2chan (Roro)

TW- This post has mentions of suicide. If you think you could get triggered, please stop reading here.

Here is the original thread these messages were taken from.

Roro was typing EXTREMELY badly in these 2chan posts. It was bad enough for a blog poster to "translate" or "decode" it, basically, it's was really hard to read. Credit to this blog post with "decoding" what she said.

All translations by Hikari.

Translation for image 1

What I’ve been thinking about.

I want to do a suicide stream. A serious one, and I’ll do it in a way FC2 won’t delete it, so it would have blown up.

Maybe I’ll have threads made dedicated to me on Nyu-soku.

I’m imagining so many things about my suicide stream.

I was deleting a lot this afternoon. I’m doing ID and I’m writing this right now. I think I’m going to get a buunch of backlash from this. But if I spoil it now, there’s no point in the suicide stream.

At least, I think so. That’s why it has to be sudden, and I’ve wanted to do something like this.

When I do that my head

Note- this isn’t the full post, but it stops mid sentence for some reason

Note 2- FC2 is a site Roro used to stream on

Note 3- Nyu-soku is a news thread on 2chan

Note 4- idk what the “doing ID” thing is, literally says that, also don’t know what she was deleting, maybe some previous posts?

Translation for image 2

I think I should do this suicide stream.

Because I’ve been a normal cute girl today That’s why, if I die, I think people will be really surprised.

Maybe they’ll think I died from stress because of entrance exams.

If I write this, I think I’ll be hated from now on. My fans/“listeners” will probably feel bad for me. I don’t like that So please don’t hate me. If you hate me I’ll fall/leave So I’m fine with it being entrance exams. I’m thankful I could spoil it.

Note 1- Roro is a third year student in Junior high, and that’s the year where you have to start studying for entrance exams to go to senior high school. Almost all schools have an exam you have to pass in order to get in, it’s really taken seriously.

Note 2- the word リスナー(lisuna-), translating to listeners is used. Refers to listeners/fans on the radio but it’s used on the internet to refer to fans.

Note 3- idk if she said the word 落ちる(ochiru) to mean actually falling off, or an internet slang for logging out

Translation for image 3

Someone, I don’t want make a new account anymore. Yes. I’m sorry to those who are surprised. I’m writing. This without thinking. I’m worried if anyone is reading this. I’m sorry for not being dead. I’m sorry. I’m sorry.

I’m not faking right now, I understand I won’t be believed. But if you don’t believe me really, right now, today or yesterday, I didn’t have something bad happen!!! So, I’m sorry for writing this. I’ll probably be embarrassed if I read this back later. Even so, I’m glad I wrote this. The route where I didn’t write this is a different universe, a parallel world.

I can’t be blamed for being hated on. I really can’t. If I’m told that “you’re lying anyways” I might die. Aaaaaaaaaaaaaa I don’t want to do this anymoreeeeeeee I don’t like thissssss I’m scread scatedf scarefg scarfd dcated scared scared There’s an image playing for some time, imaging about my suicide stream. I’m repeating my imaginations. Repeating.

Note- scared is spelt wrong on purpose, the original post has TERRIBLE Japanese, just wanted to emphasize that.

Note 2- idk what the “someone” in the first sentence is supposed to mean, but I think she’s just trying to find anyone that would listen to her. But I can’t confirm.

Translation for image 4

Repeating. I wouldn’t be able to do this if I spoiled the surprise.

Because I don’t think it’s pretty. First, I’ll show my face. Then, I’m wearing my school uniform. I’m not wearing socks. That’s because I think that is pretty. Once there’s more than 1000 people, I’ll leave my house from the balcony.

Then I’ll (??????) walk. I’ll go up the stairs. I’ll go to the 14th floor, never mind, the 18th floor. On the other side there’s the landing.

Then I realised. Below that place is concrete, so if I hit my head, it’ll be painful, or something like that. Aaaaaaaaaaaaimcreepyaaaaaaaimcreepyimsor But I’ll write. I’ll beat the creepiness and write without thinking. I can’t think. Then, that’s why my feet

Note- the (???) is unreadable in the original text, it was really badly written

Note2- the more than 1000 people thing probably refers to the viewers on her stream, but idk.

