This case study is about Nila, a 47-year-old woman whose unique spiritual journey and past-life karma were intertwined with her physical symptoms. She came to me with facial palsy, diabetes, and hypertension, but a far deeper issue lay beneath the surface: an unusual, debilitating fear.
Nila's life was a mosaic of faiths. Her father was a Muslim, her mother a Buddhist, and she was married into a Christian family. However, she was uniquely gifted. Since childhood, she had the ability to receive a healing oil in her palms from Lord Shiva during meditation and would speak in a strange language. Her family, with no religious restrictions, had always supported this gift.
Despite the benign nature of her physical illness, which was confirmed by a normal MRI, Nila was consumed by an unusual fear. Given her spiritual background, I guided her into meditation to explore its deeper cause.
In a deep trance, Nila began to describe a past life. She saw herself as a childless woman in a village in Nepal, approximately in the 7th century. She was a Hindu yogi who practiced vegetarianism and was devoted to Lord Shiva. In this life, she cared for a young girl whose parents worked all day. She loved the girl as her own, but one day, while she was busy in the kitchen, the girl fell into a river and drowned. Though it was an accident and not her fault, Nila felt that the girl was angry with her for not saving her. She believed this unresolved guilt and the girl's anger were the source of her current fear. During the session, Nila also saw her deceased father from this life, who reassured her that he was in a good place and was happy.
The meditation then shifted to a traumatic event in her current life. Before her marriage, Nila worked as an air hostess, enjoying a vibrant, independent life. But after marriage, her husband's disapproval led her to quit. While her husband was abroad, Nila started a business but was cheated by a friend who she felt had "charmed" her. She lost all her money, felt betrayed, and in a moment of utter desperation, she attempted to take her own life and that of her child. God saved her, and her husband's voice jolted her back to reality.
This horrific event became a turning point. Utterly devastated, she turned to faith for the first time. She began to worship Lord Shiva and his son, Murugan, with a fervor she had never known. She meditated, fasted, and started using her innate gift to heal others, offering free treatment to the poor who could not afford medical care. She healed a girl's chronic rash, and this miracle strengthened her faith. However, she felt a constant struggle as "Saitan" (evil) tried to pull her away from her spiritual path.
Nila's journey had come full circle. The girl she failed to save in her past life had created a deep-seated fear, and the woman who cheated her in this life led her to a desperate state. Both experiences ultimately pushed her toward a path of faith and healing, transforming her from a vulnerable person to a powerful healer. She finally found peace in her mission to serve others. As the session ended, her deep sense of peace was evident as she drifted into a restorative sleep, suggesting her symptoms were finally alleviated.
On September 25, 2004, during a follow-up meditation session, Nila's healing journey continued as she sought to understand the lingering fear she felt from her past life. The session revealed the fate of the child she felt she had failed, provided a profound message from her deceased father, and culminated in a display of her innate spiritual gifts.
I asked Nila to revisit the past-life child she was so worried about. She quickly entered a trance and saw the child's soul had been reborn. The child, now a happy, six- or seven-year-old girl, was in a crowded place in the middle of India. Nila described her as having curly hair and a fair complexion. She believed the girl's name was Rakhiya, and her father's name was P. Singh, a wealthy Punjabi businessman who traveled the world. Nila felt a sense of peace, knowing that the child was happy and well-cared for in her new life. However, when she tried to see the address, she experienced a blockage, suggesting this information was meant to remain private.
The session took a powerful turn when Nila began to speak about her deceased father. Her voice and demeanor changed, and she repeatedly chanted "Allah O Akbar" ("God is Great"), a testament to her diverse spiritual heritage. Nila, who was raised by a Muslim father, asked if she could cover her head during the session. She then described a vision of her father, happy and at peace, performing the Hajj—the sacred pilgrimage to Mecca—which he had always wanted to do but was unable to in his earthly life. He would go around the Kaaba every day at 10 a.m. in Saudi Arabia. Nila remembered a traumatic moment from her life when her father was paralyzed and cried when he saw her, unable to speak. The experience was deeply painful for her. However, seeing him in a state of joy in the afterlife brought her immense comfort. He told her he was happy he hadn't seen her in her state of madness and that he was proud of her.
Following the message from her father, Nila began to chant an ancient mantra, possibly in Nepali, a phenomenon known as Xenoglossia—speaking in a language unknown to the person. She chanted "Om Shiv Shakti, Om Parmeswara, Om Lingeshwara," affirming her connection to her past life as a Hindu yogi. As she chanted, she went into the same state she had since childhood, a trance in which she received healing oil in her hand. The session concluded with Nila in this meditative state, her body a vessel for the ancient spiritual energy that she now uses to heal others.