My Surrender... in detail. 

After I understood what it meant to have Jesus as my personal Lord and Savior, I decided I wanted God’s Will for my life. But saying “Yes!” to God meant reevaluating everything in my life. My friends. My tribe. My hobbies. My boyfriend. My job. My church. My alone time with God. My house, my bills, my Netflix queue, my playlists, my calendar, my bucket list—you name it. Nothing was off the table. 

Keep Praying[1]:  Annoy God If You Must[2]! 

God’s Timing Is Part Of Surrender.

If you rush HIS will, and not wait for God's timing then it is guaranteed not to be in your best interest. 

I thought I had faith of a mustard seed because I kept appealing disability insurance and disability benefits, then I would withdraw, convinced I needed to demonstrate faith in being restored. 

And I freely told anyone who would listen that God promised to heal me. 

But all that time, I didn’t know what childlike faith was or even meant!  

Then, on December 28, 2023. about the same day I was healed of daily migraines. I didn’t understand why Jesus wanted children[3] to come to him until right then.  I put my boys, Ryan, family, friends, my sins, dog, house, finance, mortgage, health, pride, ego, reputation, autonomy, everything at his feet. give up complete control, certainty, worry, fear, my sense of security and protection, release it all as Father in heaven has a much better plan for me than I have for myself. 

But it wasn’t god’s timing for me to recover and go back to work. That was mine. I thought I had to show faith first, because that is what the Christian’s said to me: “You aren’t healed and delivered because you don’t have faith and don’t believe.” Oh- I could smack them for saying such discouraging words to their sisters and brothers. 

CHILD-LIKE FAITH COMES FROM SURRENDER

So I looked up every verse on rest. hiding under His wings while I healed

The Isaiah verse interchanged rest and wait in the different verse translations

And looked up every verse on waiting on Him: waiting on His timing. Don’t do anything without an “Ok-Go!” 

Asking God for guidance

1.              Stomach turning = definite no 

2.              Nothing, means wait or not now or maybe or no. either way, don’t do it. 

3.         Yes, happiness and excitement - but still need to find confirmation somewhere. So wait until there is confirmation. I got my confirmations straight from His prophets.

And I freely told anyone who would listen that God promised to heal me and redeem all that I lost.  but all that time, i didn’t know what childlike faith was or even meant!  

Then, on December 28, 2023. about the same day I was healed of daily migraines. I didn’t understand why Jesus wanted children[4] to come to him until right then. I put my boys, Ryan, family, friends, my sins, dog, house, finance, mortgage, health, pride, ego, reputation, autonomy, everything at his feet. Give up complete control, certainty, worry, fear, my sense of security and protection, release it all as Father in heaven has a much better plan for me than I have for myself. 

I finally gave my whole life over to HIM. Now HE was not only my SAVIOR, He was LORD of my life. And I don’t have to worry about money or how things are going to be paid[5] if I listen to him and trust him. This has taken me YEARS. But you can start practicing with small things today. 

I am literally practicing my Faith in God as I write this. Today is May 10, 2025. I have less than $100 in all of my accounts put together. The world would tell me that I should do something that will earn money. stat! But I am not doing that. why? Because god told me that I cannot step into the life HE has for me until I finish this book. God has been sending codes every day for the last several months. They usually pop up as 1:11pm or 2222 points at Holiday Market, or a total of $3.33 rung up for mineral water at the gas station. I had to get quiet. and go before Him and ask HIM what He was trying to tell me. In the “How I Got right with God” Section, I tell you how to have ears to hear from God. 

I got a job at an L.A. law firm. It has been almost 3 weeks since I got the job. But they haven’t sent me the independent contractor’s agreement yet. Yes, I have reached out. But I can feel it in my soul that is it OK and it is GOD’s Will that I work on this book right now, NOT trying to earn money.

God told me last week why I am writing this book now.

He said that a revival is coming. New christians will be coming through the door. they will need to learn much faster than the rest of us had to. And they don’t have time for trial and error, i.e., following the wrong “Christians[6].” 

Remember, it took me 35 years? Well, we don’t have THAT much time left before the Great Tribulation. If it hasn’t started already.  

On Dec 28, 2023 when I received that (otherwise dreaded) phone call from my mortgage company, but instead I faced it knowing God had me and wasn’t going to drop me!  

And I freely told anyone who would listen that God promised to heal me. But all that time, I didn’t know what childlike faith was or even meant!  

Then, on December 28, 2023. About the same day I was healed of daily migraines. I didn’t understand why Jesus wanted children[7] to come to him until right then. I put my boys, Ryan, family, friends, my sins, dog, house, finance, mortgage, health, pride, ego, reputation, autonomy, everything at his feet. give up complete control, certainty, worry, fear, my sense of security and protection, release it all as Father in heaven has a much better plan for me than I have for myself. 

[1] Pray without ceasing. 1 Thessalonians 5:17.

[2] From Self-Destructive to Healed! A true story of trauma & the KEYS discovered to lasting breakthrough & freedom! By Stacy Just. Published in 2022 by Amazon Kindle.  Mrs. Just explains the process of getting an answer from God when you absolutely can do nothing else but wait for an answer. 

[3] Jesus wants us to come to him like children. Matthew 18:3.

[4] Jesus wants us to come to him like children. 

[5] This is what Jesus meant by ‘child-like’ faith. We look to Our Father in Heaven for ALL of our needs.

[6]  I hope you are convicted if you need to be. 

[7] Jesus wants us to come to him like children.

Continue on to Chapter 11