Ken Bowen

The Man I Used to Be

Back then, time didn’t matter. It couldn’t catch me.

I thought I’d never slow down.

I felt like the sun came up only to see what I’d do next.

Back then, I could lift the world, and laugh while I did it.

I didn't think much about tomorrow. Hell, tomorrow always came easy.

But years have a way of sneaking up on you and father time is undefeated.

Then one day you wake up and that fire in your chest that burned so bright

has turned to a steady glow instead of a blaze.

I’ve learned to say goodbye to that young bull I once was.

He had a good run.

He was wild and proud and full of noise.

That was then.

But time…..time, it humbles you.

You learn to see what really matters and filter out the things that don’t.

The hands, they’re a little more worn than they used to be.

That voice that once told the world HERE I AM! A little quieter.

And the heart, a whole lot wiser.

Now, I’m a husband who loves deeply.

A father, who listens more than he talks and takes pride that my kids still come to me for answers….sometimes.

I’m a son, who finally understands his own old man and understands his whys.

I'm a friend who shows up, even when it’s not easy.

Proud to be a teacher and coach who tries to give back some of what life’s given me.

I don’t lift weights like I used to, that really doesn’t matter anymore.

These days, I’d rather lift people with strength given by God.

And that’s heavier work.

But you know something, it feels better at the end of the day.

So raise a glass and make a toast.

Here’s to the man I used to be.

He made me who I am today. 

I remember the road travelled but look forward to the path yet taken.

So raise a glass and make a toast.

Here’s to the road still ahead,

with all its twists and turns, ups and downs, sunrises and sunsets.

I ain’t Superman anymore, but I think I’m something stronger now.

I’m a man who knows what it means to live, what it means to love, and to keep on going.

Come what may.