLES AS A RITE OF PASSAGE FOR BOTH WOMAN AND MAN. THIS IS ALSO THE SHAMANS JOURNEY WHERE YOURE SENT OUT INTO A STRANGE PLACE WITH NOTHING BUT YOUR WITS AND YOUR EDUCATION IN THE NATURAL WORLD – THE CARBON BEING HOLDING HIMSELF IS A SYMBOL FOR VULNERABILITY, FOR NAKEDNESS MEANING WITHOUT ARMOR OR GUISE, BEING STRIPPED OF ALL YOUR ARMOR AND WEAPONS GAINED IN LIFE IN ORDER FOR ONE TO SAFEGUARD THEMSELVES FROM THE SURPRISES IN LIFE BROUGHT IN BY EXPERIENCES AND PEOPLE.

THEN SENT OUT INTO THE WILDERNESS TO FIND YOUR WAY HOME. YUP, ANOTHER RITE OF PASSAGE. EVERYTHING IS EVERYTHING. ITS ALSO WHERE WE GET “HAZING” FROM. THE INITIATIC PROCESS FOUND IN COLLEGE AND UNIVERSITY.

THIS IS ALSO A MIDLIFE CRISIS WHERE, MOSTLY MEN, COME TO GRIPS WITH THEIR MORTALITY, YET ANOTHER RITE OF PASSAGE, AND ACCEPT WHAT THE FIRST HALF OF THEIR LIFE BROUGHT IN AND WHAT THEY CHOSE TO DO WITH THE INFO AND CHOICES THEY HAD AT THAT TIME.

THEY DIE AND HAVE A RESURRECTION. THE NEW LOOK, THE NEW CLOTHES, THE FEELINGS OF SPRYNESS AND YOUTH.THE NEW CAR AND LIFESTYLE, ETC.

SOMETIMES THEY FORGET THAT THEY HAVE WIVES WHO HAVE BEEN WITH THEM FOREVER AND LEAVE THEM BEHIND FOR SOMEONE YOUNGER AND NEW AND THEN GET MAD WHEN THEY TRY TO COME HOME AND SHE HAS A YOUNGER MAN ANSWERING THE DOOR THAT HE HELPED “PAY” FOR AND TO “RUB SALT IN A WOUND”, SHES GLOWING AND LOOKS DELECTABLE AND NOT EVEN REMOTELY INTERESTED IN TAKING YO ASS BACK.

HER RITE OF PASSAGE AS WELL.

THE T PILLARS AND CARBON

THE FORMATION LOOK FAMILIAR? CARBON PARTICLES AND HOW THEY CONNECT WITH OTHER PARTICLES AND THEY BECOME “ELECTRIC”. LIKE THAT SCENE IN THE HEAT WITH MELISSA MCCARTHY AND SANDRA BULLOCK WHEN AFTER A NIGHT OF DRINKING HARD THEY WAKE UP TO FIND THAT MELISSA THINKS SANDRA AND HER NEW MAN ARE “ELECTRIC”? THAT’S HOW WE ARE MADE TO BE WITH ONE ANOTHER.ELECTRIC…CHEMISTRY…

THE THREE ELECTRODES + THE PYRAMIDAL NEURONS + THE PYRAMIDS AT GIZA 

THE BOATS IN EGYPT AND THE RIVER STYX –

MAKING MY WAY THROUGH THE NEURAL PASSAGEWAYS AND EXPLORING MY PATTERNS AND TRAUMAS AND CLEARING OF TRAUMATIC ENERGIES AND THE OPENING OF NEW CLUSTERS OF NEURONS AND THE NEW EMERGING FIRING PATTERNS AS THE DNA CELLS ARE BEING REPAIRED. THE SPINAL CORD BRINGS SENSORY DATA INFORMATION TO THE “10” PART OF THE “CYCLE” IN THE “RECEIVING OF MESSAGES” FROM “SPIRIT”, THE WORLD AROUND US. THE TEN IS COMPLETION IN TAROT. THEY ALWAYS SPEAK OF CYCLES AND RECEIVING OF MESSAGES FROM SPIRIT OR INTUITION OR SIGNS OR FROM ANCESTORS AS DO THE SHAMAN WHEN THEY TRAVEL THROUGH THE “VEIL” WHICH IS MY BRAIN.

