Sometimes I look back,
See a moment where I was whole,
A moment in the car sums up my entire being.
The light blue tint to everything,
Casting a soft glow upon us,
Curled up and tired,
Resting my head on yours,
I was whole.
I wish sometimes,
That I was a little bolder,
Just a little more affectionate,
That I told you I appreciated you,
That I loved you.
Sometimes all I think about is you,
Late nights in the middle of winter.
Wishing for warmth back in my bones.
I used to joke that you were the unwanted cousin.
I don’t that was true,
You are wanted,
And you are far more of my brother than a cousin.
I just wish I could have said it.
I could say something now,
But it’s been so long,
I miss you,
And I love you,
But I’ve never been bold enough to say it,
I hope you already know.
You don’t know a lot about me,
And I wish I could fix that,
Sometimes all I think of you