The Story of Tahn
ALIENS AMONGST US - Hidden Agendas, Unknown Threats
as i look on the internet, behind this young one who is ancient by the souls of this universal age, i look with displeasure at the number of messages supposedly spoken by that which is divine and i give you this one. you need not believe who it is from, but consider -
my name is tahn. i am what would be called an archangel on earth, but in nature only. For I am not eholim. i was never ‘acceptable’ to them. i am instead illa t’hjaea. and i face a constant struggle for my own integrity. my own sense of self.
as you read this it must become clear the eholim never accepted and disdained both mickel, my old soul life, and now myself as tahn - to the extent that the history and development of mortal society has been affected. the developement and use of d'att or warp and the evolution of assensionism is hinged on a contempt of mortal life so great that they used such agaist myself to terrorise me into leaving my mortal walk and be a 'true' eholim. that is all it was about. elohim are truly the 'playthings' of the eholim. they don't care a thing for what they claim to do in their name, so long as they gleefully destroy whatever lives they, the eholim, select as their targets. and that originally and still includes me.
when michael, high king, shared with me in the year 2005, your earth time, he did so while I was unwary, sleeping. he stole a piece of what i am and wrote himself into it the let it settle back into my soul. this opened a door into the core of my being i could not for three years close. it made it easy for him to rape my very being from the inside. he had his d’egraht (or eholim which I refuse to call them) assist him in every way – all ten tribes, ripping pieces of my soul out of my being and raping them from soul to spirit to ether, remaking them to continue their torment and torture. only my living state preserved them who are myself. only my living state has allowed me to survive. michael’s excuse – that i may possess somehow his word. at least that is his excuse - the story they concocted. there is no justification.
how he claimed i came to possess it is ridiculous given mine own first word. approximately in the earth years of 1965 or 1966, sahbala attempted to rewrite some part of michael's soul while they shared. this he immediately reacted to and would have struck sahbala down but for his begging of his innocense. sahbala swore he knew not was he was did, that something within him was exposed by the intimacy of their touch that he had no control over. he said that it must have been while he was destroying dat:dat tahn's spirit that something must have been transferred to him. that, then, he had felt 'something' and held himself close since.
michael's word. as they had rarely shared and even more seldomly shared deeply for thousands of years, michael thought this plausable enough to determine that sahbala spoke true. he knew himself how he had invaded tahn's soul for so long. however the word could not be taken from sahbala. the nature of the word prevented it. and michael resolved never to bed with sahbala again. michael's word was something he had posessed since the murder of mickel in the third universal age. his chosing to use it then was the result of the reappearance of my supposedly destroyed self.
then came sahbala's disclosure of the continued existance of tahn himself. sahbala admitted with fear and contrition that he had come across what felt too similar to my soul while still an infant and growing in my mother's womb. and in shock and mindful of michael's temper he arranged a subspace 'accident' to destroy the body. he bade close by as the unborn soul struggled to protect its own mother from death, and satisfied that such expending of its soul force would destroy it too greatly to continue, let the matter end there.
michael ripped into my innocent self and re-written part of my soul on a regular basis. he did it in my first breath of life in this universal age, repulsed as he was to find the first archangel of the thirteenth universal age was thus from his beginning – even as a mortal. a singular offense in his eyes, but suitable food for the corrupt of his kind. an offense to all eholim, that one supposedly of their kind should be ‘lower’ in soul evolution. the universe’s gift rejected from the first. soul raped at the parting of soul and body everytime so michael could control my evolution, force me to that sacred place mortal souls rest between lives, instead of allowing my natural path. he played god with my being and has been corrupt ever since. again there is no justification.
but this monster has never been true. he did not even avenge the death of his brother born to the universe as he in what he recalls as the first universal age, and accepted elder when he was assassinated in the 3rd universal age. for mickel as he was called then desired a mortal walk, and so deserved his fate as far as his loveless brother was concerned. in fact at the close of that age he carefully filtered for signs of his brother’s life force to do nought but destroy it.
