Chapter 22

Yan Shuo listened and sat directly beside Shen Ze.

The bed was very big, and they leaned side by side on the head of the bed. The serious atmosphere was inexplicably funny. Yan Shuo thought it might be because the posture was so funny that the posture was too similar to that of elementary school students sitting in a row.

He uncomfortably switched to the other side of Shen Ze and cleared his throat: "Actually, I don't have anything important to say. I'm bored. We have lived together for so long and haven't had a good chat."

"Chat?" Shen Ze puzzled, "What do you want to talk about?"

"Hobbies? Feelings? Careers? Ideals in life? Anything is fine." Yan Shuo has laid a good foundation. He said, "I remember when you sang to enter the joy. The first time we met, Li Linjia had a meeting and asked us to get acquainted with each other. When you were askes to perform what you are good at, you sang a song and sang out of tune. I was very nervous at the time. I thought you were also too nervous, so it's understandable. I was also enthusiastically ready to round the stage, afraid that you would be embarrassed…"

Yan Shuo's memory of this incident is extremely deep. It was about three years ago when his impression of Shen Ze was fixed in one fell swoop: "But after you sang, all of us were embarrassed by your singing, but you yourself are not at all embarrassed by it. Ashamed, with you chin held high, you glanced at us angrily, your eyes looked like a military parade, make us applaud."

Shen Ze: "..."

"It's all over the past eight hundred years, do you have to mention it?" Shen Ze was dug into the black history face to face, unhappily pulled Yan Shuo over, and punished him as usual.

Yan Shuo was strangled, and smiled while struggling: "I want to raise my mind first, and I'm going to praise you soon."

"Well, you boast."

Shen Ze let go of his hand, and when Yan Shuo was about to leave, regained his strength, letting him change a comfortable position and leaned against his arms.

Yan Shuo originally wanted to boast, but when he got so close, he suddenly smelled the damp moisture on Shen Ze, mixed with a familiar fragrance, "Did you use my shampoo?" He leaned forward a bit, touch Shen Ze's hair tip and sniff gently.

"Really? You must be wrong." Shen Ze said.

Yan Shuo didn't believe it: "How could I be wrong? Mine is a black bottle, and yours is white."

Shen Ze: "Why can't I use just a little shampoo? What are you angry about? A stingy man."

"..."

I don’t care about the shampoo...

Yan Shuo was choked for a while, unable to find words to express his slightly ambiguous mood, so he followed Shen Ze and said, "What's wrong with being stingy? You haven't paid me back one thousand three hundred and two last time."

Shen Ze glanced at him silently: "Okay, pay you back now."

After that, Shen Ze put his arm around him, and opened WeChat with one hand with the other hand to transfer money online.

"Do you want interest? Are these enough?"

Yan Shuo didn't see how much Shen Ze had transferred. He listened to the buzzing sound of WeChat. He curiously picked up the phone and took a look. There were ten transfers in total, two hundred and five each.

…

"Thank you, it's too much." Yan Shuo ordered the money one by one, and prepared to send back after receiving the money, "I'll return it for you."

Shen Ze said, "No, buy a few more bottles of shampoo for the stingy ghosts for the rest."

Yan Shuo: "..."

The topic is crooked to this point, and the atmosphere is basically gone.

Yan Shuo finally found an opportunity to speak, and couldn't give up halfway.

He put down the phone, took away Shen Ze's phone, put them aside together, and said solemnly: "Where did we talk?"

"Talking to praise me." Shen Ze didn't understand it. "What are you trying to say? Don't go around in circles, just say it."

"I didn't go around in circles." Yan Shuo said, "I don't want to chat with you, have a good exchange, and promote teammates."

She Ze looked at him.

Yan Shuo said: "For a while at the beginning of this year, Li Linjia asked me to communicate with you every day to get a good relationship. Do you remember why? At that time, it was rumored that you were going to leave the group and fly solo. Li Linjia had difficulty communicating with you. Send me to inquire about the situation, and explore your mind."

"I have no impression."

"Of course you have no impression, because I didn't find you at all... Frankly speaking, we have been in the regiment for almost three years. Excluding the time we lived together, what you said to me before was counted with one hand every week. Come here, the two of us are not familiar at all, let me communicate with you, it is embarrassing me."

"Oh." Shen Ze was expressionless, "Am I so difficult to get along with?"

Yan Shuo remembered that he was going to praise others, and suddenly changed his tone: "I didn't say that you are difficult to get along with." He smiled, laughing a little bit of carelessness and unkindness, Shen Ze glared at him, and Yan Shuo murmured. "I mean you have a personality, a talented cool guy with an unusual personality, how to complement each other."

"But..." Yan Shuo's conversation turned, "We rarely had intersections before, and we never communicated. Compared with the current relationship, don't you think it's progressing a bit... I mean, I can't adapt, it feels unnatural, no peace of mind."

After laying the groundwork for 8 million words, Yan Shuo tried his best to elicit this sentence.

Shen Ze still looked at him, seeming to be a little puzzled: "Why is it unnatural, why not feel at ease? You say it as if I'm trying to plot against you..."

Yan Shuo was speechless for a while, and Shen said: "What can I do for you, where will you lose? No, what are you afraid of?"

"..."

I don’t know what I’m afraid of, but I’m just panicking...

Yan Shuo sat on the bed, unconsciously tugging at the bed sheet to play with his fingers.

