Hatred

I genuinely hope that someone out there finds this wisdom helpful. It made a real difference for me back in 2013 when I was completely lost—homeless, broken, confused, and terrified. 

After returning from Afghanistan in 2010, life gradually unraveled until I’d lost everything I thought was secure. During that dark time, I discovered Dr. Wayne Dyer and his teachings struck a chord that’s stayed with me ever since, which is why I felt compelled to share some of it in these videos. 

To be completely honest, though, I still wish my soul were at peace. I've lost faith in humanity and, at times, I’m filled with bitterness—even self-hate. I’ve listened to this wisdom hundreds of times, hoping it might change my spirit, yet I still feel trapped by darker feelings. Facing this has at least brought some clarity, but the truth is I feel like I wasted my life. I could have been healthy and happy. I could have helped people and served a greater purpose. 

-But when I needed support, no one was there. My family abandoned me. I would have done anything for them. But no one was there for me when I needed it. And now I live alone, knowing I’ll likely die alone. I’m unhealthy, and each day feels like a struggle. I hate going to sleep and waking up each day. It’s hard to face what I’ve become; I know it didn’t have to be this way, and that makes it feel like such a waste. I wish I could say things were different. But this is the way it is.