Part 3. Mathematics

With many of the wounds of my childhood still unhealed but now recognized, and my mythopoetic identity secured, I began to construct the world that would define my life. The struggles of my early years became the impetus for my creative journey—one driven by philosophical inquiry, artistic exploration, and mathematical invention—not for my benefit alone, but in service of the common good.

From these three threads, I wove a braid, much as Douglas Hofstadter did in Gödel, Escher, Bach. The culmination of that work and play can be seen in the vignettes that follow. They do not build toward a singular vision, but rather a cascade: blueprints for the Grail as a novel system of creativity, Camelot College—my vision for the future of mathematics and academia—Camelot CAD, the Grail software, and its integration into a seamless Mathematics-to-Molecular Manufacturing system, capable of restoring fertility and fecundity to the land.

Before I could fulfill my quests, however, there was one last obstacle to overcome—a dark night of the soul marked by an episode of paranoid psychosis, and a confrontation with the one thing I feared most.

These creative visions represent the fulfillment of the Grail quest as I have lived it. But there is one more unexpected revelation I must share—one that came to me recently, and with great power. I have saved it for the end. It is a capstone, a speculative insight that offers a sense of cosmic participation through a mathematical lens—an expansion into something even larger than the quest itself. 

Examples of my mathematical art can be found here: Albert P. Carpenter