Log XVIII

    A little bit of an update. I'm no longer depressed. A lot has happened since we've last spoken. It's been, what... a month? Let's go over it all.

    There was a C-Class I met that reminded me a bit of P.W. back in his early days. His name is Sebastien LeBlanc. He's young, I think he's barely 19. I got him to join Medical, as he didn't seem like the type to be combative. He's all the way up to CN now. I'm very proud, but also worried. He's got an alcohol problem, one that I saw firsthand tonight. I worry about him...

    Belial was taken for a week. It was hell on Earth, and it was awful. She came back last week an utter mess. She freaks out now when anyone calls her madam, ma'am, miss, or anything of the sort. I saw it happen when Nightshade called her madam like he does for most of his female superiors. Belial freaked out. I can't say I blame her. The CI called her "Miss Belial" when torturing her, from what I hear. I just hope she's doing well. She scares me still a little bit, but I still worry about her. I doubt she wants to be my friend though. She seems like a woman of strict duty.

    Nightshade is showing his religious side a lot more confidently these days. I fear horribly for him. This was how Father fell down the rabbit hole. He took to God more than he used to, got closer with his faith... and then flew too close to the Sun. Saw something that spooked him to the core. What makes this even worse is that Nightshade is actively looking into the events leading up to Father's church disaster. I found an old journal of Fathers in his possession. I don't like where this is going. At this rate, he's going to find whatever Father wrote about when he went off the deep end... and I fear that Nightshade will follow suit.

    Onto some good news! I got promoted today, twice actually! I got promoted from Sergeant Major to Warrant Officer, and from Vanguard Co-Lead to Specialisation Overseer. I almost denied the promotion because of my duties to Vanguard, but quite honestly it shouldn't take more than another week for J.P. and I to finish up a new SOP for the Vanguards. 

    I have a long way to go before I can gain the attention of Xi-8. I need to mature more. This crashout over the loss of Tyrian definitely hurt my chances of ever getting considered. If I want to have any hope, I need to prepare myself for when Nightshade inevitably dies. If it goes in any way how I imagine it to... I may have to be the one to pull the trigger myself, before he hurts anyone.

    Anyways, ciao for now! I finally got ahold of Silence's comms. A step in the right direction, for sure.

    ~ Dak Kyra