We want confirmation as ‘what is good, right for us’ from others, from books or by coining some theories (religious, spiritual) about life. Unless we clearly see that ‘need for this confirmation’ is blocking us from action-the energy remains dissipated. To see that every action is experiment is one’ connection to the Original.

Your daily life provides data to find ‘what is True’. Can you notice that you are essentially trying to satisfy yourself that everything will be alright in future or praying-if you feel okay, satisfied now-life should go on as it is? Can you notice that you are seeking illusory comfort? When noticed, seeking drops-energy is freed from this seeking- You are open to wonder now.

Something troubles you; for something you are unable to find a rational, logical, satisfactory answer; something irritates you; something gives you feeling of insecurity, fear-to come to this point, to face in whatever form the discomfort, you experience ‘as it is’ takes you to the Truth. And not any ready made question-answers dished out by gurus or others about life. If you have the courage to ignore what attracts you by promising stable relief, pleasure-you are a candidate to touch the Original.

Instead of concentrating on what one wants, instead of imagining what one wants-one becomes busy in complaining, blaming, feeling guilty, people are not cooperative, these are difficult times, others are lucky, I can not put more efforts and so on. These thoughts give relief from facing ‘uncertainty’ in respect of maturing of what one wants. This resistance of uncertainty can not be dealt with or acted upon. When you see this, you are on the Original ground. What you want becomes clear.

We are under the illusion as if some permanent solution by some technological advancement or by religious, spiritual activities, ideas will come and stay. We remain in waiting mode never experiencing fullness of the moment. We hope as if technology or religious, spiritual ideas will save us from facing pain and uncertainty. Can one see the fallacy of this hope? Seeing this concentrates the total energy. One sees ‘what is True’

Your ‘attempt’ to feel better, to stay pleased, to stay relieved by changing yourself or by doing some practices or by addition to possessions is self-defeating. Once you feel settled wherever you are (except when you are in immediate physical danger)-you see changes as unending phenomenon. You are on the magical ground.

Any relief, pleasure experienced by you can not become stable. The intensity to find the Truth remains dampened because of any addiction, that is, one is carried away by the relief, pleasure experienced through entertainment, intoxications, addition to possessions, religious-spiritual activities.

Knowledge, information can have some use, some function. The illusion sees as if knowledge, information (including knowledge of religious-spiritual ideas) will give relief from facing discomforting situations, relief from facing confusing choices, relief from facing uncertainty. Being aware of the illusion is to disregard it, is the concentration of total energy.

You become hard, limited when you close yourself, secure yourself from the uneasiness any apprehension, any fear, any unpalatable thought is creating within you. This closure, this security gives (illusory) relief-the pain, the uneasiness accumulates, resulting into dullness, decay. Can you let this relief, this security go? Leaving this security is a jolt for the mind. You are on the Original ground, fluid ground, magical ground.

Life exists as resistance (tension) between now (senses) and past and future (memory and imagination). If this resistance ends, there is no life. Instead of being comfortable with the resistance, we try to end it, solve it-hence dullness, decay. Whatever we may possess or know, the resistance will show up as the operative element of life. Being comfortable with the resistance is one’s attunement to the Original.

You can not work as compulsion and find ‘what is True’ through religious-spiritual activities. They simply give relief against compulsion, entertainment against compulsion of work.

If one is not doing work as compulsion?

When you are passionate in what you are doing, the need for escapes through religious-spiritual activities is no longer there. One is in fused (fusion of compulsion and relief) state. One is the creative impulse of the Universe now.

To take risk, to feel risk, to feel uncertainty is to know God, is to touch the Original. Otherwise God is only an idea for you to seek relief (illusion) from uncertainty or from what you do not like.

The micro movements, actual movements, the real time movements are uncertain and precise. What you know is only a story, information of what happens or what is happening from moment to moment. Actual movements, micro movements is life. To be comfortable with the uncertainty of every movement is to connect to the Original ground, completely secured ground. The micro movements can not be held, predicted. Can one see this? 

One is carried away by the story. One seeks relief from the unpredictability by the story making process-thus misses the touch of the Original.

One can plan an activity, but not the micro details. Micro details essentially remain unpredictable, actual.

When your logic, your reasoning, your comfort zone, your conclusion is shattered, see what happens. It creates feeling of uneasiness in you. Now you try to escape this uneasiness, this pain by ideas, explanations, by complaining, blaming, feeling guilty. Can you close the escape route? The whole energy is concentrated here. Action is relaxed and conscious. The touch of the Original may happen.

