People don’t talk about their insecurities, because they are “insecurities”. A lot of people also don’t take the word insecure seriously. That’s why I want to be one of the many people who talk about it.

Insecurities and doubts cannot be healed, neither no can they disappear forever. But they can be controlled, handled. I want to spread as much information and awareness as possible for people to know enough about insecurities to be able to handle them. Insecurities lead to many things including mental illness, in order to prevent it, I’m going to speak up and help people learn more about it.

Because insecurities cannot go away permanently, I also want my goal to be eternal. I want to keep spreading awareness just like how doubts and uncertainty never go away.

At first, I collected my own memories for the brainstorming. Times when people opened up to me about their struggles with insecurities. Then I think thoroughly about how it would be if I really chose this topic for my culminating project. I personally never really have a good relationship with my insecurities. But as time goes by, I slowly accepted the fact that it isn’t something that can heal. I wanted to share and reassure at the same time. That is one of the main reasons why I made an Instagram account to promote and widely spread information about everything I know about insecurities. What’s in my head was; “How can I make people aware of others’ and their own insecurities?” I wanted to make it easy to absorb and understand, but make it convincing and interesting at the same time. Those were my thoughts when this project first started.

I wanted people to understand what I’m trying to convey in the words I wrote in my products. My goal was not to convince people to exterminate their insecurities and doubts. But to embrace their own imperfections, that way, insecurities that used to be their center of attention won’t stand out as much. Though, they are still there. That’s what we need to acknowledge.

My very first option was to create a fictional book. About two characters fighting their own insecurities and having their own struggles. Fighting their own inner self in different ways. But all I could think about was the short amount of time I get to work on it. I need to finish all of it by April, what else could I do? And that was when I decided to include an e-book in my list of options for my cp products.

My main stress shifts from time to time. Sometimes the stress was because of the amount of school work I get that forced me to put aside CP for a while, sometimes it’s just the project itself. But everything became overwhelming by the time CP talk week came by. Everyone had to do everything in a rush while making sure everything was perfectly in place. It was a huge struggle I don’t think I will ever forget.