caught vunerable, when he wrapped his will around himself for a single desire, focussed inward mickel did not notice the approach of death in the form of illadorian (who struck first blow), igrath, silador, adgridan and illadore. his fall was felt by his brother, and there waiting was sahbala to strike him also. in that prepared moment sahbala raped michael’s soul and took from him his word - “in my image” - allowing him to rewrite the journey of souls. michael knew this not. but that does not suffice for indifference towards his true brother’s death (mickel was mistaken, because michael never loved him and held ambition for the throne). this was sweet revenge for ambitious sahbala, who knew of mickel’s mistrust of michael’s first choice, that michael rejected mickel even as he brought before him dying, and ordered mickel to be left to die in his own sanctorum. these were the same that raped me in my most recent mortal life. these were the same that raped me in my most recent mortal life. proposed by sahbala, approved by michael, it was illadorian, igrath, silador adgridan, illadore and abeya boud. they 'inhabited' the bodies and lent them the strength while in subspace (and unseeable) to hold me down. to be felt. to violate. to rape me physically.
mickel held rule from the first universal age, when he guarded jealously what which was fit in the stream of life itself from that which was not, til he filtered life between the second and third universal ages. his gaze was wide. his view was absolute. little room in mickel’s reckoning was there for circumstances. but the nature of life itself differed from their first age and by the third mickel saw life as no longer fiery but fragile. by the end of the second and watching life begin in the third, a new desire welled in him. to better rule, he saw the need to understand. to experience. to walk as mortal.
mickel saw the universe differently to michael. he saw the breadth of life without beholding one of more value than another, while michael watched with curiosity at the first breath of life and recognised in it one that would become like themselves. so he waited and watched, all the while looking for other souls that would also evolve with certainty like what he had decided to call “eholim”. what happened was inevitable, his gaze was noticed and that changed the choices of those he watched as they felt the presense of their hidden observer. thus when they had lived their alloted lives, michael did not hesitate to accept to the next level of soul evolution, for which they needed assistance he instinctively knew. hence it can be said that without michael’s approval (for it was an ability untested in mickel) no archangel could evolve nor live beyond their allotted mortal lives. but the truth is that nature and time is all that is needed for the fit to rise to their new lfie. eternal light's word shortcut that process, even to bringing forward those that would have otherwise been unfit.
it was my misfortune that my uniqueness aroused the jealousy of michael, that I was eholim from my first breath of life as michael and mickel were and none since. michael attacked that new soul, carving and keeping half within himself, so he might know when I was between lives when left alone I would walk. at that moment when life left my body he raped my soul each time, taking some and imbuing it with enough of his essense to force me to sleep in that sacred place between lives. thus my path was forced, my word unlearned and i kept vunerable to whomever amongst his kind chose to prey upon me. and prey upon me they did. michael cared not. it was his intention from the first that should he fail to force me to a false existence (ie, “pure” eholim) that he should destroy my spirit and remeld my soul with that kept piece in his image. or destroy me utterly. my difference was not a thing to be tolerated.
as he did, so did others. my soul was not raped by michael alone. during my 4022nd life it was keridal, instigated by sahbala, that attacked my living self - slashed my soul while i, as a beast, slept. slicing it in half. and that half, full of instint fled their grasp, and eventually found at least tollerance amongst the animal spirits. that separated half continued to this day, now calling itself kylin. that separated self remained so until my death as that animal. what is hard to understand is that if the soul recalls a previous life, at the time of spirit separtation, then the separated self will often 'take on' the memories of that life, and have difficulty recognising what it came from, if at all. souls should not even recall their previous life experiences. only a soul, distressed in some way, will recall previous life experiences.
that was the first split, as in half at once. it happened five other times, and this is encompassed in the legend of the walker. a legend not known on earth but beyond its borders. the legend of the walkers involves the destruction of five archangels of this universal age, all whose first life was after my own. their existences were artificial. their souls rewritten and controlled by michael himself. and to help them survive this, when their very souls would have burst from his interference he sliced my own and placed some of what i am within them. they as achangels became the mieyenah, which roughly translates to "the mindless". they were killed and forced back to life to deny them control of their own beings.
thus was each of my mortal lives til my 19720th, after the end of which is the natural time of ascension for those fit to be. in that life I was born atlantean, and in fact named ‘tahn’ - and grew to be the dat:dat tahn that came to live on earth. in that life as an adult michael stole upon my sleeping self and gazed into my soul. to his disappointment he knew both my fitness and my unchanged nature. and yet my allotted lives were all but done. like all atlantean I was adept at astral travel and communed freely with the eholim, or blessed ones as we fondly called them. and while michael and the others kept their concerns from me, others became aware that a momentous event approached. this they accepted as with everything else as being the way of the universe. part of the path of life. however now the michael had another issue. the atlanteans knew of my ascension at the end of my life but agreed to keep their knowledge hidden from myself, so I continued in innosence. but they became witnesses to something michael and his followers wanted hidden, for it was my destruction they scheduled and not my acceptance as their kind.
