Key
a girl stands outside Grandmothers door
it is painted blue with a speck of gold
she stares and squints her eyes a little
there is a gap along the bottom
a stretched and lipless grimace
that breathes in and out and in and out
some days the respiring air stinks
footsteps stumble and scuffle the floor
her ears strain to catch a muffled whisper
sunlight through the hallway window
marks the spot where she stands on the rim
where light and shadow meet
sometimes she smells a faint hint of smoke
hears the slight crackling of fire
on those days she hears laughter
sometimes she recognises the fragrance
of storms approaching and stands transfixed
watching water trickle past her toes
Grandmother never invites her inside the room
the creak of bedsprings heralds her exit
the little girl never stays to pry
unconditionally she waits down the hallway
on exit Grandmothers hand always reaches for hers
in the kitchen Nana cheers her with biscuits
their time is sparse like a dying tree
neither glance at the keyless door
nor expect more from each other
a girl and her grandmother sit in contrast
two kindred spirits swaying their feet
as if in rhythm to an unknown tune
the girl stands at Grandmothers door
there is no key hole to the future
and no vision to the past
Free verse 11 stanzas with tercet lines (3 lined verses)
Maternal, Wisdom, Kin, Connection
Like ‘Leaves’, this poem is a meditation on the relationship between a girl and an older relative. Whereas ‘Leaves’ was concerned with the speaker’s father, ‘Key’ is focused on the girl’s relationship with her grandmother.
The grandmother’s bedroom is a private place, and the girl is fascinated by what goes on in there: ‘sometimes she smells the faint hint of smoke / hears the slight crackling of fire / on those days she hears laughter’.
She is never allowed in and, as she grows up, she realises that there are some sides to her grandmother that she will never understand. The ‘key’ of the title could be understood as a metaphor for the ability to access or understand her grandmother’s perspective on the world. By the end of the poem, she has realised that she will never fully achieve this, despite their shared family identity.
The poem ‘Key’ touches on the different influences that have been involved in creating a sense of identity by showing Eckermann standing outside a door – on a threshold between different worlds.
the grandmother represents the past
the granddaughter represents the future
the grandmother holds the key to the past in which the grand child is eager to find as it holds significance to her identity and culture.
Personal and collective identity is shaped by language and culture and due to this can be incredibly complex. Ali Cobby Eckermann uses the recurring motif of the threshold to represent her liminal identity in her poem 'Key'. The thresholds represented include those of the past and the future, black and white, and Aboriginal and European cultures. The door symbolises the cultural barriers that prevent her from fully understanding her Aboriginal grandmother, as reflected in the anaphora of "no key hole to the future / and no vision to the past." With the looming passing of her grandmother the persona will lose her only conduit to the past and this will limit her future because it will constrain her ability to know herself. Cobby Eckermann's complex, liminal identity is further developed through the visual contrast highlighted in "she stands / on the rim where light and shadow meet". The word light here connotes white and therefore her European heritage, while the shadow connotes dark and therefore her black, Aboriginal identity. While they are separate, they are also portrayed as 'meeting' at the rim, therefore connoting a harmony exists between the two aspects of her identity. This visual harmony represents the cohesion Cobby Eckermann has been able to achieve in her later life as she has reconnected with her Aboriginal cultural identity, while also maintaining her European one. As can be seen, Cobby Eckermann's employment of recurring motifs and visual contrast effectively represents the complex identities that emerge when individuals are shaped by more than one language or culture.