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devotee 7- Masa, Slovenia



My name is Maša Blaznik, my Yoga name Mahima Devi. 

I started practising yoga at the Yoga in Daily Life Association (Joga v vsakdanjem življenju) in Ljubljana, Slovenia, in 1992, when I was 20 years old. 
In 1994 I entered the 2-year “Vedic Studies” programme held at the Jadan Ashram in India. Within the yoga community our group was known as the “Jadan students”. Back then I believed a person needs a spiritual teacher in pursuing a process of personal growth. Someone who is no longer constrained by the bonds of everyday life, a person who has achieved a higher level of consciousness and understanding and is distinguished by his/her unconditional love for all living beings. My path and my experiences there were very different from what I had imagined “spiritual development” was supposed to be.

During my stay in Jadan I myself became one of the women mentioned by the women three years ago. I had sexual intercourse with Swamiji for many years, in his rooms at the Jadan Ashram (between 1994-1996), and occasionally – again in his rooms – at the time of his seminars in Vep, in Ljubljana and in Vienna, until 2008. Sometimes the two of us were alone; other times there were many women in the room. I never spoke about this to anyone because Swamiji explicitly asked me to keep it a secret. In 1996 I was a victim of sexual assault by the Swamiji's guru Swamiji Madhavananda, but I managed to escape. I wrote Swamiji a letter telling him about this. At our next encounter he told me he would have a word with him and tell him it should never happen again. That was the last time we spoke about it. Later, the high representative of the Fellowship told me I should not communicate such things in written form.

Why did I continue with yoga for so many years afterwards, and why am I speaking out about the abuses only now? Why didn’t I join the women who publicly spoke about their experience two years ago? Even though I knew they were telling the truth, I still wasn't able to speak about it because I felt too ashamed and too scared.
I had already withdrawn from the yoga community a few years before the abuses were brought to light by the women. I thought my retreat would be enough to open a new chapter in my life. During all this time I still regarded Swamiji's actions as a test of loyalty and trust in a relationship between a guru and his disciple, and I also regarded them as a way of expressing his love. The fact that I felt unpleasant and upset by his deeds, and that I did not experience them as something divine and unique, I always considered to be due to my own flaws.

However, the reactions of the yoga community members and Swamiji's own reaction to the stories revealed by the women who spoke out about the abuses were the beginning of the end for me. I knew the stories were true: deflorations, sexual games with multiple women at the same time, the story with the Guruji. Swamiji knew the women were telling the truth, and yet he called them demons in his interview, and later, after receiving advice from a PR consultant, he maintained silence on this matter. The insults and the personal discrediting of the women within the yoga community made sure that the women were labelled schizophrenic, promiscuous, and confused, as having wanted it themselves, or that he is a Tantric master, etc.
Witnessing all this, I realized the abuse we were dealing with was not just sexual abuse, but abuse that goes much deeper and is very serious. I no longer wish to be part of a community that doesn't eat meat out of compassion for animals, but at the same time is not able to feel and show any compassion for women who disclose real abuse. By this I mean abuse by all of us – from those of us who knew they were telling the truth, to those who were not even ready to listen to them.
After having spent two decades in the yoga community, I am now aware of the dreadful impacts the experience of abuse and the secrets I still keep to myself have had on me, my life, and my relationships. All the shame I felt has kept a part of me locked away from my family, my partners, and my friends for 19 years.
My silence has served just a few people, but is harmful to so many others, including me.

Secrets make it impossible for people to have access to information that they are entitled to. Without this information, they cannot make valid decisions, and consequently fully live their lives. The lies, the keeping of secrets, and the silence maintained by Swamiji and by all those who are aware of what follows when the official part of the satsanga is finished and Swamiji retreats into his rooms, denies people the right to trust, respect, equality, and acceptance. Are these the spiritual values of the Yoga in Daily Life community?

Swamiji has abused the position of power given to him by his disciples, who see him as their spiritual teacher. He has abused the trust that allowed them to approach him, and last but not least, he has abused the sexual inviolability of the young women, even though they were of age. I find this unacceptable and consider it to be abuse in all its severity!

The abuse, however, does not end here. The organization he has built and the individuals responsible in this organization on the local/national and international levels know about Swamiji's abusive behaviour, and yet they maintain silence about it, and by maintaining silence they make it possible for the abuses to continue.
Although many people simply cannot believe that such things are happening, I would like to tell you that there is no doubt about it. It is the truth. I have no intention of trying to convince you of anything. I only wish to give you this information. What you do with it is entirely up to you.