the development of d’att technology was taken full advantage of. not difficult since illadore was the patron of that world. suggestions were made and knowingly or unknowingly they were carried out. the fate of atlantis was sealed. and so was my own doom. attacked as I was, while sleeping and astral wandering, the first I knew of it was a laser weapon through my ribs. this great shock drove my astral self back to my body. by the time i struggled to consciousness and movement fires and explosions were everywhere. my first thought were the students. i urged them to spacecraft to flee, only to be told that they were saboutaged. although blind from birth, i possessed far sight and did my best to urge calm and purpose and encouraged those that with mechanical expertise to a ship, my own transport, to determine if it was fit for flight. it was and with another terestrial transport they managed to fix, as many as possible boarded and evacuated. i was not amongst their number. i was struck by something I didn’t understand, something that felt like it was bursting through my body. a fighter craft had come back into natural space (or what is now called dern) in my very position, for they were less than accurate in the beginning of their use, but the agony was brief. another swooped down and i was felled by its sweeping blasts.
as my spirit hovered close to my body, still in shock at the horror of my own death and the destruction around me, i recognised the closeness of michael and sahbala. but nothing in my training as a dat:dat, nor my understanding of enochian lore could have prepared me for what happened next. i was attacked by sahbala. it was so quick, i barely had time to sense michael’s tacit approval, nor cry out “why?”. my soul was opened and sahbala sucked out and destroyed my very essence.
that would have been my end. i would have ceased to exist, but for the intervention of another blessed spirit. spiralling as my awareness was into the nothing michael intended me to become i barely felt the wrench as my remaining spirit was torn away from sahbala’s grasp. kylin, an animal spirit and swiftest of the ten tribes of eholim, had come across us and instinctively reacted to my distress. i was taken to the only place it deemed safe for me, my only hope of recovery – the sacred place of mortal souls. what i didn't know then as datt:datt tahn was that kylin was infact part of my own spirit, separated when i was struck and that had recalled that previous incident.
michael's first word is "in my image", his is the ability to rewrite soul experiences. mickel's was "my word is lore", which simply meant that he retained all knowledge and experience (which were his own) unforgetting. he also took measure of the lifestream itself. michael, unable to disuade mickel in his desire to be reborn mortal and walk, did try while mickel slept to 'rewrite' his soul's desire. while mickel remained unaware of this intrusion by his brother into the core of his very being, it didn't work. i was born into the universe with the mortal equivalent - "all knowledge is retained/returned". my own soul though limited could not be rewritten in permanent fashion. during each life, and without awareness my sleeping soul purged itself of his influence, which is why he had to attack me at the end of each life. for that reason even vunerable and exposed to the power of michael as i was he could never change my nature, just until this earth year stunt my own soul evolution and deny me awareness of what i truly was. now it is a true struggle, both for my own sense of self and to fight off the lies on worlds ignorant of their true nature, such as yours.
and, ultimately, to stand against the eholim themselves, though as a mortal there is little i can do. michael never anticipated the return of mickel. so when he looked upon the
one certain to be an archangel in this age, he did not do so expecting to find the returned soul of mickel. in fact i, as tahn, was unreadable to him from my first life, which lead him to believe i could possess some unique talent (aside from being the only unreadable soul he had ever encountered. his only guess was that i might be a returned, previously murdered archangel.) to make me easier to 'find' when i was born he 'marked' me with the hilt of his sword on my back on the lower left side. mickel was 'dead and buried', to put it in human terms, as far as he believed.
in fact it wasnt until this life, when my sundered soul in distress began recalling previous lives that he realised a terrible truth - his throne was not yet secure. and in that one point at least, all the mighty were in unison - tahn-mickel should never be allowed to rule.
