To bring really gloomy dig into death by the point of view of man which really cared for it and which was digging a lot into it, must to bring Tolstoy himself, and his extensive writings. Because if Tolstoy's view on death, I try now to say briefly myself, and then like it is to be nowhere near than like if you to read Tolstoy's extensive and gloomy dig into it. And yet I have no choice but to say it the overall meaning of Tolstoy's views on death briefly, since otherwise you may never know what I talking about at all.
Tolstoy was depressed and concerned about death because death to happen anyway, be it either today or after much years, death is certain whatever you may try to do about it. And thus death makes all life's efforts, all life itself, and every human totally futile and pointless. Which is in turn mean neither good like morale exist, neither bad like morale exist. And just everything which have happened with your life or happening now is pointless and futile, since death to take it all away from you anyway. And it was making Tolstoy depressed and concerned.
As it for my own opinion about it. Once I have read his book Anna Karenina, at the time I was about 16, I actually could refute all his such a head chain of thinking about death, by the fact like his initial and first link in his whole chain of thinking about death is being false. Because Tolstoy was assuming a lot of things about death, as if death being a thing about which he know it all for certain. While he himself actually wasn't been dead, thus he actually could not evaluate death. Tolstoy was not knowing anything about death to evaluate death in right ways, and Tolstoy just was assuming and fantasizing things. Since Tolstoy's initial main deriving element in his thinking was wrong, all his consecutive chain of thinking and conclusions was wrong too. You can say like Tolstoy have applied the most scientific and thus the most fair method possible and got materialistic about death. But the truth is, the materialistic view on death isn't being the only opinion available, because you can fantasize anything. Moreover, our world does not consist just of materialism. And any opinion about unknown is being the same fantasies and suggestion as any other fantasies and suggestions. And death is being totally unknown. Thus whatever you to say about what is to happen after death, and it's to be just a suggestion. Thus Tolstoy was using just a suggestion and nothing else. And even if death really is a total cessation of all, a total serenity does not seems any bad at all. I seeing nothing bad about death.
I actually now got very serious, and to make a serious post. I bleeding. My veins cut and it is feels like a slight burning and numbing once you bleeding out of blood through a cut. Hate, pain, sadness and despair are have overcome me, and I had to do what I did, and to cut my veins. All in all it is comforting for me to know the fact like no one will miss me for real, and I got no people even among my close kins who liking me. They can even cry for few days about me out of surprise because me being dead, but they are never actually to miss me. And politicians, news, and much of celebrities gangs crews and their allies, have tried their best for years to slaughter, disgrace, shut, and hurt me. But I by being sly was able to dodge it a lot, and thus I've been surviving, but not anymore. I too tired with all this cruel, sly and unfair world. Certain pleasures eliminate just certain percent of a brain. Drugs and alcohol eliminate just certain percent of a brain. And now actually I to go into complete bliss and to be all dead. 'I shut my eyes and gone into infinite bliss of nothingness and death.'
If you read this, it's mean I possibly died. I myself throughout my life years, have met with death few times. I have met exactly with death of people few times. And once I've met with the death of people real close. It is happened once died my mother once I was 14 years old. And I myself was very sad and cried a lot once my mother died, and in the first few days all the stuff about it looked unreal and just not true. And then throughout like next few months, I by seeing how continuously, often, and a lot my dad was crying while others was watching, and thus my dad by his often crying was stressing my sister and other people in my family even more, I myself decided I need not to overdramatize it. Since we all to die in one way like or another, and stuff like it. Thus I tried not to cry much, and especially not to cry while others watching me. And thus I just tried to cry rarely. But I was wrong, because crying does help, and it helps a lot. After you cry you feel better, and you to sleep better. Thus if you feel like it, you must to cry, and to cry a lot, since it is helps very much.
Now many years after, once the stuff about my dead mother got better for my dad, my sister and me. I myself actually now used to have the same dreams over and over. And those dreams just got the same main stock core of a plot about it. In those numerous dreams I seeing my mother, and my mother all the time like being alive. And the fact like she was dead kept came up as if it was just a certain mistake, or misconception, or secret, or stuff like it, and she is just not dead but actually being very much alive. The fact like I got exactly those dreams over and over, is seems like mean, I deeply in my brain on my certain subconscious level unable to accept the dead of my mother. It's mean I actually was mentally traumatized more than like I considered I was.
I myself after all seems died by now. You must not to be sad about me, since death is not hard for those who died already, but just life is hard for those who are left alive. Thus you need to cry for those who are alive. For those good like people who are alive, and live amid bad and vice numerous gangs and crews of ugly freaks. And if you just feel like sad about whatever, then like you just need to cry and a lot of it, and it is fine really.
Since now actually I died, I to talk about life and dead. We as a people exist in a physical shape and a world, but a physical world got much of non physical things, such as audio, which is you unable to touch physically, and neither to see, neither to seize it. And then like exist a wind which is you unable to see, but you can feel it like on your body. And a wind is influence a physical world and thus it is like partially physical. And then like exist other non physical things such as character traits of certain living things and stuff like it. Which is imply and suggest the existence of a spirit. And together with existence of others non physical things, it is making sense to conclude like we really do have spirits. But it is all possibly being destroyed by a physical brain attachments and correspondence for all character traits. And if you damage and cut out certain part of a brain, you to get completely different character of a living being. Thus it is possibly destroy the existence of spirit possibility, due to a character traits being just a physical brain work and a result of it. Thus it is can mean no life after death. And this together with thing like before your birth once you are not existed, and there was nothing for you then like, and once you die to be exactly same thing, can be looks like all the things which are making sense. But the whole world does not making sense, like the very first origination of things out of nowhere. But only just if a first thing of all was a creator God like being, and it's are only thing which is making sense. But God being maybe seems totally useless then, since once we die, and we to go into nowhere, and the God creator life, maybe got no use at all once we die. And thus I died and moved into bliss of nothingness and death maybe.
And, the truth is, God and ghosts and afterlife can exist really. In fact, I even certain about it now. And I got a lot of ghosts.