APRIL

It was already April. Month of seasonal leadership’s tenth anniversary. I had plans for it that had already been wrecked. Wrecked by the dissolution. But it’s ok. I guess the most important thing at the moment has already been changed. All that matters was for me to be fine. Like I told myself two months back, by then I should already be fine. Was I?

I have to say yes, I was slowly beginning to feel fine. Since March, Harry was already slowly outdoing Aliza - thanks to his tour and concurrent mentoring. But it was a different story once we reach the turning point. It happened on the 5th of April, date of the next event called Heaven on Earth. Not only was I feeling so much better, but it became like an eye opener to me.

It was a moment when I will have to disconnect everything and reconnect with more organic things. We went to Batangas and stayed there for three days. While in there, I decided to put off anything related to Aliza and pretend that he does not exist. I actually did that for a week.

Then there came this one very important realization: The moment, or 2018 to say the least.. actually belonged to Harry Styles.

He has been acting like a real leader by then. Every move, every action, every impression. It’s as if he’s the rightful leader by that time. I kind of regretted my decision now to bring Aliza back. And for so many times now, I have been considering Harry to become an official leader. It even went to the point when I was about gonna announce that on anniversary day. But after some back and forth discernment, I thought that leadership is not for him. However great his potential in seasonal success may have been. It did not push through. Because once it reaches the midyear, I thought..

Leadership needed a break.

One day, I received a message on Facebook. I would not go long, but it said something like:

I had just received tickets to the Harry Styles concert.