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SHORTER: He’d be pretty happy about it since most people are taller than him. So he’d tease her about it sometimes (and might go a little too far, but then feel bad about it). His s/o would have a nickname; Shorty. Super, super protective. He already sees himself as a danger to be around and since she’s short, thinks she’s in even more danger, whether or not that’s actually true. Carmen must be ready for sudden, really tight hugs. Other then that, I don’t think it would make much of a difference to him. He’s !much! more interested in her personality than any outward appearance.SHY: He absolutely loves seeing Carmen's cute and blushy face. Especially when he's the reason behind it. He won't admit it, though. Ciel might even kiss her on the cheek when nobody's around. He knows she's shy and respects her boundaries, but will tease her occasionally because he thinks she looks super cute when she blushes. Sometimes, he catches himself blushing when she does. She just looks too cute; he can't help it.

CRUSH

Criteria

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Not too sensitive; he needs someone who can tell him when he’s being too mean but also can put up with his pride / anger to a certain point
Kind of has a thing for people with an aura of sorrow about them. He’s drawn to someone who is familiar with tragedy in the same way he is; he finds comfort in a kindred spirit. He likes when someone takes that sadness or tragedy and uses it to benefit themselves like he does with his own misery instead of letting it weigh them down. Ciel obviously wouldn’t wish for bad things to happen to anyone, let alone his s/o, but he would appreciate someone who could understand his trauma on a deeper level than anyone else
Ciel will want a relatively happy person, almost like Lizzie; he could use the light in his life. Someone who could provide him with positivity and allow him to view things more optimistically would be ideal
He’ll want a polite lady / gentlemanly-like partner who can still throw down and protect themselves. It’ll make him swoon
Mature and trustworthy
Considerate and genuine; Humble
A brave person is ideal since his life is nothing close to sunshine and rainbows
Intelligent; he likes someone he can hold a conversation with
Likes wit, but also calm and gentle; he needs someone who can answer back to Sebastian but also can be almost like his mum type. He likes that because 1) he sees it as a good trait to have and 2) he likes someone who can be gentle in the environment he lives in. Though he'd best be suited by someone with a calmer persona, they'd have to be down-to-earth as he'd most likely view them as his stability. Someone with a motherly aura who could take care of him instead of him having to take care of them. That type of person would attract him
Playful banter. Ciel loves bickering and arguing, even though he likes to put up the front that he’s too mature for such childish behavior
Enjoys being challenged, but at the same time, likes winning even more, so someone who is a great opponent but still not great enough to beat him would definitely intrigue him. Loves regardless of social status and looks. He’s an earl; he can do whatever he wants and it's only his choice whether he'll date a maid, countess, or anyone else. It will be the feeling that matters the most for him. Likes a soft, light voice. Doesn’t mind what his s/o looks like as long as they keep themselves clean. Honestly doesn’t care about size, either. Weight doesn’t bother him; he’s gonna be a little moody if his s/o is taller than him, but that’s honestly nearly inevitable

Behavior

It will certainly take him some time to put two and two together and notice the meaning between his latest lack of concentration, insomnia, and general oversensitivity — too much time, considering the fact that he's the Queen’s Watchdog and such conclusions should rather come natural to him. Nevertheless, even after the realization, he'll have to wait and make sure he's not mistaken, although the mere thought of actually truly loving Carmen hit him right in the middle of afternoon tea and resulted in him spitting it all over himself. Still, it won’t be a real sign for him; he'll need proof. He won’t ask anyone for advice, no matter how much he really needs it; it would be just too shameful for him, so he'll eventually decide to figure it all by himself. And maybe with a little help from books. Catching him reading some of Jane Austen’s novels will only make him immediately get rid of said book (be it hiding it under the pillow or throwing it out of the window only to look for it later) and act as if nothing happened. How would he look in Carmen’s eyes after being caught with such silly lecture, after all? He'll pay more attention to the couples passing in the city, noticing how they act around each other and how they talk, wondering if he's the same while being with Carmen. Sometimes he'll imagine that it's them walking down the street, holding hands and talking about some trivial things. It will be enough to make him blush, thinking that maybe all those clues weren’t meaningless, and it was just him who couldn’t notice the love of his life right in front of him. Later then, he'll be completely devastated. He's not someone Carmen should get attached to; being involved with him can be dangerous, not to mention the fact that he won’t ever be able to spend a long loving life with her since his soul's destined to be eaten after getting his revenge. At least, this is what he'll be repeating to himself over and over again, screaming into pillow in the middle of the night to release the inner pain… even if just a little. He'll be worried about Carmen’s well-being to the point that he'll try to push her away by acting cold and distant, hoping that it will make her feelings disappear and so maybe he'll be able to fool himself that it wasn’t love. His words and actions will be harmful and their aim clear and straight because if losing her will make her safe and sound, then Ciel will be willing to make himself seem a cruel bastard even though it will shatter his heart. (If she decides to go away and never come back, he'll let her and act as if he's relieved by watching her leave. But the truth is, he won’t ever forget her and all those butterflies she woke up in his stomach.) However, if Carmen decides to stay with him no matter what, he'll eventually become softer and softer around her, giving up to the overwhelming feelings for her and will decide that if she doesn’t want to be safe somewhere else, then he'll have to take the best care of her himself and protect her from every possible danger.

From the beginning, Ciel has trouble recognizing his feelings for Carmen, so he hides them with weird / awkward behavior. Blushy little mess he is ^.^ He tries to act all professional, but when Carmen comes near or touches him in the slightest way, he gets all blushy; Sebastian notices and makes Ciel’s life harder by being mean. He attempts to flirt / subtly reveal his feelings, but the whole time, Sebastian’s staring at him and making him nervous, so he sends him out. Even then, he still can’t do it since he’s just so scared of rejection. Rather than feel relieved at the end of the day like he usually does when waving people, he gets disheartened and really gets the urge to ask Carmen to stay. He'll act a bit more cheerful, and his eyes will shine when he's around Carmen. Ciel will act very generous towards her — he acts nicer, kinder, and just plain cheerful. He wants to please her in any way he can.SHE CATCHES HIM LOOKING: Is probably spaced-out, if I'm honest; yeah, he's admiring Carmen, but he's not really paying attention at the same time. So he has no shame at that moment in time; he's too far gone thinking about how pretty she is just reading her book. It takes a couple of times of Carmen shouting his name before he realizes he's been staring for a while and it's unnerving to her. He blushes very hard and whispers a slight "Sorry" before trying to remember what he was doing before she invaded his mind.

Confession

FIRST DATE: He’d act fairly normally but obviously tense. Ciel would be quite a bit colder, even more formal than he usually is and focused on manners. The whole event would probably start with a mostly quiet dinner, after which he’d ask Carmen to play chess. Really, Ciel has never been on a date of any kind before so he’s got no idea about what he’s supposed to do. Carmen would very likely need to be able to step in and help him out, letting him live a little so they’d both have a good time, but nothing too crazy. He has enough insanity in his day-to-day life already. He'd likely enjoy a late night walk around the gardens with her the most. It gets them outside the actual manor itself; it’s calming and the two if them can just talk without worrying about who’s around to listen — like Sebastian. The less fuel that demon butler has to tease him, the better. Even after Carmen somehow gets him to loosen up a bit, he’d still be awkward and easy to fluster; he doesn’t know what to say at all, even if he acts like he does. Each date afterwards would just be practice so he can make the date even better for next time. He’d probably want to stick to more private low-key dates with little to no other people around rather than public places, but if his new girlfriend wants to give those a shot, he’d be willing to try it to be the best date he could. So, overall, he’s trying but has no idea what exactly to do.

