Deep and dark thoughts in my head

Was I meant to think of sunshine and rainbows?

Behind my smile are tears

Full of sorrow like emotional shift gears

The mask I hold up every single day

Leading many astray even after

Constantly being asked how I feel

And with fraudulent grace, I say I'm okay

I once more show that big and bright smile

Carried on my face nice and tight

Once I am isolated, I sit alone

Crying like a baby who fights sleep

Many people trying to convince

Me it's alright to let my guard down

Ever so quickly do I change subject

Right in their face with a lie, I say

I have nothing to hide

It's okay they say

I respond no really I'm fine

Once again shutting them out

While their attention is elsewhere

I hurry to make a swift move

Before my eyeballs begin to shine

Alone again I am

Over and over letting depression hit

Just feels like falling endlessly

Into an eternal somber pit

I stand and look in the mirror

Saying to my reflection

What have you become?

Thinking of the fallen parts of me

That I could've made whole again

Hating the present that

I am not the past girl

As I sit and blame myself

And blaming the world

One day I will sit and

Wish to be hopeful again

And with a change of heart

With a turning point for the good

As I already feel I'm very much

Disconnected from mind, body,

And soul we'll just have to

Wait and see what's next

The main thing that made me want to write was based simply on the fact that I was alone when I did it. Sometimes being alone isn't as bad as others make it to be. But it just really depends on how long you're alone for. 'Cause sometimes that amount of loneliness can drive a huge wedge in between so much you used to enjoy.