Recording a video
(inspired by the pasture from Robert Frost)
I’m going to record a video
I’m not gonna stop until I’m done
I haven’t uploaded in 3 days
What do my viewers do when I’m away?
I won’t be gone for long,
You can help me record!
I open the app
And chose a roleplaying game to play
“I'm going to the school”
I typed in the chat
“I won’t be there long, you can come too!”
After a few minutes,
I stopped recording and uploaded the video.
How I’m made
10% confidence, I’m not very confident but it’s something
25% insecure, there are things I dislike about myself
25% tall, almost as tall as a tree
15% fat, it’s something that I think people hate about me
25% my personality, some people like me for it, some people don’t.
I was bullied in my six years of elementary school
I was called names
And my self esteem
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In kindergarten through third grade
This girl was constantly calling me names
And making fun of me.
I told teachers, and adults.
Teachers did nothing but warned her. She never
STOPPED
Until fourth grade.
I was also called a tattletale.
Last year, this kid who I thought was my friend
Betrayed me. He called me names I didn’t like
Even when I said stop.
I never told my parents but only my friends
And sometimes teachers but when I did tell teachers
I was told to
“Just ignore it”.
I didn’t want to be called that so I didn’t say anything
A few recesses later. I tried
“Suing” that person.
Didn’t work.
I don’t know WHY I thought of that.
After fourth grade I kinda learned how to
Defend myself.
That was my elementary school story
That was my elementary school life
Up to fifth grade
Did I like it?
Absolutely not
Did I get through it?
Yeah.
Rumors
Rumors are words that are spread by others
Some rumors are lies,
Some rumors are true
But that doesn’t mean anyone has the right
To tell anyone else personal business
Owned by you.
Nobody has a right
To spread personal business about others.
I mean NOBODY
Rumors have been spread about me of who I liked
It wasn’t fair, and it wasn’t fun.
I found out about it from this student who asked if I liked this one person
I said no,
he said
“that’s what I heard”
I knew who it was because this one kid on my bus said
he was gonna spread those rumors.
At least I don’t have to face that kid again
When I change schools.
Another situation happened when one of my classmates
Came up to me and said
“(Person who spread other rumors) said you liked me.”
I don’t know
what
I did to deserve this
Sprinklers
In kindergarten
We went to the playground across
The street to play in the sprinklers
I was really excited because I never got to play
In the sprinklers.
I ran through the sprinklers with my friends.
We were there for about 30 minutes.
Those were good memories
But it’s sad to think about it now
Because I’m too tall
To go through it without
bending.
Unless I want to hit my forehead.
Fireworks
I was putting in my pajamas
Late at night.
I was putting on my shirt until
BOOM
I jumped to the other corner of the bed in fear.
I thought there were people killing each other
My heart was beating really fast.
Like someone has mistaken my heart
For a drum
I managed to get my shirt on while my mom
Got a cup of water.
I was told that the loud noise was fireworks
And not anything bad.
I moved the curtains a little bit to see
Bright colors in the sky
In front of me.
I never heard much loud noises in my life,
When I do, my heart skips a beat.
Coffee
Coffee is one of my favorite drinks in the morning
I either drink it with milk and sugar
Or just with sugar.
Either way,
I love coffee.
I love the sweetness from the sugar
And the bitterness from the coffee
Mixed together
Also the Starbucks Frappuccino coffee
From target.
Maybe it’s genetics
Or maybe it’s fate.
Images
Not all images
Are physical
Some are just
In our heads
Like feelings,
We feel them mentally
And we have an image in our heads
Of what made us feel that way.
Not all can control their feelings
The images in their heads are strong
The stronger the image,
The stronger the feeling.
Small
I feel small
I may look tall and strong
But I feel weak and not able
To join you
I’m not weak physically
But I’m weak mentally.
Quarantine burn out
Some may not be outside
But those people are tired.
Tired of online work
Tired of staying inside.
Their fire has burned out
And has gone weak.
Their fire burned out
Because water was dumped on it
The water is the pressure
They give themselves
And the fire is their mental health.
People use giving criticism as an excuse
For being rude.
For example
If someone said
They think ____ about your art
Is bad
That’s being plain rude.
Better criticism is
“I think you could do ____
To make it look better”
That’s better in my opinion.