Everything...

Post date: Sep 26, 2020 1:34:02 PM

Everything I do is a reminder of you, buddy..

Our six-year anniversary is coming up... nearly six full years together nearly every hour of every day spent in each other's presence.

I still have to stop myself telling you to "guard the fort" every time I step outside.

...

A few days ago, over a month after your disappearance, I was drinking coffee and habitually reached in to pull out one of your hairs... only to pause and heartskip/sink wondering how it got there. And now that it's getting cooler I'm wearing my jacket again... and since so many restrooms have those hand-driers rather'n towels, I'm again finding my hands tangled in your fur, from drying them on my jacket...

I don't know whether it's a hopeful thing, or a happy reminder, or downright saddening every time. I do know I'm a 37y/o man with a ZZ-Top beard with snot and tears dripping every day, including right now.

You've got to come back, Butthead... I can't do my laundry until you do!