What is he afraid of, and why he has to go to the bottom repeatedly, because there is an intuition that the situation is out of control, which always feels wrong. It seems to have strayed into a cloud of mist, and you will never see what is hidden in front of you if you don't blow the mist away.

"I can't feel your purpose." Yan Shuo couldn't help but said completely frankly, "Everyone who does things, no matter the big or small things, even the ordinary things like eating and sleeping, has its necessary purpose. It's for rest. In order to eat. But you and I now...help each other. I don't think your reason is tenable. Do you really need to solve it? I don't think you are the kind of...er, the person with strong needs."

Yan Shuo said it euphemistically. In fact, he faintly felt that this relationship did not match Shen Ze’s usual style. Shen Ze should be the kind of indifferent sexuality. The pleasure value that pure sensuality can bring to him is limited. He pays more attention to spiritual pursuit. That's right.

To put it bluntly, if Shen Ze is a carnivorous man who can sleep like Li Jin, he thinks this relationship is understandable.

But Shen Ze is not.

Moreover, the most basic understanding between two people comes from knowing what he wants from you. If you are unpredictable and the other person tries to "control" you, this feeling can't be worse.

"Brother Ze." Yan Shuo thought for a while, "Actually, you are very happy with me, right?"

"..."

Shen Ze didn't say a word, Yan Shuo whispered: "You like to be close to me..."

Shen Ze still didn't speak, only staring at him quietly.

Yan Shuo felt the sense of distance again. Shen Ze is very direct. He doesn't do anything superficially. He is so straightforward that people feel that EQ is low, not smooth, but also very indirect. The deeper emotions are never dripping, and the mind is very deep.

Yan Shuo almost wanted to give up. Unilateral communication was very tiring. He finally understood what Li Linjia meant by "communication difficulties".

"Forget it."

"Yes, I like it."

The two spoke at the same time, Yan Shuo was taken aback, and looked up at Shen Ze.

"I said, I like to be close to you." Shen Ze suddenly stepped forward and pushed him onto the bed. "Probably from the first time you acted like a baby to me..."

"I haven't acted like a baby to you."

"You have."

"..."

Yan Shuo couldn't explain it, and Shen Ze said, "Do you understand that feeling? It's curious."

Yan Shuo: "..."

Are you curious about acting like a baby, can you speak?

Perhaps receiving his dissatisfaction, Shen Ze changed his description: "It is very novel. I feel like I have eaten a piece of sugar that I have never tasted before. The taste is a bit difficult to taste. It makes my heart itchy and I want to try it again. Take a bite to confirm what it is... I know I shouldn't, but you always dangle in front of me, and you are so annoying that you are acting like a baby and crying to me."

Yan Shuo: "..."

I am not, I don't, don't talk nonsense.

"Later I thought, "Eat what I want, why can't I?"

Shen Ze lowered his head and kissed him, biting his lip.

The scorching breath was like a raging heat wave, Yan Shuo was suddenly caught, whimpered in a low voice, and swallowed the final sound.

Shen Ze gently stroked his face, kissing deeply and slowly, so slowly that it made people feel that every detail was magnified, and the lingering was particularly erotic.

Yan Shuo panted quickly, his chest rising and falling with the other's heartbeat. He subconsciously wanted to grasp the shirt of Shen Ze, and realized the ambiguity and obedience in it at the moment he made the action. He immediately changed the route, lowered his hand and grasped the bed sheet tightly.

Kissing for a long time. After the end, Shen Ze kissed him sticky a few more times, and said hoarsely: "You like it too, don't you?"

"..."

Yan Shuo bit his lower lip, biting out a piece of white from his red lips.

Shen Ze said: "I thought you like it too. We are doing very well. I didn't expect it to cause you such a deep distress. What do you want me to explain, the purpose? No purpose, to be with the person you like, to satisfy yourself, Is it a purpose?"

"……'the person you like'?"

Yan Shuo caught the key words, and when he looked at each other at close range, his eyes narrowed slightly, "Do you like me?"

Shen Ze shook his head and nodded again: "If you are a girl, I think I would like it very much, but it's a pity..."

"..." Yan Shuo finally understood a little bit, "You mean, you like my type, but unfortunately I am a male, so you should have pursued me, but now you can only change to a way of helping each other. You are really a straight man."

Yan Shuo realized that he was a Chinese genius and used "Jianju" too accurately. He saw Shen Ze frowning slightly. He was obviously uncomfortable with the word, but he couldn't refute it.

"So you now..." Yan Shuo paused, "When you were with me, you both liked and regretted. You are looking forward to having a girl like me appear? When she appears, you don't need me? Are you using me as a spare tire? No, as a substitute? Not right..."

No more precise words can be found this time.

Shen Ze was stunned for a moment. He didn't expect him to say something like this: "I didn't mean that."

"That's what you mean." Yan Shuo frowned, the air pressure around his body was very low.

Shen Ze didn't know if he had nothing to say or what, staring at him silently, he said for a long time: "No, I didn't think so much."

"Oh." Yan Shuo was in a complicated mood.

No matter what Shen Ze considers him, Shen Ze is satisfied. But he was more fearful than enjoyment. In contrast, his face was lost, and he was a bit embarrassed.

Shen Ze insisted and said again: "I didn't mean that."

Yan Shuo didn't think there was any use in debating this issue, and said dumbly, "I don't want to play with you, let's end it."