pause
I never knew the length of time
a cigarette could hold
until I watched you
from the corner of my eye
and turned pages of some book
in appropriate measure.
I arranged myself
on the bed for you;
flat-bodied, elegant,
a careless piece of hair falling over one eye,
and held my breath, waiting
for your exhalation
so I could breathe your smell, your air,
your secondhand smoke;
reading silent syllables in your lips
absently forming amorphic smoke rings.
watching, fascinated, disobedient ash
unchecked, unnoticed, from your able fingers
slow motion falling to the hardwood floor.
I fall asleep
to the sound of typing.