PARTNER

Intimacy

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IMPRESSIONS: He'll always act way more mature in her presence than he really is. Being a gentleman, he'll gladly show his high status by buying her presents, letting Carmen use his huge library, and talking about the company he's running and its successes. Sometimes it may seem selfish but the only reason to do it is to prove to her that he can take care of her every time and with him she's the safest person in the world. He'll always want to know when she gets home safe because otherwise, he'll be worried. When it comes to relationships, he likes to ask Sebastian for help because he wants to make a good impression on Carmen.SCHEDULE: Ciel wakes up a groggy, sleepy mess. The room soon becomes filled with groans about how waking up isn’t that important, attempting to get her to agree and go back to sleep, and would immediately dive back under the covers once she said it was okay. In the morning, he'll ask about her dreams and that’s a huge thing for someone who doesn’t like to speak in the early hours at all. When Ciel wakes fully, he places a quick but loving peck on her cheek. Afterwards, he swiftly leaves in embarrassment to go get dressed by Sebastian since he's incapable of doing it himself.OPEN: As he opens up more in their relationship, he’ll be more apt to vent or bounce ideas off of her. He’ll also ask her opinions on matters. Ciel coming home from work and just collapsing on a random piece of furniture. She doesn’t know if he’s exhausted from shooting people, holding a charity event, or doing paperwork. “Carmen, sometimes I wish Her Majesty could do some of her own work,” he’d mumble, staring at the ornate ceiling, followed promptly by “That could be interpreted as high treason, Carmen, please, don’t tell anyone I said that.”COMFORT: Ciel's so clever, good luck trying to hide like anything from him. He can practically read Carmen's mind and her expressions.POST-TRAUMATIC STRESS DISORDER

EMOTIONS: This poor boy has a really tough time coming to terms with his emotions; he has emotional and mental damage from his parents’ death and that cult. If he's shown this much interest in her, it already means he thinks she’s enough for him. He doesn’t have a temper per-se, but when he gets angry, he’s angry. He likes to be by himself so he doesn’t say anything rude. It’d be best if Carmen let him have this time.
CONTRACT: He’s surprisingly self-conscious about it and won’t let Carmen see it. Ciel doesn’t tell her about the contract in fear of her running away because she’s scared, but when she figures out that Sebastian isn’t a human and confronts him about it, he comes clean and tells her everything. She cried here and there, but when he told her that in due time, Sebastian would devour his soul, she sobbed and claimed she didn’t want to lose him. He was sad, too, seeing Carmen so upset, and also realizing the fact that he'd lose her someday when his contract was fulfilled.
RAISING HIS HAND: Ciel hadn’t meant to raise his hand and dreads the thought of Carmen fearing him because he doesn’t want that. He'd immediately go to apologizing, no matter how he felt — he’d be so upset with himself, the words flying out of his mouth all loving and apologetic. He gets Carmen to sit across from him while he explains that no, he hadn’t meant to do it and yes, he'd do everything he could to make it up to her. He'll be slightly emotional that night, (while he thinks she’s asleep) crying his heart out while kissing Carmen’s hair and telling her he really didn’t mean it — he just wants her to trust him and have complete faith in him. He’s just so upset and believes Carmen doesn’t even love him anymore.
If there’s anyone that understands her feelings, it’s this boy. He isn’t one to wallow, to be in his feelings by any means, but he was once a kid held captive who went through some pretty traumatic events. He uses this to help her. Ciel won’t mention specifics but he'll let Carmen know that he understands these feelings and it's okay to hurt. After coming back, he didn’t have time to truly embrace what happened; he had many responsibilities as an earl and Watchdog that it was impossible. Besides, most of his emotions about what was done to his family just manifests as anger. He doesn’t want this for her. He was able to pick up the signs quickly; the fatigue she felt, lack of motivation, lack of appetite, and self-care were immediate red flags. What really hit him was the lack of personality; her bubbly nature was occulted by this heavy cloud that hung over her at maximum capacity. Sebastian is immediately dismissed to prepare the both of them a heavy lunch. Ciel wasn’t hungry himself but figured eating with her would be more helpful than staring. Once alone, he’ll let her know the changes he’s seen and that his ears are there for her. Losing your career is hard, but he assures you that your place of former work is missing out on a gem. You'll lend your talents to another place of work that can appreciate it. As for this family member... They should be severely remorseful for what they’ve done. They’ve made you feel down and question your capabilities. You have your Independence and Ciel isn't taking that away from you, but will reassure you that as long as he's around all your needs will be met. He can’t take off from work today, there’s too much to do and he’s a workaholic, but he wants you to stay the afternoon. Read a book across from him, help him with a case or if you simply wish to do nothing in his presence that is welcomed too. He's a little more affectionate that night, holding your hand while he drifts off.

INSECURITY: When Ciel comes downstairs to greet Carmen, one of the first things he notices is how much she's playing with her clothes. She always does it, but today it’s especially noticeable. The fabric is bunched up in her hands and her eyes are trained downwards on the floor, even as she stands next to Sebastian and waits for Ciel. She lifts her gaze as he arrives and smile happily, and though he can see she's happy to be with him, he knows the expression's forced. He says nothing of it until they're comfortably settled together in a sitting room, each with cups of tea. He notices her hands trembling around the cup and saucer, but she quickly puts it down on the nearest surface when she realizes he’s looking. That confuses the earl, though from the way she's still together and trying to avoid looking at him it all becomes obvious quite quickly. “Carmen,” he says quietly, not looking directly at her so she doesn’t feel too pressured, “Are you alright? Do you want to talk with me about anything?” The short sharp breath and subsequent stammering lets him know she was indeed feeling bad about herself once again. If she tries to say it’s nothing, she's fine, he simply lays a hand over hers and asks once again that she please talk to him, because he’s sure that he can help and even if he can’t, he’ll know someone else who can. Eventually, after much consideration, she whispers out that she's worried about how she looks and what others think of her, that they might all be judging and talking about her behind her back and how it all ends up getting overwhelming. Ciel dispatched Sebastian to go and get some more tea and a biscuit, then turned back to Carmen with a caring look in his eyes and a light blush on his cheeks, dealing with this stuff isn’t exactly his forte. He then tells Carmen that she looks beautiful, especially in the clothes she'd clearly worn specially to see him today. He says that everybody is not judging her as she goes past but even if some of them are, what difference does it make to her? Their opinions don’t affect her because what she does and how she acts are nothing to them with them and she shouldn’t care in the slightest what they think, as long as she's happy. Carmen shed a couple of tears listening to that speech and Ciel gently squeezed her hand, though the moment was broken by the muffled laughter coming from Sebastian. “My Lord, that was truly inspiring. You would make an excellent politician.” The Earl then pauses a moment in dismay, color rising on his cheeks just a little more before he reprimands Sebastian for having so much input (as a servant, nonetheless) on what should have been a private conversation. Carmen can’t help but laugh at the situation, which at the very least made the humiliation a bit more bearable for Ciel.HIS NIGHTMARES: Ciel has trouble going to sleep, so Carmen usually stays up with him, comforting him into slumber with calming words. He'd replicate her actions by playing with her hair and snuggling close to her. He sometimes hugs Carmen too tight in his sleep because of his nightmares. She may find him standing in her doorway in Sebastian’s dress shirt at night, eyes full of sadness and fear. She may hear him cross the room and may feel him get into bed, cuddling up to her. He’s gone by dawn, and if Carmen asks, he’s silent. Since the stubborn earl finally accepted that he was in love with Carmen and to have her by his side, he'd been having way less nightmares than usual. In fact, you could say he had pleasant dreams scarcely, which was better than none. But still, it wouldn’t be unusual for Carmen to be woken up in the middle of the night by Ciel’s screams. Around once a week. If he’s particularly stressed, probably more. Many of the nightmares he used to have about the cult and his past are now replaced by the many horrible things that could happen to Carmen because of his many enemies. When this happens, it usually goes the same way. Sebastian enters the room almost as soon as he hears his master’s screams just to make sure it’s nothing ‘worse.’ After all, he knows Ciel well enough by now. When he establishes it’s just nightmares again, he nods curtly and leaves everything to Carmen if his help isn't needed. At first, she just gives him some space. He doesn’t like to be touched when he's anxious, so she just sits on the bed next to him and reassures him; "It was just a nightmare; I’m here with you. Everything is fine." As he starts relaxing, she slowly gets closer and closer. She takes his hand and touches him reassuringly, trying to comfort him better. When that's all over, he just clings to her for dear life and they both cuddle together. The first few times this happened, he tried to act tough and mature immediately after, but she convinced him to stop. He could show Carmen his weaknesses, even if he never wanted others to know he had any. And so he did; he lays down and hugs her however he can, as long as she's close to him. Ciel also enjoys a lot when she brushes her fingers through his hair (he won’t admit it ever, but his face says it all). Expect lots of sleepy kisses all over her face; it almost seems like he's comforting her instead of the other way, but that’s what makes him happy. To know that Carmen's there with him, alive and okay. Brush his hair or caress him enough and he’ll be back asleep in her arms in no time. It’s kind of adorable, and all of the servants in the household thank Carmen silently for helping their young master with his restlessness (and, well, for helping them, who had to deal with it the morning after). Ciel needs her when he has panic attacks or nightmares.HER NIGHTMARES: Ciel rushes to her room the moment he hears her screams. Since he suffers from chronic nightmares himself, he's surprisingly empathetic. The fact that she was feeling something similar to him — which is not pleasant in the slightest — makes him want to make her feel better at all costs even if that includes him acting a little bit less distant than usual. He'll assume that Carmen doesn't want and shouldn’t be alone if the nightmare woke her up. It doesn’t matter if it’s the middle of the night; he’ll stay awake with her for however long, hugging her and suggesting that maybe she should talk about it. Even the worst dreams seem less scary when they're called by words. However, if she doesn't wish to, he'll simply try to calm her by assuring her that she’s safe now. Ciel won’t want the others to know. Not only he can feel quite embarrassed if somebody other than Carmen knew about his soft side — the one always ready to embrace her and whisper sweet, calming words — but he also cares for her privacy. Nightmares are something he associates with vulnerability and never wants Carmen to feel ‘exposed.’HER HEALTH

