Introduction

Like my life, this book is conceived in four parts.

Part One: Madness explores, through prose and poetry, the spectrum of experiences I faced growing up with a bipolar mother. These stories are told from a child’s perspective, reflecting how her condition permeated every aspect of our lives. Yet amidst the chaos, there was also laughter, play, and moments of unexpected joy.

Part Two: Myth marks the journey I undertook to heal the wounds of my childhood. In that process, I began to recognize those same wounds mirrored in the world around me. Healing myself became inseparable from a desire to heal the world. This section culminates in a revelation — the discovery of my mythopoetic identity and the realization that my life has been, all along, a mythic journey.

Part Three: Mathematics is my world-building phase as a mathematical artist and creator. Here, I offer a set of nested blueprints radiating outward from the central design of the Grail — reimagined as a system of creativity. Together, these blueprints form the conceptual and structural foundation for a new Camelot.

Part Four: Memoir is deliberately open-ended. It marks the return — not with a finished story, but with the beginning of a new chapter in the Grail myth. It is a return bearing the boons of the quest, and an invitation to co-create what comes next.

That’s why I’m actively seeking your feedback. This is not just my memoir — it is a living text. I hope you’ll join me in shaping it, and in building Camelot together.