Yangzhaoming Jiao
我想被看到，我想被听到。这是我在申请MACS时，文章开头的第一句话。现在，我认为我向自己的目标更迈近了一步，用不同的故事，不同的方法，去看，去听，去说，去感受一个不一样的世界。然后让自己也被世界看到，听到。在信息爆炸的时代去辨别有效的信息以及独立的批判性思考是重要的。同时，如何发声？发声是为了什么？个人叙事的意义是什么？这些也是人们应该不断思考的问题。
I want to be seen and I want to be heard. These were the first words I used at the beginning of my essay when I applied to MACS. Now, I think I'm one step closer to my goal of seeing, hearing, speaking, and feeling about a different world with different stories, in different ways. And then let myself be seen and heard by the world as well. In the age of information explosion, it is important to discern valid information as well as independent critical thinking. At the same time, how to speak up? What is the purpose of speaking out? What is the meaning of personal narrative? These are also questions that people should keep thinking about.
在这份档案当中，我会讲自己与文化研究缘起的故事，也会说一说在这两年中我所做出的项目及思考。我来时有很多的问题，而我也将带着更多的问题结束我的这段旅程。但是思考永无止境，学习永无止境。那些我没有找到答案的问题会激励我努力。或许我永远不会在某些问题上得到答案，因为这世间万事万物不是只有对与错，也不是只有一个标准答案。我要做的，只是不断进步，尝试找到合适的，更好的应对问题的方法，只要不停止思考。
In this portfolio, I will tell the story of my journey in Cultural Studies, and I will talk about the projects and reflections that I have made during these two years. I came with a lot of questions, and I will end my journey in MACS with more questions. But thinking never ends and learning never ends. The questions I don't find answers to will motivate me to experience and practice. Maybe I will never get the answer to some questions, because there is not only right and wrong, nor is there only one standard answer to things in this world. All I have to do is keep improving and try to find a better way to deal with problems, as long as I don't stop thinking.
谨以这份档案记录我在MACS所学到，得到的知识。当有人问我研究生专业是什么，做了什么的时候，我能将这作为我所骄傲的答卷。也希望更多对文化研究感兴趣的人能够了解这个专业。更具体一些，我希望学校中更多的中国留学生能够知道本校的Master of Arts in Cultural Studies (MACS).
This is a record of what I have learned and gained at MACS. When someone asks me what my major was in my Master's and what I did, I can take this as my proud answer. I also hope that more people who are interested in cultural studies will learn about the program. More specifically, I hope that more Chinese students at the university will know about the Master of Arts in Cultural Studies (MACS).
Why would I want to make this Portfolio in two languages?
I want to use my language strength to do worldwide cultural studies but not just European or American cultural studies. Harewood and Krabill worried that "vast swaths of cultural studies literature being produced in languages other than English are being lost for faculty and students alike" (pg.18). Different voices and discourses are essential for cultural studies, and I also hope I could use my language strength to study literature in Chinese. Literature in other languages is important because they contain different ideologies, discourses, and many different things in cultural studies. In "Marxism Cultural theory and popular culture: An introduction," wrote by Storey mentioned that "The Marxist approach to culture insists that texts and practices must be analyzed in relation to their historical conditions of production (and in some versions, the changing conditions of their consumption and reception" (pg. 67). With the different historical conditions of each country, their cultural studies literature would also contain different perspectives that scholars analyzed.