I don't know how I did it but, with the thought that I wanted to absorb God's vibrations into me without the protective shield which God was offering us, I started absorbing God's vibrations into me without His protective shield. I noticed that my corporeal body started shaking because it was not able to tolerate the purification process.
I don't know how I did it but I tried it a few times by just keeping the thought in my mind that I wanted to get purified without the protection which God was giving us so that I can get purified quickly (so that I can become spiritually powerful quickly). Each time when I did that, my body was shaking because it was not able to tolerate the purification process. Then, I decided that I should not do that because I needed the body, so as to continue doing service and for effort-making purposes. I was wondering if the 'shaking' might affect the body even though it did not seem like as if the body was getting damaged but was only shaking.
I have never heard of BKs having this kind of experiences where their bodies shake. It was because of my own 'intention' that it had happened to me. But I knew that the body was shaking because it was not able to take the purification process because of how I was trying to get involved with the purification process.
Actually, there was nothing great about what I had done. I was new in gyan (BK knowledge) at that time. And I had thought that it would be nice if I could use a short-cut to becoming spiritually powerful quickly. The purification process, during the Confluence Age, is a slow process. One does not get purified instantly like how one gets purified on Judgement Day, at the end of the Cycle. Since our purification process is slow during the Confluence Age, it takes time to have greater spiritually strength.
I thought that if I could bring myself into a kind of situation like
that which we experience when we face Judgement Day, I can get
purified instantly and so I would not have to make effort over a long
period of time. What I was planning was not BK knowledge, though it
was based on BK knowledge.
But, you know, even though in the experiences it had felt like as if I was experiencing God's light without the protective shield, I think I was still under God's Canopy of Protection. Because during those experiences, I did not experience pain like how souls are supposed to experience pain during Judgement Day. I only felt God's light burning away all the impurities like how a laser would burn quickly and instantly. I felt very powerful and I could feel the purity increasing in me as the impurities were burnt away.
after the experience, I was not remaining in the pure state like how
souls remain pure after Judgement Day. At that time, I was wondering
why I was not remaining in the pure state since I was burnt without
God's protective shield. But I could see that it was improving my
spiritual stage and stability. However, I was not happy with just
BK knowledge teaches us that we have to use God if we do not want to
settle, I would try my best to use God and in fact, I was clinging
Light had always come to give me a Helping Hand and that was one of
the things which made me so dependent on Him at that time. I did not
dare to let go of Him because if I did, I might just fall into the
very depths of hell again and experience unbearable pain for a
specific act which I had done in a past birth. This had gone on for
about 5 years from 1996 to 2000.
The above experiences should be compared to my experiences, when my past births emerged, before I received the BK knowledge. Before I received the BK knowledge, I did not experience pain when my past births emerged. I have discussed one of my experiences, when my past birth of Alexander had emerged, at:
When this past birth of Alexander had emerged, sometime between 1981 and 1985, I had experienced the feelings which Alexander had felt and I had experienced blackness. I had not experienced any pain like that which is experienced on Judgement Day because I was not involved in the purification process at that time (since I have not been introduced to the Confluence Aged BK knowledge as yet). When Alexander emerged from 1996 (after I had received the BK knowledge), I began experiencing pain when I was being purified for the wrongs which he had done. There was a big difference between the experiences before coming into the Brahma Kumaris and after coming into the Brahma Kumaris because of the purification process. One can only get purified in the Confluence Age and then on Judgement Day. Since I had come into the Confluence Age after receiving the BK gyan/knowledge, I was getting purified (even before Judgment Day). The deities are re-created through this purification process. Maybe, there was need to settle for all the wrongs done in those past births, which are emerging now, before I get used as the Mapmaker.
By the end of 2000, it had felt like as if I was already in control and like as if I had already settled a lot of the 'worst' for which I needed to settle for now. I could feel that my spiritual strength was higher and that I had the spiritual ability to not fall into the depths of hell again (which was happening because of my weaker spiritual state). I knew that I would only be settling the remainder in a less drastic way.
So, in 2001, I had bravely stopped going daily to the BK centers. I wanted to learn to remain powerful without the support of the gathering in the BK center. I would go back when I felt that I needed the support of the spiritual gathering there. I only go there once in awhile now. Now, I don't really go there for support anymore. I am fine on my own.
Now, it is just me and God (which is how it should be). But then, we are all within the Confluence Aged gathering even if we do not go to the BK center. So, in this sense, I know that I still do get some support from the Confluence Aged gathering. But God is always there for me too.
should develop the relationship with God. God helps when we need
help. I don't cling onto Him anymore but I know that He is there for
my sister who was a doctor advised me to remain in the Brahma Kumaris though she was practising Kundilini Yoga. She told me that the Brahma Kumaris' teaching was helping me a lot and she could see
More on this topic can be found at:
1. Part 70 - Aliens, UFOs and Parallel Universes - Dying Alive (3 - Purification, Spiritual Effort Making)
2.Part 41 - Aliens, UFOs and Parallel Universes -Ancient Stories & Purification Relates to What Happens in Parallel Universes at the End of the Cycle of Time
3. Alexander the Great & Iskandar Zulkarnain (in the first post)
More on the Purifier and purification can be found at:
Part 1 - Explaining the Myths, Prophecies and Ancient Spiritual Theories - Stars, Hopi Prophecy, Red Star, Purifier
Posted on 25-11-2013:
An explanation, on why I had the experiences of being pulled into the darkness while suffering for what I had done in my past births, can be found at:
Nakki Lake was Dug by Rasiya Balam, an Incarnation of Shiva (posted on 25-11-2013)
The names and links for articles by Pari can be found at:
Global Brahma Kumaris - Pari's articles and videos