Narcissistic Abuse

2022 07/10 12:33 - 

The Level of Narcissistic Verbal Abuse & Superiority is Astronomical July 10, 2022 Clip 1 of 6

Narcissistic Verbal Abuse and Gaslighting

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My intention is for this film to be helpful to others. I hope this can be an educational tool for others to learn about themselves and their relationships. 

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Hey David. It’s Sheila’s sister Jackie. I’ve watched some of your videos. I can’t say I know what you have been through, but I’m wondering if this is the best way for you to go about things. I will hear you out if you’re willing. I haven’t talked to my sister for many years so I can not pretend I know any of the situations. So please don’t think I’m Judging.

Sure I'd like to talk. Shelia was really abusive to me. Sheila seems to have narcissistic personality disorder. All the classic abuse tactics. gas lighting, bullying intimidating, and absolutely never compromising on anything, making everything about her. 

I don't really blame her, I don't think she can help it. I, however, am an empath. So I can never really understand why she treated me like that. She had absolutely no humility, and I think her pride is her own worst enemy. no matter what I did it would never be good enough. 

Can I ask you which videos you saw?

I think this short essay about sums it up...

David W Coon

Crisis in Christ

A short essay on the fragility of faith after divorce

I'm not really doing that well. I am a hundred percent disabled veteran now. The VA takes really good care of me. I'm still devastated to lose sheila despite the abuse. I really lost a lot. I lost my house. I lost everything that I built in the last eight years. I'm really disabled now, and I'm not confident in my prospects of ever getting married and having children. So that's a bummer 

I do really enjoy playing guitar and piano and singing. So at least I have that going for me. I've got well over 3,000 videos across about 30 channels.  The most helpful thing you could do would be tracked down that video you saw and send me a link to it. 

But ultimately, I think I'll be okay. I would say that only God knows, but currently, I'm rather agnostic

Thank you for talking with me. I genuinely appreciate it.

I agree with you about taking down the videos. It's too soon. And I don't intend to embarrass sheila or cause her any problems. That said, she did give me permission and even taunted me to videotape her. I'm sad that this is the content that we created together. But it is what it is. So anyways, I don't remember all of the places that i've posted stuff.

I was thinking about the reasons why I posted videos of my abusive marriage online for the public.  Mainly as a method for me to process what happened to me. But more importantly, I think that what she did was so deceptive and dangerous that I didn't realize what was happening until it was way too late. And there's a bizarre dynamic within abusive relationships that the more abuse happens, the more I tried. She made me believe I was a failure and I desperately tried to prove her wrong. The more she twisted things and manipulated me, the harder I tried to redeem my marriage and win her back. 

She hated everyone in my family and didn't allow them to come visit, thus isolating me even more. She never compromised on anything. She insulted and degraded me.

And made everything out to be my fault. And instead of walking away when it first started happening like a fool. I just tried even harder cause I didn't wanna fail in my marriage. I wanted to grow old with her. I wanted to honor my marriage vows.

So Because what she did was so dangerous, it can't be kept a secret.

I feel like these videos represent reality. And I'm not trying to hurt her in any. Rather, I'm trying to help other victims recognize recognize their own abusive situation. I had to do a lot of learning about narcissistic abuse in order to even realize what was happening. Because I believed her gas lighting. I have a Masters degree in mental health counseling and yet. I still fell victim to this baffling. So, I do feel it's important for me to at least have a positive takeaway from this situation. And possibly help others. But it's still too soon.

I really did try everything to save my marriage. I got us marriage counseling. She just ended up hating every counselor as soon as they disagreed with her. A few years ago, I wrote her this extremely detailed 20-page  marriage letter outlining everything that's wrong and how to fix it. She wiped her ass with it and threw it away. I had to compromise on everything well. She refused to take any accountability whatsoever.