Lucy Allen

Obsession

Stop and think;

I must,

But don’t

Stop and think

of all this madness.

Stop all this pity, because along the line it won’t be so pretty.

Stop trying to be the Sugar Plum Fairy.

Stop and think;

But why?

I should

Of the countless days and nights of blistered feet, blood, sweat and tears,

Stop and think

Of how a deeply loved passion can clash with my hated fears.

Because behind this facade there lies the truth, bloody toes, pain and grief which all act as the proof.

I cry because of the pain,

I cry because I can’t go on

I cry because I don’t want to go on.

There are ways in which I think to the point where I don’t blink.

There was a record, a voice that played in my head, that made me feel like I wanted to be dead.

There were times of joy, but times of hardship when I thought my dreams were destroyed.

I strived so far for the stars but it was like I was covered in scars.

But now I see how that was not really me.

Stop and think

And let time take its turn because there are many things that I still want to learn.

Stop and think

And take one day at a time.

Stop and think

About this crazy obsession before it leads me into deep depression.

And finally Stop and think

Because it is much better to float than it is to sink.