CRYING: Ciel's low-key shook. Seeing her cry for the first time is something he never imagined. She’s usually so strong and kept-together. However, he'll instantly be there for her. He loves Carmen with all his heart and wants nothing short of the best for her. If she’s sitting on the bed, hunched-over crying, he’ll be beside her in a matter of seconds. “Darling? What’s wrong?” Ciel would ask in a worried tone. Ciel resented seeing her like this; sobbing, shaking, and lips trembling as she tried to control her tears. "Please, don't cry, Carmen," he said, no longer able to bear seeing her in pain. He didn't show it, but it broke him to see her like this. Perhaps he could send Sebastian to take care of the person who'd caused such pain to his beloved. He'll do whatever it takes to cheer Carmen up, keeping her near him the rest of the day / night and constantly reminding her how much she means to him. “I love you, you know that?” He’ll take Carmen to get a stuffed animal, just a really big stuffed animal — most likely be taller than him. Ciel will also do his best to make her smile.
PERIOD: After finally coming to the realization of why his partner was acting so strange, Ciel would probably feel a tad embarrassed for not realizing it before. He'd ask Sebastian for assistance in helping his lover feel better, sending him to the store to get any food that Carmen was craving. He'd then go up to her and see if there was anything else she needed, and if not, he'd suggest just cuddling with and having a lazy day. He'd be taken aback every time his partner’s mood changed, but would remind himself not to get agitated, as he knows it wasn’t something she could control.
SICK: It took Sebastian telling him that Carmen was sick before he noticed. She's always been good at hiding her problems in order to not disturb Ciel, so it's not a surprise she didn't tell him. He'd be upset that she didn't tell him out of fear of annoying him. "Promise to tell me these things, Carmen. You won't annoy me" is what Ciel said after confronting her. Now Ciel feels bad for two things. 1. Not noticing she was sick, and 2. The fact she's afraid of annoying him. That's when he decided to take a small break from work. He figured he could use a break and that he could spend some time with her. Since he doesn't cook, he orders Sebastian to make it for him, and he knows that tea, Earl Grey, can help soothe the throat. "Sebastian, you are to show them the utmost hospitality. Make sure they are comfortable and well cared for." He doesn't care if Carmen gets him sick or not. His current mindset is, "If I get sick, I deserve it," so he doesn't bother keeping his distance from her. She'd spend most of her sick days chatting with Ciel about random things until one of them passed out. Usually, she was the first to sleep. Ciel would make sure she was covered with the blankets and that her pillows are in place before going to bed himself. To him, her comfort is above his, especially when she's sick. Makes sure that she stays in bed and rests. Spoils Carmen rotten. Sneaks in some dessert for them to enjoy together. "Shhh... don't tell Tanaka, he never lets people eat sweets when they're sick."
HOSPITAL: Ciel immediately demanded to be taken towards the hospital once he heard that she’d been hurt. During the trip, he tried to calm down and mask his emotions so he didn’t seem so desperate to get there. Once he arrived, he hastily jogged to where she was, feeling his panic grow when he saw her on the white sheets, unconscious and injured. He attempted keeping his composure while asking the doctor if she'd be okay, but his voice wavers anyway. No matter what they say, his anxiety increases tenfold. The second he’s left alone with her, he let his hand gently brush hers before pulling back. He very, very softly mumbled out how worried he was and how she should get better quickly. "How do you manage these things? Hopefully this will teach you. Just… be more careful from now on."
TORTURED: Ciel doesn’t waste a second before calling Sebastian in and ordering him to end the lives of the sick monsters harming his beloved. In the back of his mind, though, he remembers when he experienced something like this and while it makes the hairs on the back of his neck stand up, he has to focus on his lover’s well-being for now. Once they get back together, Ciel struggles to hold back tears. Despite his best efforts, his stubbornness isn’t strong enough and he ends up choking on his thick tears while gingerly holding one of Carmen’s hands in his own, her soft grasp reassuring him that she was okay. Knowing the most important being in his life would live to see another day made his heart soar.
ABDUCTED: He'd become furious and anxious immediately. Ciel would drop anything he was doing and demand Sebastian to find Carmen and return her safely. He'd be unable to work while every second she was missing, panic intensifying. He'd try to hide his feelings but his worry was clear to everyone. He didn’t want to lose her. When Carmen was returned, Ciel would envelop her in a hug and sigh in relief. "I’m happy to see you again."
APPARENTLY DEAD: Angry child's even more angry and he wants revenge right now right here. He locks himself away for ages and tells Sebastian to go away every time he comes to the door. When Carmen turns up, he might actually just cry and cling to her because why the fuck did she do that and he never wants to lose her ever again.

CELEBRATIONS

On the outside, Ciel will appear as if HER BIRTHDAY isn't a big deal; birthdays happen every year so why bother celebrating? It will just cause unnecessary mess and chaos, only for few hours of fun — which he won’t be too fond of either. On the inside, however, he'll be panicking and desperately trying to think about the best gift. After considering for a long time, he'll eventually think that as much as his birthday wasn't a good day in the slightest, preferably made for mourning than celebrating, hers should be something completely different. Carmen’s presence in his life is making him happy, causing him even to smile from time-to-time, not to mention seeing the more bright sides of the life itself and so it could be considered as a valuable reason to organize a party for her. He’d pay close attention to her in the few days preceding her birthday, figuring out what kind of day she wants. Any kind of comment would be taken seriously unless it’s obviously a joke. He’d get several small, meaningful gifts, knowing she’d love them. (Sebastian probably picked them out under orders.) He’d get Sebastian to make Carmen a birthday cake. The party will be splendid, full of all the things, snacks, and music she enjoys the most, containing only the fun and games she liked. All the guests will be either her friends or family — everyone dear to her, invited by Ciel. He'll want Carmen to feel special, not as if she was at another fancy party of his, but one made all about her. He'll make it a theme party depending on what she likes. A particular historic era? Costume party? Party inside the mansion? Outside in the wonderfully-decorated gardens? Whatever she can imagine. Ciel will be also check on her from time to time, making sure she’s alright. His plan will include the servants, too, their duty focusing mostly on entertaining Carmen and keeping the party going so nobody gets bored. In the evening, after tasting the cake and Carmen blowing the candles, (”Make a wish, my love,” Ciel whispered in her ear) there will surely be fireworks. Standing in the garden and watching, Ciel will hesitate a little before gently catching her hand in his, standing close and admiring the look on her face when she stares at the sky. If someone asks him later about the show, he won’t be able to tell them anything about it since his attention was completely focused on Carmen. He'll offer her his coat like a gentleman, just in case she was cold after standing for so long outside in the night. Eventually, he'll embrace her and tell her one thing that was stuck in his head for a long time, only now feeling the courage to admit it: “I am so glad that you are here.” At night, though he’s not fluffy, he'd try to tell her how he feels about her but gets embarrassed because the words are coming out incoherently. He deeply cherishes her, though, and would need Carmen to understand and return those feelings. He'll have the last surprise present for her later when everyone heads back to their houses or guest bedrooms, and will be stubborn enough to not give her any hint. Carmen will find out about it later when he shamelessly ate her out time after time, surely giving her the night of her life.

