Chapter 34 - I Like You Too

Yan Shuo hasn't had a serious vacation for a long time, and of course it is impossible to spend all of his time on QQ. He intends to enjoy it, and Shen Ze is probably the same, saying that is just a joke.

That night, the reception was over, they did not stay in the program group, and went back to MEN's own dormitory overnight.

The car that picked them up was sent by Li Linjia, and Li Linjia herself was also with them. She sat in the co-pilot and said something like "The task was successfully completed, you'all have worked hard." Then the conversation turned around and said to Shen Ze: "What is the theme of the new album, any ideas?"

"No." Shen Ze said truthfully.

Li Linjia nodded: "Okay, take your time to think about it. You can relax and find inspiration in the holiday these few days."

Shen Ze didn't answer, as if he wanted to talk but stopped.

Yan Shuo "ding" a question mark in his heart, what's the reaction? Does Shen Ze want to tell Li Linjia about writing a song for him? Still have something else to say?

Bored in the car, Yan Shuo's thoughts dissipated. He suddenly remembered that Shen Ze had said before that he want to came up with a solo album.

This idea is not difficult to understand. Every creator wants to have his own work, but they are a group, and it's okay to release individual singles. The album is a bit too big, and the influence in all aspects is not so good.

Moreover, from time to time there will be rumors outside that Shen Ze will fly solo. Li Linjia may be really worried that he wants to fly solo. Coming up with a solo album is a good proof, if there is a first one, there will be a second one. In the future, will you still focus your work on the team? Do you feel that the team takes up too much time and affects your personal development?

Once a precedent was set for Shen Ze, what would the other members think?

The truth is the same as filming, who doesn't want to make more of his role?

In fact, ask yourself, Yan Shuo has a good relationship with Shen Ze now, and will consider him from the perspective of Shen Ze. If it was three or four months ago, as a pure colleague, Shen Ze wants to have a solo filming, he would have some opinions.

It's very simple, he came out, and he also figured out that the company can't be too partial.

But if everyone is soloing and everyone is playing their own way, it is not far from the disbandment of the team. MEN is at its peak and cannot engage in this kind of "split" behavior.

From this perspective, if Shen Ze wants to fly solo, Yan Shuo can understand him, because as long as he is in MEN, the company will not let him do so.

So, if Shen Ze really flew solo--

"..."

Yan Shuo stopped his thoughts of running around, turned his head and glanced at Shen Ze.

Do you like this plastic group? This question swirled around his mouth, but because of Li Linjia’s presence, he did not ask.

Moreover, such a sentence suddenly popped out, too inexplicable, and Shen Ze might think he was insane.

Yan Shuo suddenly felt a little melancholy. He asked himself with this question. The answer was unexpected, and he actually thought he liked it.

What happened recently, how did he suddenly change? Obviously, he used to think that the four teammates could only serve as dancers for him at best.

Now that he think about the possibility of dispersing in the future, he can't bear it...

Is this colleague love?

Yan Shuo was both sad and embarrassed thinking all the way. When the destination arrived, Li Linjia didn't enter the door and told them to leave with a few words.

Yan Shuo and Shen Ze held hands upstairs—Shen Ze took the initiative to lead him. In the darkness, Yan Shuo's heart that had been swaying for a long time was suddenly pressed in the darkness, and there was a voice saying: No matter what, Shen Ze will not leave me anyway, he will be with me.

As soon as this thought came out, Yan Shuo was a little embarrassed, and said to himself, what am I thinking about.

And Shen Ze really didn't know what he was thinking, and said unhappy: "Why, can't we hold hands? What is your expression?"

"..."

Yan Shuo can't argue, and only say: "Nothing."

They walked into the gate and stood at the elevator door.

Yan Shuo glanced around, seeing no one around, suddenly reached out and hugged Shen Ze. He held it lightly and let it go quickly. Before Shen Ze could react, the elevator arrived, and Yan Shuo swooped into the elevator.

Shen Ze: "..."

He don't know how to spend the night.

It was three o'clock in the morning, and Yan Shuo was still rolling around on the bed, unable to sleep.

He just looked at the calendar and remembered that in a few days, January 23rd, Shen Ze's birthday is about to be celebrated.

The previous Christmas and New Year's Day were celebrated with everyone in the program group. In fact, according to the arrangements of previous years, their birthdays generally have public celebrations. It is difficult to see no one in private and enjoy the day by yourself.

This time it seemed that Shen Ze had planned this way.

Yan Shuo thought for a while and opened QQ.

123123: "What gift do you want? Cake, cake"

After sending the message on a whim, he remembered that it was early in the morning and that Shen Ze in the next room must have gone to bed early.

Unexpectedly, there was a reply——

Annoyed: "You didn't even sleep."

123123: "You haven't slept either."

Annoyed: "Well, I'm used to sleeping together, and I feel a little uncomfortable to separate suddenly."

Annoyed: "You too?"

"..."

Yes, suddenly I slept in a bed alone, and I always felt that there was nothing next to it, and something was missing.

But Yan Shuo didn't say so directly, and repeatedly asked: "What gift do you want? Just tell me if you have something you like, and I will give it to you."

Annoyed: "Can I like anything?"

123123: "Yeah."

Annoyed: "I like you."

123123: "..."

123123: "So corny."

Annoyed: "I'm serious."

Without waiting for Yan Shuo to reply, Shen Ze said again: "What kind of relationship are we now? We are already together, right? You should give me a name, Yan Yan."

123123: "What status do you want?"

Annoyed: "What do you mean?"

