crown of thorns

tying herself in knots born of fear destroying the love of her friends trying to hide from the life that she sought she nailed herself to the cross i watched and i wept and begged her surrender the pain climb down from the cross live for the joy we could share she couldn’t the pain and the fear gave her a sense of control so many have worn the crown that she wears chosen her pain chosen to die chosen never to live so many too many why did there have to be more why did she suffer why can’t she live why can’t i have her with me now that she’s gone i try not to cry try to remember to laugh try to surrender the pain that i feel try to climb down from my cross try not to hate her for leaving me here alone with her damned crown of thorns