December

In spite of someone new in his position, I thought that the best way to go through it is to not see Aliza for a full month. November was the last time I saw him for 2017. I called that an existential comatose. He had to be gone. Maybe that will solve the problem, as it is believed that healing only begins when you lose something.

Meanwhile, in his absence, I became more open and productive, and at the same time Harry was doing well as alternate leader. My small business that I was working on was about to thrive - or at least I hoped. But I was working so hard to make that happen. So basically, all I did was to forget about everything first and instead put my focus on emanating love.. but the past still kept on haunting me. I still felt a bit insecure. So at the time I tried to open a dating app that we used in our thesis last year. I was lucky to be noticed by someone in a way I never expected.

At the time, I have decided to let Aliza continue with his scheduled comeback on New Year's Day. On one condition - he would get a rebrand and hence when he comes back, we wouldn't see the same person ever again. Gone were the days of bubbly cheery Millennial boy-next-door leader Aliza. His days are over.