newlyn's poetry

Bored

I’m bored

Nothing I want to do

And hungry

Recording a video

(inspired by the pasture from Robert Frost)

I’m going to record a video

I’m not gonna stop until I’m done

I haven’t uploaded in 3 days

What do my viewers do when I’m away?

I won’t be gone for long,

You can help me record!

I open the app

And chose a roleplaying game to play

“I'm going to the school”

I typed in the chat

“I won’t be there long, you can come too!”

After a few minutes,

I stopped recording and uploaded the video.

How I’m made

10% confidence, I’m not very confident but it’s something
25% insecure, there are things I dislike about myself
25% tall, almost as tall as a tree
15% fat, it’s something that I think people hate about me
25% my personality, some people like me for it, some people don’t.

My Elementary school story

I was bullied in my six years of elementary school

I was called names

And my self esteem

In kindergarten through third grade

This girl was constantly calling me names

And making fun of me.

I told teachers, and adults.

Teachers did nothing but warned her. She never

STOPPED

Until fourth grade.

I was also called a tattletale.

Last year, this kid who I thought was my friend

Betrayed me. He called me names I didn’t like

Even when I said stop.

I never told my parents but only my friends

And sometimes teachers but when I did tell teachers

I was told to

“Just ignore it”.

I didn’t want to be called that so I didn’t say anything

A few recesses later. I tried

“Suing” that person.

Didn’t work.

I don’t know WHY I thought of that.

After fourth grade I kinda learned how to

Defend myself.

That was my elementary school story

That was my elementary school life

Up to fifth grade

Did I like it?

Absolutely not

Did I get through it?

Yeah.

Rumors

Rumors are words that are spread by others

Some rumors are lies,

Some rumors are true

But that doesn’t mean anyone has the right

To tell anyone else personal business

Owned by you.

Nobody has a right

To spread personal business about others.

I mean NOBODY

Rumors have been spread about me of who I liked

It wasn’t fair, and it wasn’t fun.

I found out about it from this student who asked if I liked this one person

I said no,

he said

“that’s what I heard”

I knew who it was because this one kid on my bus said

he was gonna spread those rumors.

At least I don’t have to face that kid again

When I change schools.

Another situation happened when one of my classmates

Came up to me and said

“(Person who spread other rumors) said you liked me.”

I don’t know

what

I did to deserve this

Sprinklers

In kindergarten

We went to the playground across

The street to play in the sprinklers

I was really excited because I never got to play

In the sprinklers.

I ran through the sprinklers with my friends.

We were there for about 30 minutes.

Those were good memories

But it’s sad to think about it now

Because I’m too tall

To go through it without

bending.

Unless I want to hit my forehead.

Fireworks

I was putting in my pajamas

Late at night.

I was putting on my shirt until

BOOM

I jumped to the other corner of the bed in fear.

I thought there were people killing each other

My heart was beating really fast.

Like someone has mistaken my heart

For a drum

I managed to get my shirt on while my mom

Got a cup of water.

I was told that the loud noise was fireworks

And not anything bad.

I moved the curtains a little bit to see

Bright colors in the sky

In front of me.

I never heard much loud noises in my life,

When I do, my heart skips a beat.

Coffee

Coffee is one of my favorite drinks in the morning

I either drink it with milk and sugar

Or just with sugar.

Either way,

I love coffee.

I love the sweetness from the sugar

And the bitterness from the coffee

Mixed together

Also the Starbucks Frappuccino coffee

From target.

Maybe it’s genetics

Or maybe it’s fate.

Images

Not all images

Are physical

Some are just

In our heads

Like feelings,

We feel them mentally

And we have an image in our heads

Of what made us feel that way.

Not all can control their feelings

The images in their heads are strong

The stronger the image,

The stronger the feeling.

Small

I feel small

I may look tall and strong

But I feel weak and not able

To join you

I’m not weak physically

But I’m weak mentally.

Quarantine burn out

Some may not be outside

But those people are tired.

Tired of online work

Tired of staying inside.

Their fire has burned out

And has gone weak.

Their fire burned out

Because water was dumped on it

The water is the pressure

They give themselves

And the fire is their mental health.

“Criticism”

People use giving criticism as an excuse

For being rude.

For example

If someone said

They think ____ about your art

Is bad

That’s being plain rude.

Better criticism is

“I think you could do ____

To make it look better”

That’s better in my opinion.