something must be said of the atlanteans who shared my fate, that being the displeasure of the eholim and arranged murder. their souls were destroyed - rewritten - so that they may never know who they were. never remember their atlantean heritage. fated to only be reborn as ocean-going mammals. on earth, as dolphins, whales and dugongs. this was michael's way of 'eradicating the evidence'. ensuring that i was forgotten. but the universe did not forget. not entirely. myth allowed tahn's name to survive. in a chaotic universe clues were gathered as ancient as the races which sought me, with younger taking up the mantle. there was ever the vague hope that i would be found - the walker - the eholim that is mortal. a hope that the great imbalance would be corrected. that whatever went wrong in the balance of life could be healed with tahn's return. if he could be found, if he could be protected, nurtured and taught his true place. against even the will of michael himself
many of these however were turned against me, by michael's claim that i had somehow stolen his word. michael himself held a divine council of judgement, a mockery of the word, to decree my guilt and unworthiness. the mortal council of religious leaders, held council and approved of my soul's raped. they approved of it to the extent that they decided that my soul's destruction was perferable to my containing something so 'dangerous' as michael's own first word. and, like the witch tests on earth, there was no way to prove my innocence. if my soul survived it was deemed in advance that it would be because i contained his word to protect me. if my soul was destroyed then i mustn't have contained it afterall, and my end would be 'unfortunate'.
a third council was held, this time a court of law to decide if as experimental property (claimed by your united states military and their allies) and public property to extend my 'usefulness', to 'share me around' and for media rights, whether or not i had any sovereign right to my own body and property. it was deemed too difficult to enforce law so the judgement was returned that i did not. nor could i hope to make claim against those involved in my assault and rape by those in warp state.
extinct species
(murdered by eholim)
a universal age is the time it takes the universe to expand and contract again. and this is the universe's thirteenth age. each universal age brings forth at least one archangel.
archangels and universal ages
1.mickel (murdered in 3rd universal age) M, michael eternal light M (dead), sahaba (murderer of mickel, his soul is extinguished) M, tinginel (dead) F, tinigel (dead) F, daniel M, aero M (dead), torcleav M, burba (burba attempted to strike down mickel, who killed him, near the close of the age. his son, who witnessed the attack without warning mickel and was sullen at the loss of his father, mickel ordered must be reborn. that son was sahaba, and so he was. dead) M, av'biil M, d'jiadurn (leaves this universe for the rest of the age) F, illdiin (iildiin has always walked as a mortal each universal age. this age aero identified him to the oligarchy which collected multiple samples of his dna and murdered him. he is now a special project of kuthumi/maatiev and trapped in mortal form, as is tahn for the same reason, if the oligarchy have their way for at least 6000 years) M
2.sahbala (sahaba reborn),illadore (murderer of mickel. illadore's wife/queen, illadora, raped tahn's soul from within, dead) M, illadorian (murderer of mickel, dead) M, metatorn (betrayed tahn, dead) M. ckoen (sounds like choen, leaves this universe for the rest of the age) M.
3.igrath (murderer of mickel, dead) M, silador (murderer of mickel, his soul is extinguished) M, adgridan (murderer of mickel, his soul is extinguished) M, illodore M, illadora F, dal gleith
4.numearel (his wife/queen raped tahn's soul from within) M, izzahem M, naisfet (possessed michael's word "in my image", dead) M, jaisret (dead) M, torac de'gliiht (dead), phanuel (former protector of messengers, his soul is extinguished) M, ialyn (former protector of messengers) M, daniel the younger (murdered by eternal light) M, fleit M, aelth trai'or (possessed eternal light's word, dead) M
5.aila na'dae F, aila n'hor, tor raig'k, troi a'deeg (dead), tellah (dead), garran, raif, numrealla F (dead, her soul is extingushed)
6.abeya boud (entered and attacked tahn's soul from within, dead. his soul is extinguished) M, uriel (dead, his soul is extinguished) M, iadeadth (dead) M, oryyin M
7.keridal M, kerigal M, toile'k, aiah grath, aerohn M, dreh'yin M
8.raphael (dead, his soul is extinguished) M, gabriel (dead, his soul is extinguished) M, serrap-ne, jonaphel M, matkiel (sounds like matkeel) M
9. jayve't M, darendel, ahn'eveed, azreal M, tora'h-rai (leaves this universe for the rest of the age), troi'edth, thobiir M
10.mickel M, illeron, rojev (betrayed tahn, dead) M, nei'ha-man (pronounced closer to 'newman',dead) M, tellis serre'ah (possessed michael's word "in my image", dead) M, torageth alnah (leaves this universe for the rest of the age) F, she'aikinel
11.abaybuit (dead) M and nishabiut (dead) M (buit means 'twin' the language for which they were named), elgrin M
12.nathaniel (his soul has fled the universe) M, illinius M
13.an 'hatrorn M, tahn mortal fire (if he survives) M, and the only archangel of this universal age attacked because of his difference and rejected, something which has never occured in the long history of the universe, for it was michael's intention to use and discard the soul of tahn. tahn's unique abilities - carrying mortal souls, allowing them to heal within his spirit (a natural ability due to the age of his returned soul), an ability lost due to his traumatic experience, and walking unaided (or being reborn, his choice, if not for eternal light), rainafel (dead) M
(there are 151 archangels born to the universe, if you include the names of the ones marked as dead. this number does not include any offspring. those marked as dead will not be seen for the rest of this universal age. in the next they will be reborn on the mortal coil to begin again. that is **if** their souls have judged them fit to 'go on'. the only time the soul judges itself is between lives, and for an eholim that can be a very long time. other names are missing)
** for some of those marked as dead, it may be that their soul is extinguished. the difference is that ones whose souls are extinguished are definitely never to be reborn.