Any attempt, striving to stabilize the feeling of pleasure, feeling of relief, feeling of peace by meditation or by studying spiritual books or by some technique or practice dulls the sensitivity of the brain. One becomes addicted to acting, working with compulsions and seeking relief through practices, techniques and so on. Unless this pattern is short circuited, there is no chance of finding ‘what is True’.

We think ourselves clever enough to find a relieving ground, comforting ground by complaining, blaming, feeling guilty when faced with discomforting, irritating situation. Can we notice that this relief, this comfort, this escape has become our addiction?

Unless we feel total groundlessness when we can not run away from any irritating, discomforting feeling - the Original does not touch. The real understanding happens when your lofty ideas, comforting escapes(including religious-spiritual) are pitched against the naked, irritating, unrelinquishing situation.

Any solacing, comforting escape to cover up ‘unpleasant thoughts or other psychological discomfort you are experiencing’ has to go to touch the Original ground.

You can not erase any risk, any uncertainty from your mind. Apart from immediate physical danger, all risks, uncertainties are psychological discomforts. Can you face them, bear them as they are? Transformation happens. Now any action (or no action ) is relaxed and conscious.

You can not work as compulsion and find ‘what is True’ through religious-spiritual activities. They simply give relief against compulsion, entertainment against compulsion of work.

You are distracted by, inclined to seek relief by addition to possessions, entertainment, intoxications, religious-spiritual activities against any discomfort, uneasiness, compulsion you experience. Once you are able to notice this distraction, this inclination-fused state takes over.

Now your actions are charged with passion and not by dilly-dallying. The touch of the Original may happen.

Addiction is anything or any activity that covers up or glosses over ‘pain and uncertainty’. Due to dependence upon entertainments, intoxications, religious-spiritual ideas, activities for relief, the capacity to absorb psychological discomforts is weakened (apart from immediate physical danger, all discomforts-loss, defame, relationship problems-are psychological discomforts).

Addiction blocks the natural friction of the brain on which life is sustained. Immune system of the body gets weakened. Dullness, decay may set in.

No knowledge, no activity, no practice can reveal ‘what is True’. You will be attached to that knowledge, practice, activity. Attachment implies-you are now seeking relief from this activity, knowledge, practice against pain or compulsion, you experience in daily life. You are tied to compulsion-relief pattern. Can you disregard this pattern by clearly observing it? You have touched the Original.

Mind continuously clamours that things should be finally solved, resolved. Can one see that mind seeks relief by presuming final resolution? One remains striving, making frantic efforts to come to rest by having final resolution. Unless one sees that this relief, this rest is illusory-one can not touch the Original ground. Disturbance-adjustment is the endless, self-sustained process.

Can you come to the point that anything you are calling ‘wrong’ is painful to you? If it is not painful to you, you are simply entertaining yourself by calling it wrong and making stories out of it. You are binding yourself to wrong. If it is painful to you-can you bear the pain, the discomfort without any explanation. ‘Wrongness’ is dissolved thereby. This is the key to fundamental understanding. Now any action (or no-action) is relaxed and conscious.

You can operate in the world as you want. Your ideas to set the world right as if you are safe, good, important-hence separate- is the cause of conflicts within you and within society. Total humanity is in the same boat.

No one can want society’s betterment, others’ betterment, good for all and so on. If you feel okay with ‘what is’ (whether liked or disliked, feared or cherished)-you are contributing to the society’s betterment, others’ betterment, good for all. Now any action (or no-action) is relaxed, conscious. Otherwise you are simply following your agenda, your own betterment-this is frustrating.

The present mind reaches at logic. Logic, ‘cause and effect explanations’ is relief for the brain. When it faces something, which is beyond logic, beyond liking, beyond its comfort zone, it rejects by giving expressions like anger, anxiety, stress, fear, confusion, guilt, wonder, intense pleasure and so on. These expressions show that logic of the mind has failed.

These expressions give a touch of the non-linear, something beyond logic. When the impact of these expressions is not explained away, the brain is charged to see the Truth.

Instead of feeling the uneasiness any problem creates within us, we seek diversion by fanciful ideas like, it is all one’s fate, future will be alright, God will take care and so on or we seek relief by entertainment, intoxications to bypass the feeling of uneasiness. To become aware of the diversion is to stop it. To stop it is to end the problem making mechanism itself. You are face to face with the fundamental uneasiness, fundamental predicament of being human. You are on the Original ground.