123123: "Cold sweat"

Annoyance: "Yan Shuo."

Annoyance: "Get angry"

123123: "Sell Meng"

Annoyed: "Open the door."

123123: "?"

Annoyed: "Open the door."

123123: "..."

Yan Shuo put down his phone and got out of bed to open the door.

As soon as he pressed the doorknob, Shen Ze immediately stepped in and pressed him to the door with his backhand.

With a soft bang, the door closed, Yan Shuo pressed his back against the door panel, and Shen Ze held his shoulders, giving him no time to react. Shen Ze held the back of his head with one hand and kissed him hard.

Yan Shuo was forced to open his mouth and let out a pant in a hurry. When he was swallowed by Shen Ze and bitten into pieces, the voice changed, and the vagueness was a bit lingering. It was completely desire to cooperate with him to grasp Shen Ze's lapels. The effect of refusal to welcome.

"Hey..." Yan Shuo squeezed out the pronunciation from the fiercely entangled lips and teeth, "You tried too hard...Um!"

In fact, it didn't work so hard.

But whether it was a hug or a kiss, Shen Ze's actions today were not considerate at all, or even a little rough, and Yan Shuo was hurt in his back.

"Do you want to regret it?" Shen Ze said suddenly.

Yan Shuo didn't understand: "What am I going to regret?"

"I asked that day, would you give it? You said yes." Shen Ze wrapped his arms around his waist and swept him into his arms. "You have accepted me, Yan Shuo, now you can't go back."

"...I didn't regret it." Yan Shuo lowered his head, "I'm just a little...er, sorry to speak like that."

Fortunately, the lights were not turned on.

Yan Shuo praised his wit.

But at such a close distance, even the other party's rapid heartbeat can be heard clearly, and it doesn't matter whether the lights are turned on or not.

Equally unimportant, there is the reason he left behind.

After Shen Ze confessed to him last time, he considered a lot, such as how to come out to the company, how to confess to his parents that same-sex couples cannot get married in China, what should be done?

It’s not that he never think about it, but his heart's restlessness is increasing and it’s becoming more and more difficult to control. Just like children who fell in love early in high school, they know that they may affect their studies, and they can’t help being scolded by teachers and parents.

He likes me.

I like him too.

I like him very much, can I miss those first?

Let's have fun secretly for a while.

Yan Shuo hugged Shen Ze and put his chin on the other's shoulder, "I didn't regret it." He brewed for a while, and buzzed like a mosquito, "I like you too."

Shen Ze was almost deaf: "What did you say?"

Yan Shuo buzzed again: "I like you too."

Shen Ze: "..."

"Well, I won't say it the third time." Yan Shuo finally switched back to Chinese mode, pushing Shen Ze, "It's too late to go to bed, you go back, see you tomorrow."

It's all here, do you want to go back to sleep?

Shen Ze went to bed with Yan Shuo in his arms, and the two rolled around on the bed, hugging firmly. Shen Ze grabbed the only pillow on the bed, put Yan Shuo on his arm, and hugged him tightly into his arms: "You sleep here."

Yan Shuo: "..."

It's weird to be able to sleep.

Yan Shuo closed his eyes and said, "Hey."

Shen Ze answered vaguely.

Yan Shuo whispered: "I said twice, did you hear me clearly?"

"I heard it clearly." Shen Ze said.

Yan Shuo was a little dissatisfied: "Then why don't you respond to me..."

"What response do you want?" Shen Ze said in a low voice, "I'm afraid to scare you."

Yan Shuo: "What's so terrible..."

"Try it?" Shen Ze grabbed his hand and pressed it down, "Aren't you afraid."

Yan Shuo: "..."

Damn, what am I afraid of.

Yan Shuo drilled down, leaned his head on Shen Ze's chest, and reached out to help him out.

After doing this for a long time, they entangled and refused to sleep, and it was almost dawn before they could not help but close their eyes.

Waking up at noon the next day, Yan Shuo was used to staying in the show crew, and suddenly returned to his dormitory, feeling a trance of not knowing where he was when he opened his eyes.

Yan Shuo rubbed his eyes and got out of bed barefoot. Shen Ze immediately held him down, handed the slippers over, then bowed his head and kissed him on the forehead, and went back to the room to wash and change his clothes.

Shen Ze opened the door, and Yan Shuo chased after him: "Your hand—"

He wanted to say that you forgot to take your handphone, but as soon as the door opened, Yan Shuo and Shen Ze stood inside the door. Li Jin, Qi Haoyu, and Fu Xinyan were all in the living room outside, and the three looked at them with different expressions.

Yan Shuo: "..."

Qi Haoyu first said: "Brother, are you back? What time did you come back yesterday?"

"It's past twelve o'clock."

"Oh." Qi Haoyu shifted his gaze to Shen Ze, "Brother Ze? How did you get out of Brother Yan's room?"

Shen Ze: "..."

Yan Shuo: "..."

Yesterday when I came back too late, Yan Shuo didn't pay attention to whether there were shoes at the door, and forgot that there was someone in the house.

Later, he and Shen Ze had fool around, and he didn't even think of it.

Good now, they've been caught.

But Qi Haoyu didn't understand, and Fu Xinyan didn't immediately understand. Looking at their expressions, he was a little confused, but he was much smarter than Qi Haoyu, and he realized it in a few seconds, turned his gaze away, and went on to do his own business.

Only Li Jin didn't show any fluctuations in his expression throughout the whole process and gave a meaningful smile, his smile full of old father's kindness and compassion.

Yan Shuo: "..."