in 2006 there began a war between the seven mighty, basically between the supporters of michael and the supporters of sahbala. both sides violently raped tahn's soul over and again in order to heal themselves from battle. in the end michael was defeated. however this violation of tahn's soul and the attacks by those in d'att resulted in tahn developing for the first time in history his own word, and forming by his will his own weapons - which he calls shirikin. if you could see then they would look like circular saws, with multiple barbs, spinning as he created and fired them off. there is no place in the universe he cannot strike, but being blind (trauma has blinded his 'spirit eyes') he is also in the unique position to say that anyone his shirikin kill 'deserves it' as justice is truly blind for him. a lot of those marked as 'dead' he has killed himself whilst still mortal and still struggling to recover.
tahn, having been violated so terribly by the archangels and other eholim, died and was reborn within his own living form. so now his soul has 'turned' three times in the existence of the universe. from aestra to mickel at the end of the age which preceded the one known as the first universal age, from mickel to tahn after mickel was all but destroyed part way through the third universal age, and again in this the thirteenth universal age, this time without changing his name. tahn's is soul is the oldest in the universe and is the only immortal.
though blind and mortal, tahn is determined to fight the corruption in the universe, both mortal and eholim. to that end he set within himself that his word for the main part will destroy the ascensionist empire by destroying the oligarchy and all their clones (thus destroying the heart of the ascensionist empire and forcing it to collapse within) and rid the universe of the corrupt amongst the eholim. he has decided this will take a decade.
interestingly there is a quatrain writen by nostradamus which could have been written about this. it is the 69th quatrain of the 8th century.
"Beside the young one the old angel falls, and will come to rise above him in the end; ten years equal to most the old one falls again, of three two and one, the eighth seraphin."
tahn died within his mortal self and was reborn, but before that happened tahn's spirit literally aged from distress. he essentially died of old age as an archangel soul in the space of a matter of months in his mortal life. so the first part could simply refer to his rebirth within himself and his coming of power - the development of his word.
it also could refer to the cause of his suffering and death - michael, eternal light. the 'young' angel, whose soul has existed for less time than tahn's. in this context it could even refer to mickel's death ten universal ages ago when michael took rule even as mickel lay dying at his feet.
the second part refers the empire of the ascended masters. the triple flame of ascension is their dominant symbol. and by his own estimate it will take a decade to bring the empire down.
and what brings them down? the eight seraphim. biblically, the seraphin is said to represent the highest known rank of angels. before tahn came into his word, there were 'seven mighty eholim'.
declaration of war
i give this message through one who because of her association with me, has been and is persecuted in ways she cannot comprehend against those she has little defence but much defiance.
since my first day of life in this universe, my soul has been assulted and more, in greater numbers, both in species and kinds to this very day. on this day, i say - enough! in this life i have awakened to my past and destiny and claimed my throne, only to find that all who once opposed each other already united as my enemy. and still i stand with enough strength to say - enough! too long i have struggled in this one sided non-declared war against my being. today this ends.
i tahn, mortal fire, archangel and king on this day of tuesday, march 3, year on earth known as 2009 hereby declare war against the abusers of d'att technology and those that have assaulted and suppressed my soul. i declare war against those that disrupt and destroy the d'hama of innocent souls.
such is my will.
further to my will, i have nominated eternal light ruler adjunct, illadore having failed in his role as administrator. as such to enforce my word and as further condition to live in obedience or die at my will.