HOLIDAYS

He'd pretend not to care about VALENTINE'S DAY, treating the entire day like any other — at least, on the surface. In reality, he'd just be stalling Carmen. In the background, he'd ordered Sebastian to prepare them the best Valentine’s Day date he could create. No less than the very best for her, after all; he didn’t settle on things like these, no matter how he pretended to be indifferent. Throughout the day, Ciel would be a bit more affectionate — but only in private. He doesn’t really know how to express his feelings, as he just isn’t great at expressing them; he forgot how it even felt to be happy after that day a few years ago. Not to mention he’s an amateur at romance. Once he actually revealed the date to Carmen and they went out, Ciel would try to act aloof but a blush on his face the entire time would tell the whole story. He’s flustered and embarrassed with little idea of what to do. The servants may try to help from the sidelines, only to mess things up. They may end up actually making things better anyways but completely embarrass the young lovebirds in the process. Overall, he’s an inexperienced, flustered bean who doesn’t know what he’s doing and it’s adorable, no matter how he refuses to admit it.
CHRISTMAS: Ciel was completely clueless, only noticing that she was being more suspicious than usual. She actually managed to easily lure him into one of her traps, asking for help and pointing out the little plant above. Despite the small blush on his cheeks, he kept his composure and took the opportunity as an excuse to give her a loving kiss. The second time, he simply walked around manor when Carmen greeted him, making him stop directly under one of her well-placed mistletoe. He blinked, muttering under his breath, a bit flustered and impressed. This time, he gave her a kiss that was shorter, but passionate. Around the third time, he grew tired of their antics, cupping Carmen’s face with his hands and pressing his lips against hers with a bit more force. "There’s no point in continuing your shenanigans. If you want a kiss, just tell me, would you?!" he shouted in embarrassment, blush darkening.

Possessiveness

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PROTECTIVE: Ciel isn’t the type to be overly open with his emotions. He prefers to keep it to himself and give out an aura of calmness. He doesn’t worry too much about Carmen; he knows she can protect herself. Whenever she’s in danger, he makes sure to send Sebastian. If the demon butler isn’t there, he’ll often take a protective stance in front of her and pretend to be calm. If the situation gets out of hand, he'll push her to leave him and save herself. But he makes sure to keep Carmen out of any situations where she might be harmed at all costs. He’d rather her not be in a dangerous situation to begin with. And if this means he can never see her again, he'll do it. He loves Carmen too much to allow her to be checked off by a reaper too early. She’s too precious to him. She might think this is selfish or too overbearing, but he doesn’t care. He'll tell Carmen straight to her face with a blush creeping over his cheeks, "I can’t let you die, not like my parents." He’ll often rest a hand on her back and likes it when she nuzzles into him, but will pretend to be annoyed despite the creeping blush.MISSIONS: He'll never, ever let Carmen participate in any of his investigations since it may be too dangerous. Don’t even bother to convince him, he'll just get angry and scream how much she means to him so he doesn’t want her to get hurt. ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) If she can fight, he might take her on missions / jobs, but he’d still be hesitant. He’d definitely make sure Sebastian was watching over her, as well. Carmen’s heart drops whenever she hears "Sebastian, this is an order: protect Carmen at all costs!" because that means he isn’t the main focus of safety.JEALOUS: It takes a lot for Ciel to get jealous, but once he does, he gets really, really jealous. Like, if someone is flirting with Carmen one time, he doesn’t care. But if it keeps happening again and again, he’ll start to notice it more. Probably threatens to ruin the person’s business / social standing / life. He doesn’t outright tell them, but it’s very obvious. When Ciel's jealous, he gets noticeably more grumpy than usual. He mumbles to himself and scowls at both his partner and the person conversing with her, not bothering to take action and instead just pacing rapidly. His lover confronts him in concern to ask him what’s wrong. His answer's vague and he tells Carmen that she should simply figure it out herself. His especially whiny response makes it instantly clear that he’s jealous. His lover places a kiss on his cheek, reassuring him that there’s no point in feeling that way as he's the only one she is interested in. "You think I don’t know that?" he scoffed, cheeks growing pink. All he wanted was to be reassured of that more often. He’d never say it out loud, of course, but Carmen knew anyway as the flustered boy looked away but held her against his body in a loving embrace nonetheless. Though he does get evidently jealous when she talks with and smiles at Sebastian.

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DATES: Laying in bed for the whole day, eating sweets, cuddling and reading something. This is the definition of the perfect date for him; not having to act and being completely comfortable with the other person to the point he can simply be himself. Ciel's pretty lazy and enjoys some good food, which would explain his choice; if his partner shares this interest, even better. Though he also likes taking her out to romantic spots and candle-lit dinners.BUSY: He’s a very busy person, but he’s also good at making sure there’s always time with Carmen built into his schedule. Neglecting her legitimately scares him, as he’d never want to lose her. When he has free time with her, he likes to get out of the manor. That’s it for him. The rest is up to Carmen; as long as he’s not inside, he’s fine. Long strolls. He may take Carmen to a horse trip in the nearby forest and the picnic later, showing her the most beautiful landscapes in the area. A little race will sound as fun also, right? Ciel would enjoy moments he and his lover got to be alone the most. He'd love cuddling during this time, as well as other ways of showing affection, although wouldn’t verbally admit it. He’s very good at remembering important dates, but he isn’t always able to celebrate them that day. He always feels guilty, but he'll make it up to her!NEEDY: Carmen would receive tons of white rose bouquets. Ciel would write little love letters for her and put them on her desk, and small chocolates under her pillow. He'd play with her hair whenever he could.SOCIAL: He’ll demand that Carmen goes to all the social parties so ‘there will be at least one upside’ his words, not hers.DANCING: He adores seeing Carmen dancing, even if it's just swinging in the rhythm of melody. He won’t participate because he finds himself dancing looking simply hilarious and humiliating for him, but observing her moving (be it nice-looking or not) causes him to think about it as simply cute. Sometimes dances with her and it always ends up with a sweet kiss.GRAVEYARD: What's even the point of that? The graveyard's dangerous at night; this is where bandits could hide, after all. Still, he won’t want to ruin her mood and will agree to go exploring, although he'll be extremely unwilling to waste time like this. After reaching the graveyard, he'll mentally pat his own shoulder and admit that he was right from the very beginning — as always — seeing that this place was just perfect to hide from the eyes of rightful men. Good thing, he brought a gun with him. He'll wander with Carmen through the tombs, lazily taking next steps and wondering why he even agreed to this. Ciel will be completely and utterly bored; it's not like the dead can do any harm and all the ghosts are nothing more than a fairytale told to the children to keep them calm and quiet. The silence surrounding the graveyard will be rather peaceful, though, as if it was completely divided from the outside world where all his duties and struggles were awaiting for his return. He'll be careful and observing yet relaxed during the whole exploring, knowing that he should protect Carmen when needed, but not allowing the fear to take over his guts. For him, it will be nothing but an unnecessary stroll in the middle of the night, although he'll think about her hand firmly holding his for a long time after going back to the manor. He'll catch a cold after that.WINTER: Staying in on snowy days and cuddling, with the curtains open so they can see the snow. He enjoys seasonal drinks, so he’d like to share lots of hot chocolate with his s/o. Winter movie marathons. Wearing matching festive / holiday pajamas. He'll be very demanding when it comes to putting warm clothes on the winter, to the point where it can get annoying.

Words of Affirmation

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PET NAMES

"Love, I don’t want you going on this mission." "But, Ciel, it’s in Paris!" "I don’t care. I’ll take you to Paris whenever you want, but you are not accompanying me this trip and that’s final."
"Darling, that dress looks positively divine on you. I’ll have Sebastian make a trip to the seamstress to purchase another one. Do you have any color preferences?"
"Dove."

COMPLIMENTS: Ciel was shocked that he was the first few people to ever call Carmen beautiful. He likes her reaction when he does call her that… Thinks it’s cute.NOTES: Ciel writes love notes and puts them everywhere.CONVERSATION: Loves conversing with her over tea and when she reads to him at night before bed. Philosophical talks.

