Forced to grow up
September of 2019,
I still remember...
I think.
of what it was like to pick up Lemons with my two favorite people
no, family
of what it was like to walk alongside them
as equals
of what it was like to gash the words out of
my throat
of what it was like to confess my sins
oh my terrible sins
my deepest darkest secrets
that just so happened to happen
To 2 out of 10 girls worldwide.
This is not a cry for help,
It is a protest,
It is the sharing of a tale
A story
An experience
A feeling.
Something
that I can only confess in this poem,
Or else I wouldn’t have the courage to speak up.
Because the guilt sometimes washes over me
one that
doesn't come from a forbidden fruit,
one that
wasn't due to my lack of self-control.
one that
could have changed
the lives of many young girls
But
because of my
overwhelming fear
And my
tunnel vision
hands trembling
cacophony of sounds
I said no-
it is not number one,
number two
or number three.
and because of me,
because I just can't seem to remember
March of 2019.
Somewhere, in an obscure Park
a 12-year-old girl
with too many guts
will walk around pridefully
until the moment she's forced to grow up.
And outside of that door,
Outside that metal gate,
Sits a girl on a bench,
Quietly waiting to become a woman.
Because no girl could ever grow without any pain,
Any suffering,
Any mistreatment.
Without being the two out of ten.
But there is another side,
For this is not a story to feel sorrow for,
It is not an experience to pitty for,
It is not a feeling that should be normalized,
Or glorified.
This story has not been told from the victim’s perspective,
For I was not the one who lost my humanity.
The survivor