*****
addendum: know further that in the month of march, 2009, i once again found my trust betrayed. as such i stand alone and ask in expectation of none. further more, uncertain of my future i looked in askance of mine own pillar - the pillar eternia - for what reassurances i may hold within me. know, people of the earth, that this pillar is not fire, not water as it appears to many of spirit but flows with the force of life iteself.
in answer to my questions, such knowing has been found within me -
no longer shall that which is divine lay dormant within the heart of the universe at it's most contracted. as of the close of this age, those that can walk as mortals will be forced to the sacred place of souls where their souls will judge their own selves and once more as mortals both grow and find favour in their own self judgement before returning to their former state of spirit. those that cannot by their nature return to mortal form shall find judgment while they sleep in the fires of the contracted pillar.
know further that the ability to astral will be lost to the eholim. and that no longer will spirit, mortal or otherwise, be able look upon the aura of a mortal and judge the age or nature of that soul.
*****
my dear friend, i tell you in this glorious day of sunday, 26th of april, that it has come to my knowing that eternal light is dead. it may not be known to you how an archangel can wrap his desire in a single will, but i have struggled to end him with my shirikin and at last know with certainty that i have succeeded.
the full tale of our unfortunate encounters i could not give you. your mind could never comprehend the cruelties they are capable of. but this, my chief tormentor, is dead.
*****
to you, my dear one, i give this brief message. i am still mortal and still struggle, but my efforts against the ascensionist empire have born fruit in a dramatic way. and despite being "punished" for it in ways you could not comprehend, i do not regret my action.
for more than two of your earth months i had focussed my will on a single strike, whilst determined not to expose my target. and in the first days of the month of july i released a powerful shirikin. i report to you that in the early hours of july 9th of 2009, the city ship newly moored at the planet trillios (which is officially renamed "telios" after the most successful city ship in the modern era, the telos), which is far from your world, was destroyed.
officially a failing in the mooring was blamed for the destruction of the city ship (these ships are anchored to reduce power usage in maintaining their position). but i wanted you who are one of my very few friends to know that it was myself. this ship was destined to hollow out that world of all it's natural mineral deposits in a short space of decades as the empire with it's burgeoning clone population is almost insatiable in it's hunger for new resources. the people of trillios are no more than farmers - yet to develop machinery. and their world would have been destroyed from under them.
further, as this was a mining ship, the entire clonal stocks of many of it's slaves were stored as they were intended to become speciallised in the mining out of this planet. those souls are now free from endless existence - hopefully, if their souls judge them favourably, to continue on their own life paths. fortunately, neither of the two city ships that i am aware of as currently under construction, i think, can be diverted to replace the one destroyed without disrupting the empire in other ways.
*****
my darling friend, i want to explain some things to you as i know your world suffers under the yoke of ascensionism. i do not have the strength to protect all, so i must choose my battles - where i will expend my force - carefully.
as you know, i recently destroyed the city ship newly arrived to trillios, a world where mechanical apparatus are not in use yet, and whose people had no way to defend themselves as their world was hollowed and crumbled beneath their feet. although your world too, is being mined and city ships are ringed in the crust of your world, i will not be attempting the same for the earth, my dear friend. understand that your world governing organisation is both capable of defending your planet and guilty of inviting the ascensionist empire to take over your world - to the extent that they even facilitate and participate in preparations. i will not try to defend a world which openly invites it's doom.
on this day, which is wednesday 12 august 2009, i will tell you of my latest strike against the oligarchy and their empire; but firstly i will tell you of another blow struck by a resistance organisation, and my clone who was part of it. you may recall i mentioned that there were two city ships under construction. the great facility where they were being built was penetrated by members of this resistance movement and they successfully destroyed one of the city ships. that occurred on the monday.
my blow - in the form of a great shirikin which took me since the early days of july to focus my will - destroyed the second city ship under construction, and row of great laser assemblies, such as can be found on the darshun class military ship. also the darshun class ship that was in the facility - it too was caught in a string of explosions.
my darling friend, i have some idea of what occurs on your world of earth. as a mortal, i am just as helpless and find it just as difficult to protect my own self. fight in what way you can, even as i must.