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BIRTHDAY: If Carmen spends that whole day with him, from the first kiss in the morning to the last embrace in the evening, he may start to like his birthday. It's just important for him to finally have somebody he loves by his side and fall asleep, being sure that she's with him and will be there tomorrow.PLANNING: Ciel actually plans romantic gestures for Carmen or various presents / surprises for loved ones. Sebastian makes it a reality, but Ciel meticulously plans it so he knows it’s perfect. And most of the time, it works out extremely well. He can be a bit excessive with the surprises he sets up for her; after all, she's his world.BOOKS: Visits to the library. Every time he comes back from running errands with Sebastian, there’d be a new book for her. He’d hand it over and just casually be like "I saw this and thought you’d enjoy it," probably blushing a little despite efforts not to if Carmen thanked him. When particularly grumpy, he’d thrust the book into her hands, grunting "Here." Sebastian steps in with "Carmen, the young master means that he bought this for you and hopes you enjoy it." Ciel reads to her when she can’t sleep.

FANTASY: He'll be very curious about what could be so time-consuming in her lecture that she was spending so much time with the book in her hand. He may not be a perfect example of a bookworm but he still enjoys reading, no wonder he'll be genuinely interested in her tastes. Peeking from his own book, he'll try to discretely see the title of hers, doing his best in not being so obvious despite curiosity eating him alive. Obviously, he could just ask Carmen about the lecture and some plot but he won’t want to appear nosy, much more preferring to find it out by himself. It will be the matter of his honor! Alright, he'll sneak to her drawer when she isn’t be around and check what the whole fuss is about. Other than that, he'll really enjoy Carmen talking about her favorite books. No matter what they're about, it will be fascinating for him because it's her passion, something which makes her happy and so it certainly is worth his attention. Ciel will like listening to her in general, it will give him the possibility of looking at Carmen and observing her eyes shining with excitement. He'll think about it as a truly beautiful image, one worth saving in the memory for the rest of the life. Once he more or less learns about her most preferred genres, he'll try giving her new novels as presents. The first few may not be the best, but give him some time and he'll surely bring something wonderful to read. Spending so much time with romantic novels, he may subconsciously learn few behaviors from the characters. Don’t be surprised if she witnesses him saying something poetical or addressing to her in a completely new, quite exaggerated way. He personally may not be the huge fan of fantasy novels, preferring something more down-to-earth like a morning newspaper, yes, grandpa, but after discussing those with her, may find some advantages of it. The idea of reading about something completely made-up which doesn’t stick to reality at all will seem like a waste of time for him and she'll have to show him that some of those books can have very universal values. If she wants him to enjoy it, show him more logical or practical side, one which will make him see that it's not only a creation of some wild imagination. Evenings with a book, tea and a blanket in front of the fireplace are a must for them. Eventually, he'll find out that he enjoys some cheesy lecture, too, especially those with happy endings because it will be the only way he will experience something like that — or so he will think.

FLOWERS: Since she admitted her feelings toward him, Carmen could see the flowers growing in his gardens are suddenly replaced with her favorite ones in the most visible places. Also, the bouquets inside the mansion will usually include at least few of the flowers she likes.CAKE: He'd leave the last piece of his favorite cake for Carmen to eat and pretend that he didn't want it at the moment.PERSONAL: He'll always prepare the tea in her favorite mug.WAIT: Be the one who waits for Carmen when she has to tie her shoe when the rest of the group's heading forward. He might even leave some snarky comment later about them being rude.

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PRESENTS: He'll buy Carmen copious amounts of gifts; this baby just showers her in goodies. Ciel will take her out shopping but refuses to take her out on missions from the queen. She's the most pampered person in London, and that’s that.MUTUALITY: While he loves to surprise people he loves, he likes being on the receiving end, too — especially if it was Carmen with something like his birthday or Valentine’s Day. He’ll act like he doesn’t care or it’s no big deal, but on the inside, he’s super appreciative and already planning on how to repay the person.

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PUBLIC DISPLAYS OF AFFECTION: If she asks to hold his hand in public, he’ll act perturbed / inconvenienced, but secretly thankful. Ciel gets super flustered with couple-y stuff. In public? No, never. In private? Yes, but he'll get all flustered about it. Ciel won’t admit it but he'll enjoy holding her hand and cuddling with her since it will give him a tingling feeling of being loved and appreciated. Hugging Carmen will be even better than milk with honey and that really is something! Him getting flustered at any displays of affection. “Carmen, this is hardly the time or the place,” he’d say calmly, contrary to his face turning bright red from embarrassment.CONTACT: He'll pull Carmen to sit on his lap with a sigh after a super hard day and just hold her there. It’s weird to him because he hates it when others touch him, but he’s all for being handsy with her or her being handsy with him.HAIR: Having his head be stroked makes him feel relaxed. He won’t ever ask for it, but after few times when she does it to him late in the evening, sitting next to fireplace in a comfortable armchair, he'll notice that this can be one of those rare things to help him to calm down and fall asleep easier. He may try to suggest it later (”Would you like to get some hot cocoa before sleep?”) and be more than happy if she were to be the one to start it. Let him grumble a little before, as if he doesn’t enjoy every second of it, but keeping a cool face is more important. He blushes straight away when he feels her hands in his hair, mostly because he’s scared she’ll take his eye patch off, but some of his blush is because he’s embarrassed. He enjoys the feeling after a while and if she's on the ultimate level of trust with him, he’ll tell her about the contract because 1) he likes having her hands in his hair without the eye patch in the way and 2) because he’s sick of sleeping with his other eye patch on; it’s uncomfortable. He gets tired when Carmen just runs her hands through, as it’s relaxing, but when she puts his hair in a bun, he laughs because he just likes to know she feels this comfortable with him.CUDDLES: He turned a dark shade of red when Carmen first asked him to cuddle her while making grabby hands. Ciel's so flustered as he says no, his big blue eyes darting anywhere that wasn’t her! You guys ever seen that meme where she asks for a baby and the guys says no but then is like “Wait, don’t ask another guy, I’ll do it!” Basically him! He knows how to, but it’s been so long that he’s just awkward with it, so she ends up being the big spoon. Just Carmen loving him and stroking his hair, lulling him to sleep. He wakes up to Sebastian teasing him about sleeping with another woman. IS A CUDDLE MONSTER!!! I can not stress it enough!! Once he gets the hang of it, oh boy! Once they're alone, you best believe he's hugging Carmen and if not, he’ll shyly ask to cuddle him instead. *clears throat* “W-Would you please cuddle me?” he’d ask, doing the same grabby hand motion she did when she first asked. Immediately turns the color of Grelle's hair when Carmen obliges, kissing his forehead. He's been caught cuddling her by Sebastian on numerous occasions. “Come here,” Ciel ordered, his arms wide open for her. Instantly running into his arms as he holds her against him, the smallest of smiles on his face as they both stand there enjoying each other's warmth. “Oh my, ” a sultry tone exclaimed. Ciel looked up his blue eye wide with surprise as Sebastian stood there smirking at the them. “H-How long have you been there?” he interrogated as his face turned a light hue of pink. “Not long,” the latter stated smugly. Ciel would never admit it, but he adores cuddling. While he’ll act like he wants to get out as soon as possible, he'd be perfectly fine cuddling all day. He enjoys spending time with Carmen and talking. He always seems to find out new things about her this way and makes sure to remember every detail he can. Often, he’d fall asleep. He’s always exhausted and it’s just so relaxing. It's been an inconvenience; he’d fallen asleep before an important meeting and showed up late. Almost the entire time, he was sleepy. Still, he doesn’t think any less of those close times. Ciel hugs her from behind, not wishing her to see his blush. His arms are slung around her waist gently, allowing her to move, but he always secretly wishes she wouldn’t.SLEEPING: Will be to shy to sleep in the same bed as Carmen, but her room is right next to his and she’ll spend a lot of time relaxing in there. On long carriage rides, he thinks it’s adorable when Carmen falls asleep on his shoulder. He secretly likes watching her sleep, but wouldn’t admit it. He'll cover her with a blanket if she falls asleep somewhere else than in a bed.KISSING: Oh boi, it doesn’t matter what kind of kiss she gives him; he'll always end up being completely flustered. Obviously, neck kisses will cause him literal damage where he won’t be able to clearly comprehend what’s going on around him, not to mention speaking a single word, and that’s why they can be considered his favorites – leaving him speechless and desperately clinging to her to receive some more of them on his sensitive neck. Kisses on the cheek are always nice and will make him blush a little before kissing her back the same way. Kiss his ears; he’ll literally turn so damn red. The kisses are always gentle, innocent even. He’s soft, careful, not wanting to do anything that would startle her or make her uncomfortable. He places his hands on her cheeks, caressing them with his thumbs, slowly deepening it. He opens his mouth, slightly poking her lips with his tongue, observing her reaction and acting accordingly. He slowly drags his tongue over her upper lip, barely brushing her teeth, the feeling of her saliva surprisingly arousing. He takes it slow, savoring the taste, inhaling her scent, adoring how close she is. Ciel moves his hands to her neck, never letting go and showering her lips with sweet little kisses, gently sucking. He adores the swollenness, cherishing every second and proud that he’s the one to experience something so delightful with her. His kisses aren’t typical making out; it’s more like love-making, the innocent declaration of his affection, a whispered sinful secret. He takes it very seriously; lots of concentration and effort in being the best he can. In the manor, he doesn’t really care. His servants think it’s adorable. He only kind of cares about Sebastian teasing them. He kisses Carmen goodnight every single night.

