Weight On Me
Can’t live life to the fullest with all your expectations
Feels like the freedom in my life getting separated
My human side is steadily fading
Yet I do nothing about it I just keep complaining
My parents always wanted me to strive to be the best
I confess, I can’t because I gave in to the stress
Of knowing that I won’t ever be rich like Kanye
Everyone can’t have a big voice, like Beyonce
Expectations feel like weights that have to be carried.
How can you move freely when you’re forced to carry them?
While they break your back and press you to the floor.
I’m trying to keep my head up and walk through this corridor
Until I reach the door
Of freedom
Feels like I’m trapped in a box
People want me to be something I’m not
I keep throwing more emotions into my pot
However, I got to keep going farther
But the corridor keeps getting darker
My father, smartest man I know
But no way I can live up to what he’s done
In life, I’ve run 10 meters he’s done a whole home run
Yet he wants me to be greater
I start to cry
Mom walks in
I sigh, and I ask “how am I ever going to be as good as you?”
She responds from her point of view:
“I know our pressure on you can make you sad, but you don't have to live up to me and dad.
Just be a good older brother because you’re not the only one with weight on your shoulders, as a mother, it gets heavy like boulders.”
After hearing her words it made me realize
All of us the same it’s all just in our minds
We escape our responsibilities out of fear
Fear someone else would do it greater
Fear someone else would to it better
Fear you could’ve done it greater
Fear I could’ve done it better
Fear.
I drag my mom near and hug her as I shed a tear that runs down my sweater
I felt free
I feel this is the weight I’ll feel when I’m a dad and that my kids will feel
I hear my kids in the future telling me about these problems
Hard for me to solve them
I see everyone has a weight on their shoulders, it just gets heavier as you grow older
And yes it sucks to some degree
But it’s my responsibility that I’ll be ready for more weight on me