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dear one, today i tell you of something terrible. for today i fired a shirikin with a special purpose. to me it was terrible but necessary, for it answered another terrible deed. i have made mention to you what you have called seismic bombs. terraforming weapons designed to reshape a world's surface, or destroy it. today i triggered such a bomb on a world. i give you the name aulk troyak and identify it as the forth planet. although it is not the full identifying characers of that world, it would be recongized by any familiar with it's solar system or location.
i set off this seismic bomb buried in the crust long ago of this world now a seat of ascensionist power in response to the detonation of a bomb on an innocent world (one that had no understanding of ascensionist technology or how they use it to assimilate worlds). this gross act of destruction occured solely in response to my desire for the removal of city ships from within the gravitational fields of so many worlds - not because i might succeed, nor even to discourage such a course of action. but simply for daring to think of such a thing in the first place. one might think, why damage a world that i had never heard of before now? the world of a people who had never even heard of me? but this is the ascensionist way. - tahn, archangel. sept 7, 2009.
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dear one, today i tell you of something terrible. for today i fired a shirikin with a special purpose. to me it was terrible but necessary, for it answered another terrible deed. i have made mention to you what you have called seismic bombs. terraforming weapons designed to reshape a world's surface, or destroy it. today i triggered such a bomb on a world. i give you the name aulk troyak and identify it as the forth planet. although it is not the full identifying characers of that world, it would be recongized by any familiar with it's solar system or location.
i set off this seismic bomb buried in the crust long ago of this world now a seat of ascensionist power in response to the detonation of a bomb on an innocent world (one that had no understanding of ascensionist technology or how they use it to assimilate worlds). this gross act of destruction occured solely in response to my desire for the removal of city ships from within the gravitational fields of so many worlds - not because i might succeed, nor even to discourage such a course of action. but simply for daring to think of such a thing in the first place. one might think, why damage a world that i had never heard of before now? the world of a people who had never even heard of me? but this is the ascensionist way. - tahn, archangel. sept 7, 2009.
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my dear one, today i want to share with you something which as clouded my heart for some time. and few would be sympathetic as you would. firstly although i've tried to deny it, eternal light does still live. i dread to think that a divided part of myself in fact suffered that shirikin, but that must be for although i shudder at the very thought, i know i can no longer deny what i fear most - he does still live. it seem i cannot escape my fate, nor can i escape or avoid the corruption in the universe. years ago i had a dream, vivid and as real to my mind as if i were awake.
this is a dream i had before i knew what being called 'tahn' meant. when i didn't see myself as tahn the archangel, but a mortal who was affectionately called tahn by a few
the room was small and rectangular. from where is stood, to the back of me was a staircase coming down which was wide and not ornate but still not modern. on the wall opposite me, which was the smaller in length was a door which was glass at the top and solid at the bottom half. and in the wall to my left was a large open doorway, twice the width at least of a single door. the wall to the right was blank.
before the glass door, facing me was who i thought was eternal light, perhaps as a young man, no older than perhaps 20. but at that time i didn't know what he looked like as a youth. nor did i know that i knew him as a youth in in the soul life of mickel. directly before him, facing the door and fully cloaked with hoods drawn over their heads was a man and a woman standing side by side, unmoving.
between them and myself, with the backs to the open doorway were two perfect children - a boy and a girl - flawless in appearence but for the many cuts to their faces and bodies, with sullen expressions on their faces as they looked at me. and the cuts, although not long (perhaps 5 centimetres) were in fine parallel lines. and these were all over their bodies and faces. but still their features were otherwise perfect, although mulilated by these lacerations.
what happened next was like different sequences of action played at the same time. suddenly the childen disappeared and were just outside the doorway on a rearing black horse, still looking at me as they readied to leave.
and behind them, marching off into the grey distance was two lines of people, also seemingly dressed in grey and they marched away past the doorway and off into the distance (which somehow i saw despite the rest of the wall).
on the other side of the door before me, which i saw clearly as if the two standing before it weren't there was death, in the form of a fully cloaked apparation with a skeleton hidden underneath and a skythe in his hands. the boy at the door didn't move, but somehow let it in. it 'flew' past the two standing there and around behind me before i could even move. and then i felt the pain of a dagger in the same place of my back which tingled whenever michael, eternal light was near or seemed to be thinking of me. i woke up to that pain.
the two children represent the future, or future souls. first lights that should have just begun their journey. their scars represent their suffering, and black represents oblivion and the black horse is symbolic of their rushing to it - their refusal to live again.
