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fect day, shines more clearly, it comes to pass, that in these beams of the sun, as when it shines into a house, you may see more motes, and very many things amiss in your heart and life, which were not discovered nor discerned before; you must not say you had less sin then, because you saw it not, or more sin now, because you see more. For as the eye of your mind sees every day more clearly, and as your hearts grow every day more holy; so will sin appear unto you every day more and more, for your constant humiliation and daily reformation. For a Christian, if he go not backward, sees in his advanced lifetime more clearly, what is yet before him to be done, and with what an high degree of affection he ought to serve God, and to what an height of perfection he ought to raise his thoughts in his holy aim, which in the infancy of his Christianity he could not see; hence his error. Even as it is usual for a novice in the University, when he has read over a few systems of the arts, &c., to conceit better of himself for scholarship, than when he has more profound knowledge in those arts afterwards, for then he sees his difficulties, which his weak knowledge not being able to pry into, passed over with presumption of his knowing all.

Secondly, Good desires, and enjoyments of comforts are sudden, new, and strange at first, which suddenness, strangeness, and newness of change, out of a state of corruption and death, into the state of grace and life, is more sensible, and leaves behind a deeper impression, than can possibly be made, after such time that a man is accustomed to it: or than can be added by the increase of the same grace. A man that comes out of a close, dark, and stinking dungeon, is more sensible of the benefit of a sweet air, of light and liberty the first week, than he is seven years after he has enjoyed these to the full. Let a mean man be raised suddenly and undeservedly to the state and glory of a king, he will be more sensible of the change, and will be more ravished with the glory of his estate for the first week or month, than at ten years' end when he is accustomed to the heart and state of a