Maša Blaznik
Ljubljana/Slovenia, March 27, 2014




Izjava
Moje ime je Maša Blaznik, jogijsko ime Mahima Devi. Jogo sem začela vaditi v društvu Joga v vsakdanjem življenju Ljubljana, Slovenija leta 1992. Stara sem bila 20 let. Leta 1994 sem odšla na 2-letni študijski program »Vedske študije«, ki se je izvajal v Jadan ašramu v Indiji. Skupina nas, ki smo tam študirali, smo bili v joga skupnosti znani kot »Jadan students«. Verjela sem, da na poti osebne rasti človek potrebuje duhovnega učitelja. Nekoga, ki ni več vpleten v spone vsakdanjega življenja, ki ima višjo stopnjo zavesti in razumevanja ter ga odlikuje brezpogojna ljubezen do vseh živih bitij. Pot in izkušnje, ki so me pričakovale tukaj, so bile zelo drugačne od tistega, kar sem si pod oznako »duhovnega razvoja« predstavljala.
V času bivanja v Jadanu sem tudi jaz postala ena izmed tistih, o katerih so spregovorila dekleta pred tremi leti. S Swamijijem sem imela spolne odnose več let.To se je dogajalo v njegovih prostorih v jadanskem ašramu (med leti 1994-1996), občasno v času seminarjev v njegovih prostorih v Vepu, v Ljubljani, na Dunaju, vse do leta 2008. Včasih sem bila z njim sama, včasih je bilo v sobi tudi po več deklet. O tem nisem govorila z nikomer, ker mi je Swamiji naročil, da mora to ostati skrivnost. Leta 1996 sem bila žrtev spolnega napada s strani Swamijijevega guruja, Swamija Madhavanande, vendar sem mu ušla. O tem sem v pismu obvestila Swamijija. Ob prvem osebnem srečanju mi je rekel, da bo govoril z njim, da naj tega več ne počne. O tem nisva spregovorila nikoli več. Visoka predstavnica Fellowshipa mi je kasneje rekla, da naj takšnih stvari ne sporočam več v pisni obliki.
Kako to, da sem ostala na jogi še toliko let in spregovorila o zlorabah šele sedaj? Zakaj se nisem pridružila dekletom, ki so pred dvemi leti javno spregovorile o svojih izkušnjah? Čeprav sem vedela, da govorijo resnico, sama javno o tem takrat še nisem zmogla spregovoriti, ker me je bilo preveč sram in strah.
Iz joga skupnosti sem se umaknila že nekaj let preden so dekleta javno spregovorila o zlorabah. Menila sem, da bo umik dovolj, da začnem ustvarjati novo poglavje v življenju. V tem času sem Swamijijeva dejanja še vedno doživljala kot gurujevo preizkušanje zvestobe in zaupanja učenca ter nekakšen izraz ljubezni. To, da sem se ob njegovih dejanjih počutila neprijetno in razburjeno ter tega nisem doživljala kot nekaj božanskega in edinstvenega, pa sem pripisovala mojim lastnim pomanjkljivostim.
Odziv članov joga skupnosti in Swamijija na zgodbe deklet, ki so spregovorila o zlorabi, pa je bil za mene začetek konca. Vedela sem, da zgodbe držijo: razdevičenja, spolne igrice z več dekleti hkrati, zgodba z Gurujijem. Swamiji je vedel, da dekleta govorijo resnico, vendar jih je v intervjuju označil za demone, kasneje pa se po nasvetu PR svetovalca, zavil v popoln molk. Žaljenje in osebna diskreditacija deklet, ki je potekala znotraj joga skupnosti, pa je poskrbela, da so bila dekleta označena za shizofrena, promiskuitetna, zmedena, da so sama to želela, da je tantrični mojster, itd.
Ob opazovanju tega dogajanja sem spoznala, da gre za veliko zlorabo, ki pa ni samo spolna, temveč veliko globja. Ne želim biti več del skupnosti, ki iz sočutja ne je mesa, ne premore pa sočutja do deklet, ki razkrijejo resnično zlorabo. In to s strani vseh nas - od tistih, ki smo vedeli, da govorijo resnico, do tistih, ki jim niso bili pripravljeni niti prisluhniti.
Po dveh desetletjih v joga skupnosti spoznavam, kakšen grozljiv vpliv so na mene, na moje življenje in na moje odnose imele izkušnje zlorabe in skrivnosti, ki jih še vedno ščitim. Sram, ki sem ga ob tem občutila, je 19 let skrbel, da sem del sebe odrezala od družine, partnerjev in prijateljev.
Z molčanjem koristim peščici, škodim pa mnogim, tudi sebi.
Skrivnosti ljudem prepečujejo dostop do informacij, do katerih imajo pravico. Brez njih se ne morejo pristno odločati in zato ne v polnosti živeti svojega življenja. Laganje, prikrivanje in molčanje tako Swamijija in vseh, ki vedo, kaj se dogaja, ko se konča uradni del satsanga in gre Swamiji v svoje prostore, odreka ljudem pravico do zaupanja, spoštovanja, enkovrednosti in sprejetosti. Je to odraz duhovnih vrednot skupnosti Joge v vsakdanjem življenju?
Swamiji je zlorabil položaj moči, ki mu ga kot duhovnemu učitelju pripisujejo učenci; njihovo zaupanje, s katerim mu pristopajo ter posledično spolno nedotakljivost posameznic, četudi so dekleta polnoletna. To je nedopustno in je zloraba v vsej svoji moči!
Vendar se zloraba ne konča tukaj. Organizacija, ki jo je zgradil in določene odgovorne osebe v njej na lokalnih/nacionalnih in mednarodnem nivoju, vedo za Swamijijevo zlorabljajoče vedenje, vendar o tem molčijo ter z molkom dopuščajo, da se zlorabe nadaljujejo.
Čeprav številni enostavno ne morejo verjeti, da se to dogaja, vam želim povedati, da to sploh ni vprašanje. To je resnica. Moj namen ni, da vas prepričujem v karkoli. Želim samo, da informacijo prejmete. Potem je v vaših rokah, da z njo naredite, kar želite.
Maša Blaznik
Ljubljana/Slovenija, 27. marec 2014
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Devi Hurt,
Apr 25, 2014, 2:13 PM
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Devi Hurt,
Apr 25, 2014, 2:13 PM
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Devi Hurt,
Apr 25, 2014, 2:13 PM
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