Yash Lyall

Inevitable

Although shocking, its inevitable

Its painful, but we should prepare ourselves to be affected by these sorts of events

Death brings pain

At first, Pain brings hate

“But knowing that pain also allows people to be kind. Pain allows people to grow”

Death feels like hell, but for some it brings peace

Not peace that takes one weight of your shoulders

But peace knowing the one who's passed away is in a better place.

Peace that makes you remember, they're safer there.

Death brings grief

Grief brings anger

Anger stores all your negative feelings and thoughts into a cup

And then eventually the cup will shatter

When it shatters, hold on to that feeling

That feeling will help you overcome the sorrow, the pain, the anger

And allows you to then truly look at the bigger picture

Peace and freedom

It was at midnight, making it very early morning the next day

I was in a state of shock

I couldn’t move

I felt weak

I felt helpless

Although we were a long distance apart

I felt that there was something I could’ve done

Surely there was something I could’ve done, right?

I wish I could’ve saved her

We all did

But our helplessness made us feel even worse

And then I was out of shock

I cried

I couldn’t move

I felt weak

As of when I’m writing this, 2/26/2021,

It’s been 40 days

Even now, I still feel helpless

I still wish I could’ve sa-

When it was morning,

I woke up

And immediately started crying again

I was in disbelief that it had been 12 hours since I got the news

I started thinking back at the moment I was told

It had been haunting me the whole day

And still does now

I barely spoke the whole day

I must’ve said 10 to 20 words

But I spoke a lot in my head

I also started thinking back about when one of my teachers in a previous year asked me,

In whom do you find a resting place? Who makes you feel the most comfortable?

I said her

It was a tremendous amount of pain for me, I can’t even imagine how much pain it was for my parents

“But knowing that pain also allows people to be kind. Pain allows people to grow”

The difference between the day I was informed, and now

Is that I have grown

I bared that pain

Learned from it

Grew because of it

And now I’m able to laugh once again

I’m able to look at her, and think

“Wow, she really is in a better place. She’s having the time of her life in a place better than Earth.”

When I started looking at the bigger picture, the brighter side, I knew that my cup shattered

And until now I’ve held on to that feeling

Many people go through the pain and anger of death

Many people have lost their own lives due to another’s death

What kept me away from the negative thoughts, and told me to look at the brighter side was God.

God told me that if I want to see her again, and see the others

I should live on, and accomplish as much good as I can.

Although this is a “narrow path”, I’ll still walk through it, and reach my end goal

“The Life After Death”

To everything negative, there’s a positive

Otherwise it wouldn’t be neutral, and nobody would be able to live on

So always look at the brighter side of life, like I did

Although it may seem quite cheesy, I still must say

“If I can do it, anyone can”

It’s fine to be shocked, surprised, helpless, weak, sad, mad,

Because death is inevitable,

Remember, it’s fine to let all your feelings out, all your tears.

Luckily for me, I’ve been very clumsy ever since I was little, she even said that herself.