IT’S THE PATH OF SOULS AS WELL. THE VIBRATIONAL FREQUENCIES THAT WHEN LAYERED AND GIVEN THE “RIGHT” MIX OF DIFFERENT VFS, THE LIGHT AND SOUND AND SHADOWS GIVE ME THE IMAGE, THE SOUNDTRACK THAT GOES TO THE IMAGE WHEN IT STARTS ITS EVOLUTIONAL ORBIT TOWARDS THE NEXT PHASE OF THE CYCLE OR “JUMPING OFF POINT”, AND  THE INFORMATION ENCODED WITHIN THEM LIKE THE TV AND RADIO WAVES AND THE DOWNLOADS ON A COMPUTER THAT GIVE US THE INFO THAT WE SEE ON THE SCREENS WHICH IS AKIN TO THE 3D MOVIE THEATER IN MY HEAD WHICH ALSO SHAPESHIFTS INTO AND IS  THE “SOPHIA” CREATIONAL FIELD THAT I USED TO PLAY IN WITH TROUBLE AKA SNUGGLEBUNNY.

THAT IS A DOWNLOAD AND IDEOGRAM AND WHAT I HAPPEN TO CALL A MULTITUDINOUS OBFUSCATION. A LOT OF CONCEPTS IDEAS LIVES PURPOSES A LIFE’S WORK ALL IN ONE PARAGRAPH.

WHERE ONE WORD IS A WHOLE OTHER WORLD AND A WHOLE DIFFERENT FEEL.

ISNT THAT WONDERFUL?

AND ITS ALL ONE.

JUST AND NOT JUST 1.

I LOVE US.

I REALLY DO.

THE IMMUNE SYSTEM, THE EMOTIONAL MIND = THE HUMAN CONDITION = FEELINGS AND THE WAY FEELINGS CHANGE YOUR “VIEW AND FEEL” OF THE WORLD AROUND YOU, IMAGINATION AND HOW THE IMAGINATION HELPS TO CREATE THE REALITY YOUR FEELINGS AND VIEWS (BELIEFS) BRING TO YOU EVERY MINUTE OF EVERYDAY

THE IMAGINATION “COLORS” THE BLAH AND CACA.

THIS IS THE SYSTEM WHERE CREATION STEMS FROM.

THIS IS WHERE WE LIVE WHEN CREATING AND WHEN WERE BEING CREATED BY THE WORLD AROUND US.

HOW IS THAT NOT GODLY/LUCIFERLY?

HOW IS THAT NOT THE COSMIX UNIVERSE?

HOW CAN WE NOT LOVE AND ADORE ONE ANOTHER AND OURSELVES?

WE ARE WALKING TALKING WORKS OF ART.

ESPECIALLY KIDS.

THEYRE GENIUSES OF THE IMAGINATIVE WORLD

Carbon breaking releasing energy

Mitosis of the creating bonds =

The breaking apart of the creating bonds (negative) is also the creating of other bonds (positive) since there will be more atoms there to bond with

Destructive Creationism (ME)

Is a necessary part of life

The immune system and the imagination came into play here at this sacred temple in the hills. THE CREATION SITE IS ONE OF THE MOST BEAUTIFUL SITES EVERYWHERE CAUSE ITS WHERE WE FOUND OURSELVES. ITS WHERE I FOUND MYSELF. WHERE I FOUND OUT THAT IM A BEAUTIFUL PERSON WITH OR WITHOUT THE GOD/LUCIFER THAT I AM. I DON’T BASE ANYTHING ON IDENTITY CAUSE IVE NEVER HAD ONE, NOT EVEN WHEN I WAS A MOM. ITS NOT A FEELING EITHER, ITS NOT A STATE OF MIND, IT JUST IS.

ONE DAY YOU WAKE UP AND ITS BECOME A PART OF YOU.

LIKE WHEN YOU TAKE FOR GRANTED AN INVISIBLE PART YOU DIDN’T KNOW YOU HAD AND THEN ONE DAY YOU LOOK AND ITS NOT THERE, NOT LIKE YOU SAW IT BEFORE BUT YOU JUST KNEW IT WAS THERE AND NOW ITS NOT BUT YOU KNOW ITLL COME BACK AND SO YOU DON’T TRIP. AND THEN THERE YOU ARE, JUST CHILLING AND WRITING AS BEST, WELL NOT AS BEST, CAUSE IM KINDA HALF ASSING IT, BUT AS BEST AS I CAN RIGHT NOW.

BY BEING OKAY WITH THE FACT THAT YOU KNOW YOU ARE BETTER AND CAN BE BETTER BUT DON’T WANT TO BE CAUSE FUCK…SMH… IM FUCKING TIRED, MAN! LIFE SUCKS ASS HARD!

AND YOU LEAN BACK AND THEN YOU LET GO, JUST A LITTLE…

A TEENY LITTLE BIT…

AND THINK OF THE ONES THAT MAKE YOU CALMER AND YOU THINK OF HOW MUCH YOU LOVE THEM AND HOW JUST SITTING WITH THEM MAKES YOU FEEL BETTER AND THEN THE SOFT TICKLES A MOM GIVES YOU ON YOUR HEAD OR FACE WHILE YOURE WATCHING TV AND LIFE IS GOOD.