FIRST KISS: It’s definitely a while into their relationship before there’s anything like kissing and Ciel's easily flustered. It’s also not planned in the slightest. Or rather, there was a plan for it, but it totally fell apart. Their kiss probably happens after something happened to Carmen. Being tied to the Earl Phantomhive does come with drawbacks, after all. Whether she's kidnapped or ambushed, Ciel's on a warpath, which inevitably means so is Sebastian. He was so worried for her safety that he really was the epitome of ‘no thoughts head empty.’ He just stares at her for a moment and his lip is trembling just a little. He’s hugging Carmen so tight in the next moment and then suddenly his lips are on hers. It’s short and awkward but instantly he’s so red and he’s actually stuttering... Sebastian is watching on in amusement. He’s scared he’s crossed a line but before he can actually string together a sentence, he’s being kissed again. It’s awkward and passionate and heartfelt and a little sloppy and definitely not part of any plan Ciel had, but somehow it’s better that way.
Kisses on the CHEEKS are Ciel’s favorites. They're kisses for literally any occasion – for good morning, for goodbye, for good luck at work. It’s a kiss that can be made while saying wishes, for a good night’s sleep or for a safe journey. When she pecks Ciel on that part of his face, he feels appreciated and at peace. Her lips are extremely delicate and warm, perfectly harmonizing with the cool and porcelain skin of his whole body. Additionally, when Carmen shows him affection, he has the courage to smile slightly, not even worrying about Sebastian’s later jokes about his own, crimson blushes. Her kisses are soothing and the Young Lord can never get enough of them, so give them to him as often as possible. Kiss him on the cheek? Blushes like mad, no idea what to do.
Kisses on the NOSE are the kind of kiss Ciel gives Carmen on many possible chances. They're cute and she's cute to him, too, so he usually kisses her on the nose when she's happy or when something incredibly fantastic happened. For example, she won a game of chess with someone or she received something from her parents (or from her future husband) like tickets for spectacle she really wanted to go to. Pecks on the nose are short and precious, but incredibly memorable and heart-warming. Plus, they’re sometimes very playful, so you can experience that side of Ciel no one else can see now or ever.

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PROVOCATIVE

NOTHING UNDERNEATH: Ciel was unaware of Carmen’s nudity until she started giggling mischievously. The odd act made him suspicious, which led him to observe her more closely. This, of course, resulted in a heavy blush racing across his cheeks. His stammering stopped and his jaw clenched shut when she pressed up against him so deliciously. Oh, man. He was sure his rapid heartbeats could be heard throughout the entire mansion. His gaze locked with hers and he took a few long breaths to calm himself, pulling her into a deep kiss once his shock passed. “This is going to be a long night now. You can’t do something like this to me and expect me to ignore it,” he informed. He could tell by the sly expression on her face that she wanted exactly that, and as much as he didn’t want to feed her ego, couldn’t deny that fact that she looked absolutely gorgeous in her current state.
CROTCH: Ciel had left his office to take a walk outside. Instead, he'd ran right into his partner and ended up on top of her while Carmen rubbed her head. He was about to apologize when he realized that their most intimate parts were touching; the only thing separating them was their clothing. His eyes grew wide, he quickly got up, and held his hand out to help his lover up, as well. He'd blush every time Carmen said something to him or even looked at him. She'd tease him later on by acting like she was getting ready to fall and wink suggestively at him. He obviously blushed. A lot.

VIRGINITYCiel will be most likely more nervous than Carmen, not only because of his lack of abilities but also because of the possibility of unintentionally hurting her. He'll keep it a secret but before their first time, he'll find and read a few books which could give him a hint about what he should do to give her pleasure and what to be careful of. He may not be an expert but he'll try really hard, especially since learning all that information is something he'll have to do all by himself, asking the butler about anything of this sort is completely out of the question. Throughout the act, he'd be surprisingly kind towards Carmen. Ciel would whisper sweet nothings into her ear and caress her face or even twirl locks of hair. At the beginning, he may often ask if she's comfortable — if she likes the way he's touching her or if she wants anything else. After a few times, when they both get to know each other’s bodies and preferences, he won’t ask anything and make her mewl in his arms every time. He'll destroy the mood by constantly asking if she's feeling alright, if there's anything you need, if he can kiss her here or touch there and will demand an answer before moving further. This attitude will change later but for now, knowing it's her first time, he'll want to make sure that she remembers it as a good, satisfying experience. Ciel will rather want to keep it simple and easy so there won’t be place for trying various techniques nor positions, there will be time for it and for now, observing her reactions while laying under him will probably be the most suitable.FOREPLAY

TIME: Despite his undeniably busy schedule, he isn’t the biggest fan of quickies as he much prefers to be able to take his time with her — something that quickies just don’t allow. Equally, he doesn’t even have the time for them between all of his meetings and assignments.
YEARNING: Whilst he has quite a high sex drive and can crave sex upwards of once or twice a day, Ciel’s conservative upbringing, busy schedule and residual trauma leads to him neglecting his urges so they’ll only really have sex two to three times a week at the very most.
AROUSAL: There are quite a few things that never fail to get a rise out of her earl, with a select few being: the idea / sight of one of them in lingerie, Carmen teasing him during a meeting, thigh-riding and him seeing her being needy for him in one way or another (such as walking in on her masturbating to his image).
BODY: As a direct result of the trauma he experienced as a child, Ciel's incredibly insecure and defensive when it comes to his body generally — especially regarding Carmen looking at or touching it. However, if he had to choose, he’d probably default to his chest because of how strong and firm it's become over the years, as well as the fact that it’s the part of his body that bares the least scars (and, thus, the least trauma associated with it directly).
- FEMALE: Chest! Whether it's large and soft or smaller and firm, and regardless of its sensitivity, Ciel absolutely adores Carmen's chest. He could spend hours at a time touching it and it's the main focus of his foreplay, often leaving her with an array of bite marks and bruises in the aftermath. Outside of sex, he loves buying her clothes that accentuate it (be that lingerie or just dresses) and he relaxes by laying his head upon it, being soothed by the sound of her heartbeat — reminding him that she's alive, that she's okay and that he has something to keep on fighting for.
- MALE: Stomach! It doesn’t take a genius to figure out that Ciel holds particular affection for your stomach because of how long he spends touching or admiring it. When you’re relaxing together, he’ll either have his hands on it or he’ll outright rest his head on it; not caring whether it’s firm or soft as long as it’s a part of you. He’ll also lean towards marking it up more than other areas of your body during foreplay and sex — especially with bruises.
- NON-BINARY: Thighs! After particularly taxing days of work or completing missions for the Queen, Ciel loves to lay on your thighs and listen to you talk about your day; the intimate action combined with the sound of your voice never failing to leave him feeling comfortable and at home. He also loves feeling your thighs against him, especially around his waist or over his shoulders whether they’re soft or strong (as long as he can touch them, he’s happy).
- TRANS FEMININE: Chest! Whether it's large and soft or smaller and firm, and regardless of its sensitivity, Ciel absolutely adores your chest. He could spend hours at a time touching it and it is the main focus of his foreplay, often leaving you with an array of bite marks and bruises in the aftermath. Outside of sex, he loves buying you clothes that accentuate it (be that lingerie or just dresses) and he relaxes by laying his head upon it, being soothed by the sound of your heartbeat — reminding him that you’re alive, that you’re okay and that he has something to keep on fighting for. So needless to say, if you’re at all insecure about your chest, he'll do whatever he can to lift you up and assure you that, in his eyes, you’re the most beautiful person to walk the earth.
- TRANS MASCULINE: Stomach! It doesn’t take a genius to figure out that Ciel holds particular affection for your stomach because of how long he spends touching or admiring it. When you’re relaxing together he’ll either have his hands on it or he’ll outright rest his head on it; not caring whether it’s firm or soft as long as it’s a part of you. He’ll also lean towards marking it up more than other areas of your body during foreplay and sex — especially with bruises. Though he'll be much kinder and mindful of his actions if you hold any discomfort towards your stomach.
EXPERIENCE: Ciel has an incredibly complicated relationship with sex that meant he was uncomfortable with his own body and sexuality for most of his life before meeting Carmen — let alone welcoming the idea of another person seeing or touching him in that context. So, unfortunately, the only “experience” he had before her was the sexual trauma he experienced during his time with the cult that kidnapped him and his twin.
JACK-OFF: Due to a mixture of sexual trauma and a conservative upbringing, Ciel just doesn’t masturbate and wouldn’t even if she asked. Even before he was with her, he didn’t touch himself; he just ignored his urges as his sexuality and body made him uncomfortable for a very long time — even now that he has Carmen, his own body just isn’t something he likes to see or touch.
GROOMING: Ciel's incredibly well-groomed and takes great pride in his appearance, going so far as to keep to a schedule when it comes to general upkeep of his body. He has a small trail of dark blue hair that stretches from the base of his shaft to part of the way to his naval, which he keeps trimmed short and somewhat shaped to minimize fuss — it's also surprisingly soft in texture but still just slightly coarser than the hair on his head.
X-RAY: The shaft is considerably longer than average but has a normal girth with a prominent vein on its underside. The tip of his cock is a pale pink and slightly more bulbous and it has a barely noticeable curve to the right when erect.

