AML leukemia by kevin Dwayne blanch 9/2/12

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Kev where did you spend Labor Day weekend? the same place I spent Halloween thanksgiving Christmas new year’s valentine’s day ST. Patrick’s day Easter my birthday memorial day driving to the hospital in the middle of the night, hoping not to get pulled over for swerving, thinking I am drunk when I am cramped over from pain. Last night from 11 pm until 6 am, “ kevin go head and pass out from the pain we have you hooked up so you don’t have to worry about stopping breathing.” the Nurse, they hit me with the gut drugs which are as powerful as numbing the gut as it gets, did not touch me, never dose, morphine just make us worse, US leukemia fighters, am I tired worn out lonely depressed, so hard core all of the above, Am I dying or am I living; I am in some suspended animated spot a mysterious place that is somewhere in between, which I had no idea existed, Kev “ don’t give up I know you are worn down to a metal nothing,” my response; I have given up 8588 times, now that is when Leukemia gets even more painful when you give up then it starts its epic pain, can I do this anymore, FUCK NO, BUT WILL I. FUCK YES, Am I afraid and I am scared; am I lonely, am I tired, am I worn to nothing left, am I so want this to be over, FUCK YES, but the fight goes on, there is no one to step in and stop the fight, there is no referee or judge, it is just me and the killer cells toe to toe eye to eye face to face,

I’m am in a PLACE I had no idea existed no idea, she came to me as she always comes to me when I give up; I gave up at around 6 am, I quite fighting; then she came,,,,,,----- sprinkled angel dust across my naked feral fragile body, I woke up at 9:11, my mind I can only describe it as this; when I was young too young to be in a bar 19 years old, I was in San Francisco and was down on Broadway on the roof of a very cool bar looking out over the second city by the bay, and a very sexy beautiful girl walked up to me with a coat on and high heels she opened the coat and the coat is all she had on, do you want to go with me? YES, I walked out near the beach of a house, I would never be able to find even the next day, and I walked on the beach and was in a surreal state an animated state of mind mystiques place. I SAID to myself what just happened, it was like some surreal movie that is exactly how I fell this morning, except without the PLEASURE PARTS. This is an epic, surreal time; has been for nearly a year now, my mind just swims in a place I cannot wrap my mind around, My body and mind are tortured I GO like William Wallace on the table; as she passed by me last night, and I have that small pc of cloth in my hand as I keep it in my wallet that and my little blue healing rock my granddaughter gave me, I dropped then both to the floor, and wanted to YELL FREEDOM , but she sprinkled angel dust on me and said. “NO KEVIN IT IS NOT TIME NOT YET for you to take your next place, I will find some sleep and rest for you”, as people come to me and say; “ GET some rest”, WOW OF EPIC IGNORANCE, there is no fucking rest or relaxation with this monster in your body NONE, never not for one fucking second, REST the killer cells love it when you rest, they want you to rest, so they CAN FUCKING KILL YOU,

AML leukemia by kevin Dwayne blanch 9/2/12

Utah; Redford Sundance, put this in your FUCKING film festival

Why is our air the worst in the United States why do all our children have asthma and autism, why did my sister my friend my Cousin die of cancer so young? I will tell you why the weakest environmental protection laws in the Country and the civilized world. Why is western zirconium and Fresenius and the refineries and enviro solutions (which by the way got delisted and are under investigation) here in Utah ? Because 49 other states won’t let the mother earth rapping mass murders in.

As your son hangs himself or puts a gun in his mouth and your daughter just took 100 pain as you walk around with your permanent smile and your Hairsprayed husband, pills she got from Dewey, and you say oh they are in a better place as they are confused about their own Sexuality,

As you say you better watch out, I say what are they going to do take my Plastering business away from me by allowing hair sprayed hamburger eating fake Christians to exploit a hungry people (who by the way where here FIRST ask father Escalante,) as you pay them cash Illegally, as they cheat the system every way they can, AS Jesus Christ said USuRY was a sin a big sin as these people are the buy here pay here U.S.A.u RY DEVILS OF ALL TIME

As you say they might destroy your brilliant teaching career, as our School of business program when I was involved was the # 1 Undergraduate program in the United States and now cannot even make the top 301 , oh ya they already did that,

Oh ya they might shot you , they already did that , I have the bullet in my baby grand piano to prove it, Oh ya they might sucker punch you across your face with brass knuckles , oh ya already happened, they might push of a 35 ft. roof and sever your tongue and br3eak your back , already did that,

BUT WHAT IF THEY GIVE YOU aml leukemia CANCER what about that

What if some fake Christian world war 2 draft dodging scum drafts your father and marches him into the Nevada test site and Nukes him to death, then they put a yellow ribbon on their car and receive 3 million in corporation welfare and call them self’s dairy farming tea baggers a COUNTY COMMISONER, and drive by his widows house every day. And never even ask how much compensation did the government or the community gives you for your Husbands REAL Patriotic sacrifice? HOW MUCH fucking zero that is how much.

But Kevin WHAT if they throw you in jail, and put you in solitary confinement, for trying to save our kids from being enviro ED TO DEATH by the hair sprayed fake radical industrialized DEVILS. CAN THEY DO THAT, I don’t know I will ask Tim De Christopher WHEN HE GETS OUT.

But Kevin what if the community crushes your legacy, and wont speck of your work even though you are from here, I DON’T KNOW I WILL ASK FAWN AND Bernard

But kevin why don’t you leave, like Rosanne Did, I WILL TELL YOU WHY, because I WAS HERE FIRST, me the blue herons the swallows the Mule Deer the Elk the Natives and FATHER Escalante WE were her first, We the Tundra swans and mallards and the pintails and the canvas backs as they were here us long

before they even where named canvas backs US WE, WE before the Usury, WHY DON’T THEY THE Usury hair sprayed fakers leave FUCK EVERYONE OF THEM,

The poetry of Anger, the Ballad of Cancer, the epic UTAH tail, as I live to tell MAYBE, me we you will see, Kevin Dwayne blanch 9/11/12

Oh ya 9/11 no no no not 9/11/2001 no no no the first religious radical mass murder on U.S. soil the soil we stole from Mexico oh ya Abraham Hunsaker the 1^st the Mormon Battalion leader, oh is that his marker in the back ground kevin, what 9/11 9/11/1857 oh that one the Mountain Meadow Massacre

Oh ya before I forget, they told me all comments all the way to the RIGHT, in black and white, our Grandparents who came her on July 24 1847 to this exact stop as they made the desert bloom would all rollover the modern day Utahan they would not eve recognize, what no long hair and no beards MEN IN HAIRSPRAY Carpet bombing our bothers in IRAQ, I thought they knew both of our religious doctrine came from the same MAN. THEY DON’T KNOW THAT, they are of epic ignorance, POST IGNORANCE SOME DAY not TODAY kevin Dwayne blanch a Mormon 9/11/12

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Fukushima Nuclear fallout is HERE CANCER, my fight is your fight