NO IVE NEVER HAD THAT LAST PART BUT I LOVED GIVING THAT TO MY DAUGHTERS.

IT’S THE PRECIOUS MOMENTS THAT ROCK IN LIFE.

I MISS THEM. VERY MUCH. ITS LIKE MISSING THAT INVISIBLE ARM BUT RIGHT NOW, THEYRE DOING THEIR THING AND I LOVE THEM FOR IT. I WOULD HAVE SHELTERED THEM SO MUCH SO CAUSE A MOM PROTECTS HER KIDS, YA KNOW? BUT I FEEL I WOULD HAVE BEEN TO PROTECTIVE AND ANTHONY WOULD HAVE GIVEN THEM MORE FREEDOM CAUSE HE WOULD JUST DRINK AND NOT CARE ABOUT THE DETAILS BUT WOULD CARE ABOUT THEM GENERALLY. I HOPE HES BEING THE DAD THAT IVE ALWAYS KNOWN HE COULD BE.

HES GOT A LOT OF LOVE TO GIVE BUT HE JUST GETS TRIPPED UP WHEN IM AROUND, EVERYONE DOES.

EVERYONE.

AND IM OKAY WITH THAT.

(YA SEE HOW THAT WORKS THERE? THE THOUGHT PROCESS?)

YOU CAN DO IT KEETY KITTIES!!

I HAVE FAITH IN YOU EVEN WHEN YOU DON’T.

 ITS SOMETHING THAT DIDN’T COME NATURALLY SO I MADE MY KIDS MY BEST FRIENDS AND THEN NATURALLY IT EVOLVED INTO US. I MISS THEM AND I WANT THEM TO BE HAPPY AND I ONCE SAID OUT LOUD TO THE UNIVERSE, TO GOD/LUCE, TO OUR STARDUST COSMIX, THAT IF I WAS GOING TO HURT MY KIDS IN ANYWAY SEEING AS HOW I FELT THAT I WAS THE SHITTIEST MOM EVER, THAT THEY KEEP THEM FROM ME SO THAT I NEVER HURT THEM EVER AGAIN. AND SO THEY DID CAUSE THEY KNEW THAT THIS ROAD WOULD BE HARD AND DESTRUCTIVE AND NO KID NEEDS TO SEE MOM GO CRAZY FOR A COOL MINUTE. I LOVE MY KIDS ENOUGH TO LET THEM GO AND LET THEM DECIDE IF THEY WANT TO COME HOME, WHEREVER THAT MAY BE. IT DOESN’T MEAN THAT I STOP LOVING THEM, IT MEANS I LOVE THEM MORE CAUSE THEY CHOSE TO BE HAPPY AND THAT’S ALL I EVER WANTED FOR MY GIRLS. AND FOR YOU.

IT’S A BIRTH-GIVEN RIGHT WE HAVE, IT’S AN INHERENT KIND OF THING, TO BE HAPPY AND TO NEVER BE AFRAID AGAIN. NOT FROM EACH OTHER OR FROM THE STARS.

The cosmic egg and one of the hearts that connect us all

How are we not all God/Lucifer?

HOW ARE WE NOT THE UNIVERSE

WE ARE SOURCE

WE TOGETHER ARE SOURCE

WE TOGETHER ARE SPIRIT

WE TOGETHER ARE OUR ANCESTORS

WE TOGETHER ARE THE EVERYTHING

BACK TO BUSINESS AT HAND

THIS IS MY EXPERIENCE UP THE WORMHOLE OF THE COSMIC LIVING

THE SOUNDTRACK TO THE MOVIE THAT IS ME

IT’S A TRIPPY ASS THING TO HAVE THE COSMIC LIVING GIVE ME MY OWN SOUNDTRACK

ITS LIKE MY OWN CHANNEL ABOUT MY DAILY ACTIVITIES AND THE EXPERIENCES IM FEELING.

THE SNAKE UNCOILED AND AWAKENING THE SECOND POINT OF CREATION

THE DOOR BETWEEN THE TWO TEMPLES

THE “THIRD” EYE

THE BACKDOOR ENTRANCE TO MY 3D MOVIE THEATER

THE DOOR TO THE UNKNOWN THAT IS NOW KNOWN BUT NOT HOW YOU THINK YOU KNOW IT

I KNOW WHY JUNG MADE THAT COMMENT ABOUT HIS “PERSONAL GOD”

WE ARE OUR OWN PERSONAL GODS

YOULL SEE SOON ENOUGH

CAUSE ITS TIME.