INTERCOURSE

DOMINANCE: He likes being in control, as he's spurred by his partner’s reaction. He especially enjoys her gasps and moans. The more comfortable he gets with sex, the better he is at being dominant. After the first few times, he’s able to control his reactions better (excluding when he’s receiving oral) and he learns his partner’s weak points so he can use them to his advantage. Later on, Ciel will be a switch in the privacy of his bed chambers, not really caring whether he'll be the top or the bottom. For him, it will be all about the mutual pleasure, not keeping any façade, and as much as he may be quite thrilled about the idea at first, will eventually greatly enjoy being the bottom. Though it depends on whatever his lover prefers, he won’t be too strict or demanding, simply wanting them both to have a good time. That being said, he'll definitely be a switch swinging to the sub side more.
INTIMACY: This is fairly obvious, but he sees sex as a huge step in the relationship. He’d have to be incredibly comfortable with his partner before he actually sheds his clothes. (Also, they’d probably have to know everything. There’s no way his eye patch would stay on the whole way through and his slave brand's quite obvious.) On days where he’s feeling particularly affectionate, he’ll intertwine their fingers or kiss her a lot more than usual (during sex). This often happens after he’s seen a tragedy happen (perhaps while he’s working a case) and he realizes how much his lover means to him. He really doesn’t know what he'd do if something happened to Carmen. Goofiness and joking around aren’t things that come to Ciel naturally or comfortably and, as such wouldn’t be traits that he’d exhibit or want to play a part in their sex life. He treats sex very seriously because of his past and simply wouldn’t appreciate anything of that sort.
VOCAL: He’s really sexually sensitive. Even the lightest touch will have him gasping for breath. That being said, he likes to seem in control, so he does his best to keep his sounds to a minimum — which never works, and he’s almost always louder than his partner. He also squeals when embarrassed. Don’t ever try dirty talking on him. It will make him a huge burrito of embarrassment, blushing like crazy and desperately kissing Carmen with those trembling lips to make her silent. He loves being unfair in the bedroom and will gladly tease her to the brink of tears if she consents to him doing so — being open to both overstimulation and edging as they both usually lead to the desired outcome of her begging him for something or another. That being said, he’d also likely be somewhat receptive to being on the receiving end of teasing so long as she's a lot nicer than him; just be patient, it takes a lot for him to even get to the point of free submission with her.
STAMINA: When it comes to sex, he absolutely tends to give it his all and will come out the other end thoroughly exhausted and leaving Carmen a panting, fucked-out mess too spent to ask for more. Because of this fact, Ciel tends to limit himself to one or two rounds at most (which also complies with his typically very busy schedule).
LOCATION: Ciel has an obvious preference for having sex in areas where he's the one in control — be that in either estate or around one of his businesses. Though the most common areas within that are his offices, her bedroom(s) or in the toy room.
PACE: With him, it’s either slow, passionate, lovemaking or fast, hard fucking. There's no in-between. However, when he isn’t being rough, he is as passionate as can be. He thinks of sex as primarily an emotional experience between him and his partner, so he does his best to convey his love for them, and he always puts them first. Generally, it’s the slow, passionate stuff, but he’s got so much pent-up stress (and probably sexual tension) that occasionally he’ll just snap and can’t control himself. He'll be rather into slow love-making than rough sex. Long foreplay with a lot of kisses and embraces is totally his thing, especially because it gives him an opportunity to physically show his feelings toward his lover. Usually the only time Ciel will get really rough is when he’s frustrated and has a lot of sexual tension built up. These sessions are rare, but sometimes he needs a way to relieve stress, and sex with his partner seems like a good way to go about it. Usually these rough sessions are for physical release, so he isn’t too affectionate during, but afterward, he’ll apologize and let Carmen know how much she means to him.
POSITION: The ones that aren’t too exhausting or complicated. Ciel gets tired rather quickly due to his asthma and won’t want to disappoint Carmen simply because he can’t keep pace with her. That being said, all of the simple ones where they can lay or sit will be suitable for him; no weird splits nor anything like that and he'll be satisfied. He tends to lean towards one of three main positions depending on his general mood and how much energy they each have by the end of the day, with these being missionary (for general sex), doggy style (to be rougher) and Carmen riding him (when he’s tired).
ORAL: Although Ciel does have some sadistic tendencies during sex, he'll always put her needs above his and that solidly extends to oral. He'll almost always start off by going down on Carmen without any expectation of her returning the favor — not that he’d complain if she did. When giving, Ciel takes his time to explore and memorize every inch of her body; starting with her jawline and throat before slowly making his way down to the apex of her thighs. His touch will be gentle, yet not too much, as he trails his lips and tongue along her body before finally reaching where she wanted him — at which point he’ll get straight to work. A businessman at heart, Ciel's effective and thorough in his treatment of her, leaving Carmen writhing and bucking into his mouth within moments. He’ll use his tongue, teeth and lips to make her see stars whilst allowing her to use him however she’d like (be that tugging him closer or thrusting / bucking up into his mouth), he doesn’t mind — too busy chasing her high and savoring her flavor to care. And when she cums, he’ll revel in her taste and lovingly lead her through her high before moving away and smirking up at her, lips slick with her release, as he subtly warns Carmen about what’s to come. When receiving, Ciel's a shaky and uncertain mess; completely unsure of what to do with himself as he alternates between carding his fingers through her hair, grasping the back of her neck and awkwardly resting his hands on her shoulders as she kneels before him. This is where she’ll see him lose any semblance of dominance and control as his tongue seemingly ties itself in knots, leaving him barely able to speak between the very loud and shameless moans, whines and groans that slip from his pale lips — lewd sounds that slowly evolve into strings of cusses and low cries of her name as he nears his high. He’ll try desperately to stay in place and not hurt Carmen, but as he starts to mount his peak, will be unable to stop himself from thrusting into her mouth and all but guiding her along his shaft before he cums with a final jerky thrust and a loud moan — and if she looks up at him, she’ll see just how red and sweaty his face is in the aftermath (just don’t mention it for the sake of his pride).
KINKS: With a few notable exceptions (listed above), Ciel is decently willing to experiment and take risks in the bedroom. If you bring something up that isn't one of his hard limits and explain it, he'll look up what he can and will try it at least once it's determine whether it would be something he'd enjoy. Ciel would make sure his partner was comfortable and properly aroused before trying anything risky. Over the course of your relationship Ciel accumulated quite a varied collection of toys that he’d freely use on you (or even let you use on him with enough prompting). A small selection of these toys are dildos, vibrators, gags, blindfolds, ropes / bindings, paddles, and whips.
- He likes seeing his partner in lingerie — but that goes both ways. He just likes lingerie in general, whether on himself or his partner.
- During those rough sessions, he has a slight biting kink.
- Body worship
- Praise (receiving)
- Degradation (giving)
- Mild dacryphilia (on her)
- Food play
- Impact play (giving)
- Roleplay
- Bondage (giving)
LIMITS: Public sex, group sex, and general violence — Ciel has a few things that he outright refuses to consider introducing to their sex life for one reason or another, with the main two being sensory deprivation and any dynamic that involves either of them being consistently chained-up / treated as lesser (a pet, slave, etc.) because of his trauma. On a similar note, he’s uncomfortable with introducing other men to their relationship (again because of his past with the cult), though he’s neutral on bringing in women if she was insistent upon it.

