Not In Life Will I Ever Forget You

not in life will i ever forget you

even if i don't see you again

even if all i feel is regret and

a sharp uncontrollable pain

you were elegant, sweet and tender,

you were brilliant, artful and kind,

you were painting deliciously rendered

and a masterpiece of a mind

years and oceans are now between us

years and oceans of time and space

but whatever is here, can see us,

and the memories don't get erased -

how much more can i say that i loved you

how much more than i can feel and see

on a rock at the dawn in the sunrise

a soft cloud of you, shirtless, and me -

thirteen years down the road - why now?

just because it was truer than life

in it, what, who, where and how

are impaled on the end of a knife -

which is sometimes twisting and turning

to wake up what i knew in my mind

to remind me of passion and yearning

and the beauty that was left behind -

you will always be there, won't you, truly?

when i need it, will you not be here?

and the world we have known, won't it fully

in the day, in the night, reappear?

and the splendor we've known and the torment

will it not come back, time and again

to make endlessness of each moment

and a door into truth made of pain -

and the world that we knew, not regretting,

i will come to, in joy or in wrath -

not in life will i ever forget you

nor in death, nor in death, nor in death.