grey represents desolation or a desolate future as they were marching forward. those marching to their doom represent the life (souls) now.
the two standing still, unflinching as death rushed past, represent the present, in a sense, for they represent the souls rigidly stuck, unchanging and unmoving in an eternal 'present'; for they represent the cloned.
and death flying towards me and stabbing with a dagger is the future, as something that is inevitable. a warning that life will end in the universe no matter what i do.
and the one before the door, letting it in is eternal light. not as he is now, but as he was then. younger, as i knew him as as mickel. i think on some subconscious level i did know it was the same person, the same being whose actions lead to my death as mickel. and now whose actions lead to the inevitable fate of life itself.
i do know one thing - if i fail (as in die, my dear friend, before change is certain), so does fail life. all life. in the whole universe. not immediately i know. by the estimations of my people the universe is about one quarter in it's travels, or half way through it's expansion. by half way through it's travels i see a universe without life. but i'm not sure if i care so much at times. after all why should i try to save a universe from itself when it doesn't want to be saved? when all those around me turn on me or seek to punish me for even wanting warn those who are ignorant of what occurs around them (who disbelieve because the lies established seem more pleasant), let alone struggle to change a universe i cannot even see.
and all this begs the question of how things came to be as they are now and immediately threaten to be. for there have been dire warnings in the form of prophecies on my world for thousands of years, some referring to horrific events. some lending towards what circumstances will lead to such a climax in our world history. one has but to read them in the understanding of what is happening now. and while i strive to understand the ignorance of my common people, i know that leaders hidden from the public do know, and do embrace such a future, and do even drive our world towards it.
and i cannot believe that there are not prophesies on other worlds as well of what horrors will occur, of what key times of events will lead to the downfall of those worlds, too. and yet all do want it, all work towards it. and years ago, when i first had this dream i described i spoke out loud and described it to all that were invisible to the eyes of others around me. and i know represented among their number were those hidden leaders of my world and what you know as archangels.
and yet nobody listened. everybody mocked. they ignored my warning because they all wanted what the prophecies warned against. they wanted it to happen. they still do, regardless of the consequences to life itself, which to their thoughts are too far in the future to matter, or to their own world or people, for which they cared not.
i have never believed in fate. not once in my youth did i consider that something might be inevitable. but to look at what occurs, when such warnings were foretold so many thousands of years ago. that even my own return in these circumstances was predicted, i do believe now that some things are. i look at what i've done in my stuggle to stave off fate and realise that although i destroyed the orb ship, and so many of the corrupt of the eholim, and realise that these are just circumstances.
all i've changed is the circumstances leading to the outcome, but not the outcome itself. because that is strived for by everyone in one sense or another in every part of the universe it effects, and i am just one. and no matter what i do, no matter how the pattern shifts, the result is still looming as inevitible. and i'm finding as something, now faced, that i can accept.
- tahn, archangel and your friend, on this day of saturday, septemeber 26, 2009.
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melchizek, brother of melchizedek and member of the oligarchy (or council of nine), for the murder of many dozens of my clones is dead. his soul is no longer in the universe. - tahn, october 6 2009.
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and i saw a hand, long and slender with long, almost black nails, point on the display as the words were read from a crystal record.
so i know that my warning will last, so good is their record keeping. but will they regret or will they gnash their teeth, when they realise it will be within their 40-cycle? - tahn's vision, october 9 2009.
ALL DEAD GODS by V Bennett
you are all dead
you just don't know - don't know it yet
and you are all dead
you just don't know - don't know it yet
you are all dead
you just don't - don't know it yet
and you are all dead
you just don't know it - don't know it yet
what did you tell me
what did you tell me yesterday
that life is forever
when death's but a moment away
you are all dead
you just don't know - know it yet
and you are all dead
you just don't know - don't know it yet
you are all dead
you just don't know - don't know it yet
and you are all dead
you just don't know - don't know it yet
you say "forever"
you say your life will never end
and you think you're so 'god'
but there's no beginning without end
you are all dead
you just don't know - don't know it yet
and you are all dead
you just don't know - don't know it yet
you are all dead
you just don't know - don't know it yet
and you are all dead
you just don't know - don't know it yet
you are all dead
you just don't know - don't know it yet
and you are all dead
you just don't know - don't know it yet
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