CLIMAXHe’s quite contradictory, because he enjoys being as close to his lover as possible (usually in missionary) and he enjoys maintaining eye contact — however, when he starts to really get into it, he begins to arch away from her and clench his eyes shut. His cum is incredibly bitter to the taste and has a translucent color whilst being incredibly thin. That being said, he does cum quite a lot and prefers to release inside of her because it’s much less messy and it’s another show of dominance in his eyes.AFTERCAREIt takes Ciel a long time to be comfortable enough around her to even allow himself to be vulnerable and open about his needs after sex. So earlier on in their relationship, aftercare will likely be very limited and only really consist of minimal cleaning and care to ensure her comfort and security whilst neglecting his own. Though once they’ve been together for a while, Ciel will start to open up about his own feelings and will be open to Carmen caring for him in return after sex — likewise, he'll also become much kinder and more affectionate and attentive towards her, bringing anything and everything needs to ensure her comfort (having Sebastian make food or run a bath, or simply laying down beside her and basking in the afterglow). He’s the best at aftercare. Ciel will always hold his partner close, telling her how much he loves and appreciates her, asking if he hurt her in any way. Cuddling after sex is compulsory. Beware, it may lead to the round two.

More often than not, Ciel struggles to fall asleep and can spend upwards of several hours trying to relax only to get little to no sleep (with what little he does manage to get is usually far from restful). Though the nights he lays beside Carmen are the ones where he finds himself the most comfortable and mostly free from his frequent night terrors — so, in a word, whilst it will still take him a while to fall asleep with her (at least an hour, and that’s only if she completely tires him out) he finds himself much more well-rested and able to get comfortable with minimal fuss.

BATHCiel likes when Carmen sits on his lap. White rose petals are must-have. He'd often buy some nice little candles and put it everywhere in the bathroom so they could have a romantic atmosphere.

SPOUSE

Marriage

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NEWLYWEDS: He'd be absolutely sure of the marriage. Ciel spoils her with clothes and other extravagant yet meaningful gifts. He’d be quite a relaxed husband because he trusts Carmen and that’s all there is to it.

CHILDREN: The notion of such a serious step forward would effectively stun Ciel, as soon as he'd found out what she'd been coveting. Children? That was quite the forward thinking on her part. He was very serious about his partner and wouldn’t even dream of parting with Carmen, he just hadn’t yet contemplated the idea of the “next level.” Considering the thought deeply, he’d come to terms with the fact that he had no objection to the suggestion — he desired it actually. They were both fit for it, and if not now, when? She'd be a phenomenal parent. His next order of business would be to confront Carmen about the concept. He might feel a bit hurt that his partner hadn’t come to him directly, and he needed her to know that she was always free, as well as encouraged, to talk to him about anything — concerns, ideas, even plans for the future. His partner would probably be a bit nervous when he questioned her about the subject, and understandably so. So many things could go wrong — he could think she was moving too fast, he may not want children, he may break it off completely. However, she'd be overjoyed that he agreed with her on the matter and would embrace him, thanking him over and over — for what, Ciel wasn’t sure, all he did was voice his opinion. Perhaps they both needed to speak their minds more; it certainly helped in this case.

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Oh dear, Ciel panicked so hard when he found out that Carmen was carrying his child. He spent a major part of his childhood without a parental figure, so he's terrified of the thought that he won't make a good father. Ciel would be nervous out of his mind. What kind of father would he be? What if the pregnancy didn’t go as planned? How would he spend enough time with them when he had so much other work to do? What if he gets his revenge and Sebastian takes his soul before he even gets to see the baby? What kind of parent lets their child grow up around a demon anyway? His partner, the servants, Sebastian, everybody— they'd all have to reassure him constantly that he'd do just fine, and he had plenty of help if he needed it. Aside from the worry, he'd be overjoyed. He loved Carmen more than anything in the world, and now they got to have a little bundle of joy together. He was finally finding what it meant to have a family again. During the pregnancy, he’s careful, making sure she’s happy and healthy and so is the baby. Reads up on everything. They spend long evenings discussing names and arguing over meanings.

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INFANT: Ciel was just staring in awe at the little baby. How can something so tiny be so beautiful? The child had striking eyes — his eyes, no less. And his partner’s hair. An astonishing little being. The baby even fit perfectly into his arms. Ciel was trying his hardest not to cry, but it happened anyway, alongside Carmen, whose own tears were silently rolling down her face. They were speaking in hushed tones to each other, admiring their child; it still seemed so surreal that the little baby they were holding was theirs. It was a very cliché “we made that” moment, but so, so valuable nonetheless. Ciel took a quick look at his surroundings. He had a wife by his side and a child in his arms. He had a family.

Their first child (no more than two) would be a pleasant surprise. Having children was on the table, just not yet. But it’s fine — he’s happy to have a child and is low-key nervous about what happened to him happening to his own child, so he tightens security. He's very tense as his child nears their tenth birthday, but relaxes as they reach eleven. Ciel makes sure they know self-defense and their way around a weapon from an early age.
Since their children are successors of the Phantomhive bloodline, Ciel makes sure that they're sent to only the top and the best institutions and educators. He's going to raise his kids to be well-mannered, kind and noble people in the future. And he's often protective of them — he simply does not want them to experience what he did in his childhood. He'll do his best to give his children the best life he can.
Though Ciel may appear rather strict as a father, he actually loves his children dearly and just has a hard time showing it. He's not above yelling at them but softens as his anger disappears and apologizes for yelling. He gives them a rare hug and tells them how to do better.
Ciel's a busy man, but he never fails to make time for his children and wife. He's a family man and devoted to them. He dotes on his children and wife though he can be distant sometimes, but means well.
BIRDS AND THE BEES: Ciel momentarily glanced at his child, thinking over his decision for a split second before mentally shrugging it off. "'The birds and the bees' is another way to say ‘sex.’ ..That’s the reason you’re here," he told them bluntly, which caused even more questions to rise. Ciel wasn’t showing it, but he was a little nervous about possibly scarring his child. "It’s pretty diverse for each person." Ciel thought over what he was going to say next. In the end, he got too flustered to even speak. "You know what, I’ll tell you when you’re older," he said, stubbornly refusing to answer any more of his child’s questions.

Often goes horseback riding with you

Reads to you when you can't sleep

Can be very bossy

Calls you "darling"

Can't actually say "no" to you

Takes you to France every year

You can never agree on what to have for dinner

You have arguments because his presents for you are way too expensive

Needs you when he's having a panic attack or nightmare

Teaches you how to play the piano

SEEING BREASTS

TRYING TO FLIRT

NAKED: He'd feel pretty awkward and embarrassed and would try to cover up his mortification and desire by being a prude. He’s blushing so bad. It starts at his neck and just slides up his face until he’s just so red it’s unreal. He shouts "SORRY," then slams the door like it was her fault. He doesn’t want to look at Carmen the whole day and for a few days after because he’s scared he might just picture her naked and pop a boner.

SHE SOMEHWAT FLIRTS BACK WITH PERSON

PREGNANCY: "Are you absolutely certain?"

VERY REVEALING OUTFIT

SHE WALKS DOWN THE AISLE

Daughter: Could you pass the salt, Daddy?Boyfriend: *passes the salt*

Whether Carmen ends up correcting Sebastian or some other head of company, he'd try to stifle his laughter, and when they left, would burst out laughing with her.

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