Note 3- this bit of text seems to be a continuation from the previous screenshot, but I can’t tell. She may have just repeated the last sentence on her last post.

Note 4- the “aaaaimcreepy” is just a guess, she writes きもちわるい(creepy/gross) but she doesn’t refer to who is creepy/gross. I’m going to assume she’s referring to herself, since she seems to kind of understand how what she’s saying is irrational, but I can’t say for sure. There may have been a person in her life that was creepy, or she could be referring to her viewers.

Note 5- the last sentence is cut off for no reason. Idk why. Maybe restrictions on the length of a post? Idk, I’ve never used 2chan before

Note 6- she seems to be mixing up past and present tense, I kept that in this translation, which is why the sentences may seem a little strange. I think she’s talking about when she had the idea of jumping off the apartment.

Translation for image 5

I’m still scared so I’ll just write it all. I have my legs out.

Then today. I realized “I should just jump off!” and I’ll be a legend. And then I think, “I’ll have everyone’s attentiooooooon” I’ll have a thread on Nyu-soku. I thought that’ll be really nice.

That’s why if I post this today, I wouldn’t be scared when I fall. I know it’s creepy. I’m sorry please forgive me. And then, I think if my blood gushes out everyone will watch me.

And people I don’t know will watch me. I’ve thought about this for a while. I’m thinking about becoming a legend after dying. It’s the same as when I didn’t stop when I did my first stream on TwitCast.

This morning, today is the day I get my TwitCast ban lifted, I remembered that really well. That’s why I might as well erase everything and be gone. Then everyone will be surprised. Imcreepyimcreepyimsorry I don’t like this,

I am sorry for others that are suffering but I’ll write without thinking about the feelings of those people. I’ve made up my mind to write this, took some courage to do this. Okay. And. It’s all deleted.

Note 1- I’m pretty sure she’s continuing from her last post.

Note 2- TwitCast is a live streaming site Roro used. idk how popular it is overseas but TwitCast is pretty popular here in Japan.

Note 3- idk why she was banned, but it’s probably because of erotic content, considering the types of streams she made.

Note 4-“I’m am sorry for others that are suffering” this was hard to translate. She doesn’t say that she feels bad for them, it’s more like “I’m sorry for doing this even though I suffer less than you”. Hope you understand what I mean.

Translation for image 6

Then I was sad. That’s why I thought “what should I do on my next streaaaam”

First, I thought about when I got into senior high school. If I suddenly appeared and I had gotten into senior high everyone maybe everyone would be surprised. Then, I thought about when I would get “May disease”. May next year.

I thought, “if I suddenly did a suicide stream I’ll be a legeeeend”. Once I started thinking about it, I couldn’t stop. I’ll do it today!! I’ll do it today!!

But it scares me. I’m brainwashed so I think suicide is (???????).

That’s why I hesitated. And that’s why

I’m writing here right now. Really good. Aaah I’m glad. I was scared. I was scared.

Now that I’ve spoiled the surprised it’s going to be okay. There’s no point if no one sees this though. My stomach floats. I’m scared of dying. (????)!!! Aaaaa is everyone reading?

Note 1- “May disease, or 五月病/go-gatsubyou” is a Japanese thing, so I decided to translate it literally, as there is no Western equivalent. In Japan, the school year starts in April, so there will be the start of a new school year, people who graduated finding jobs, etc. During April, the first month, everything is new and interesting, hopeful about your new environment. But in May, once a month has passed, reality sets in and people may not fit in, causing symptoms kind of similar to depression. Also, in late April/early May there is what is known as the “golden week”, which are a few days of consecutive national holidays, so returning from having a few days off seems to make this worse.

Note 2- the (????) are once again, the bits that are unintelligible.

Note 3- I have no idea about what Roro means with her “stomach floating”, maybe she means the feeling you get when you’re on a rollercoaster, but I’m not sure.

Now that I’ve spoiled the surprise I won’t do it this way.

Oh yeah, lastly, I’ll put my iPhone on the railing. Then I’ll fall so I’ll be shown on camera. Then I’ll be a legend....

I’m sorry.

Okay, that’s it. I won’t do this again. Will I ??? I won’t. Thank you. I won’t be scared. Thank you.