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such a manner, that the body is wrought upon more sensibly, than when a spiritual object of grief is only apprehended by faith. Wherefore bodily tears flow easily from sense of crosses, and more hardly from thoughts of sin: for spiritual objects do not ordinarily work passions in the body so soon, nor so much, as bodily and sensible objects do. Grief for a cross is more outward and passionate; thence tears; but spiritual grief is more inward and deep, in which cases, tears lie so far off, and the organs of tears are so much contracted, and shut up, that they cannot be fetched or wrung out, but with much labour. When you are bidden in Scripture to mourn and weep for your sins, nothing else is meant, but to grieve much, and to grieve heartily, as they do, who weep much at outward calamities. Besides it is not unknown that even in natural grief, dry grief is many times greater than that which is moistened, and overflows with tears. And some soft effeminate spirits can weep at any thing, when some harder spirits can weep at nothing. As the greatest spiritual joy is not expressed in laughter, so neither is the greatest spiritual grief expressed in tears. God regards the inward sighing of a contrite heart, more than the outward tears of the eyes, Psa. li. 17. An hypocritical Saul, being overcome with kindness, 1 Sam. xxiv. 17, 18, and a false-hearted Ahab, being upon the rack of fear, 1 Kings xxi. 27, 29, may in their qualms and passions weep, and externally humble themselves, and that in part for sin; when a dear child of God may not be able to command one tear. The time when God's children have most plenty of tears, is when the extremity and anguish of grief is well over, namely, when their hearts begin to melt through hope of mercy, Zech. xii. 10.

And as for leaving sin altogether; Who ever did it in this life? Who ever shall? Since there is no man that lives, and sins not, 2 Chron. vi. 36. But mistake not, you may through God's grace have left sin, when yet sin has not left you. For whosoever hates sin, and resolves against it, and in the law of his mind