chapter 5 -- battle of love

11/3/2020: Big sky mind, empty hands, adapt to the unexpected, vigilant, always ready to hit back or run, barefoot, enjoy the energy and surprise, unwishfull thinking, step by step, avoiding the pitfalls of health and security, thus saving time to explore space and mind, where the words converge to experience, energy, as the result of work and play, a never ending battle, a battle of love.

12/3/2020: We just had my more or less ceremonial birthday dinner, 68 years, I have reached my goal, now waiting for the next, 75, although the intermediate 69 is, seen as a reverse image, also interesting, and a year further on track, wherever it leads.

Yesterday,I went training, and, ironically, I seem to have catched a cold due to the open windows, one of the things that responsible people do, for reasons of health, to prevent infections. Smart people, but unfortunately, I am sensitive to these things, as I am to smart people. I hate smart people, and in the current situation, there is ample opportunity for smart people to act and impose their moral standards, often with disruptive consequences, like me catching a cold.

Today's daily dilemma is, at this moment, shall I go for another round of exercises or not. Perhaps it is enough, and perhaps not!

13/3/2020: Sell or not sell, or only half, or two-third of my stocks, that are plummetting down rapidly, already more than 700 euro for the last month. Following my motto, I don't want to think, I decided to sell all and save the remaining money for the near future, as to be able as my wife puts it, to enjoy life, and cover whatever cost arises in say the next five to seven years,

I wanted to wait until I would become seventy five, but apparently my mind was on a different track, and I hope the money will be delivered soon!

14/3/2020: Coronavirus, mind virus, media virus. On the playground, in front of our house, we discussed the impact of social media on our attitude towards the current pandemic, and where our supposed dutch rationality fell short in comparison with the measures taken in the countries surrounding us. Our prime minister announced that we should avoid shaking hands, where most other countries already decided that the schools must close their doors. It is not easy to deal with fear, nor with fear for fear, to be the victim of fear. Anyway, as many other people will do, we will let our children not attend school and keep than home, not necessarily with meaningful tasks though. Anxious parents are inclined to develop a program for their children when they stay at home. We have to allow the children some freedom, however, not to take away their energy. Let them have some fun, while I am waiting for the results of selling my stocks, in order to have acces to some personal capital.

It's like a horror movie, says my wife. Like a movie it is, and the best remedy is to enjoy watching it, whatever the drama displayed.

15/3/2020: The dutch dilemma, Finally they took a decision, at 17.30, schools, cafes and sport dubs will be dosed, from 18.00 onwards. Many postpone it until tomorrow, not so much as an act of civil disobedience, but out of a sense of profit. Closing means loosing money. Open tonight might save a few euros. Nevertheless, although I totally agree with the decision to close schools, cafes and clubs, it also makes me a bit anxious. How will this decision affect the stock market? In other words, how much will I get out of my account tomorrow? Well, it is, after all, just money, but still I hope for a good result. My wife is optimistic. For me, I find it hard to bring up the patience. I am looking forward to look backward, hopefully grateful and satisfied!